“Every Time You Judge Yourself You Break Your Own Heart.”

Socially I've ruined myself by being insane and having bpd like symptoms and now I'm just rotting inside while snacking like crazy and I'm not sure how you're supposed to be after electroshock therapy but I'm definitely not the same anymore. I can't hold conversations or anything like that without them being horribly awkward.

Back from another mental health crisis that lasted a month.

“I don’t hold on to anything anymore. Pain comes at me and I take it, chew it for a few minutes, and spit it back out. It’s just not my thing anymore.”

— Dave Eggers, A Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genius

Considering I spent the last 3 years getting wrecked by life, I don't feel much like drawing right now. Much less do I feel capable of greater forethought than only a few moments in advance before I forget stuff. I'm going to focus on my health and recovery 2024.

I forget things too much.

“The past doesn’t need you anymore. Your future does.”

— Unknown

you do not miss them btw. you miss the version of them you created in your head to which they never lived up to