Every Person Has Not The Ability To Understand Your Talking And Writing.

To the point,

I started to believe in "talent". I don't want to judge right or wrong. From now I firmly believe.

The heart of success does not depend on your TALENT, it depends on your EFFORT.

I wish I could become a skilled guitarist <<<<3

Oh i answered these, really?

9 11 15 19 20 for the ask 😜😎

9.Best month for you this year?

rn my head is blank. oho is it december really>? when had the year gone? I think the year did not go well but the best month was January( whatever I say about college, new new college, new new feelings! ;)

11. Something you want to do again next year?

Hmm. That’s a difficult question. Practically I want to take SAT again next year(lol). But if you say about habit, I want to be strong in any hard circumstances I am going to face next year like this year.(only u know frnd what I had to face this yr and I did not break down)

15.What’s a bad habit you picked up this year?

Oh! A lot!! Firstly sleeping habits. I slept about 10 hrs every day this yr on average. Secondly. my thinking habit(to lie in the bed in the daytime for thinking—>  sleeping—->omg 3 hrs gone!) Thirdly, increasing screen time( tremendously upsurged(abt 9 to 10 hrs per day)) and finally ADHD. I remembered I was totally a nerd in 2018 and now? OMG. It’s not me really.

19. What’re you excited about for next year?

I generally don’t become excited regarding any matter. But next year(most prolly) I will finally decide my life’s goal—> that can’t but exciting.

20. What’s something you learned this year?

The amount is too big that I will not be able to express in words. Actually, I learned from very small fixes of my life. And I can not help saying about your advice every day. Our discussions were really very informative over every topic( philosophical also XD). I learned how to stay calm in the worst conditions. I learned how to give mental support to my family. I learned I am also important to someone :)

#thanks for asking #end year asks #answered by rasha #asked by fahmida

Dude, I loved Ice-cream once :3

I thought I will miss the opportunity of seeing DAWN...

I thought I will not be able to rise early...

I was wrong. Really when the day starts a bit early, you can give a head start.

Today I woke up really early (4.00 AM).. I don't know why .. But my life is changing tbh. None can realise that I don't want that too.

Language is really very hard things to learn. In these 17 years after birth, I could not learn neither Bangla nor English well. Even in these days, I struggle with the meaning of every words. English is a foreign language. So, it's natural we will be weak (though we were learning it for 13 years. I mourn for the energy to learn English i gave in the wrong way). But in case of Bangla too, i always stuck in the meanings. Firstly, words have different meaning in different areas. Ok, this problem can be solved in some extent by defining a standard meaning. But later the most struggling factor comes, how the people are taking the words and definitions from their perspective. Maybe I am using a word which I am using from my perspective but whom I am telling, he/she is getting the meaning from his/her perspective. This results in misunderstanding. Oh! How to deal with it! And this modern era has made it more critical because of virtual medias. In face to face talking, we can get some hints by seeing expressions, eye movement and face recognitions. But in social media, chatting platform, the problem become worse. Most of the people don't want to change their prospective. They always think from their way. Yeah, maybe they learnt to see the word from another vision. To cope with this world, i think it's more important to try to understand what is going on and then to react. Then it comes what does 'understanding' mean? I think it means to change own perspective. Understanding an idea means to think the idea from different dimensions, to question the idea from different dimensions and it's a continuous process. I know i will not be effective in my communication overnight. I don't want to do so. Just what I want is people will not react suddenly after hearing or seeing something, it's necessary to change the way to see and then to react. If it is possible, then it's important to try to think what others are saying, why they are saying and how will you take that in. I wish I could understand the world better.

8 th march 2020 (recognition of first patient) .today is 26 th march . I don't know what is happening in this country.

My parents, being health workers, are working without PPE. We are totally exposed to Corona. I don't fear for my family. But at least i want the real number gets exposed to all. In a densely populated country like Bangladesh, is it possible to stay safe without corona? We are all going to be infected. But at least, who are suffering and dying, their numbers get published. The wrong which Italy did, why we will not learn from the mistake? Even if we all get aware at once,we have to pay for the mistakes which we have done so far.

Bangladesh, be ready. Days are coming.

At last, you came.

I don't know how much of a change is consistent. However, we learn to adapt to it unknowingly. Today is April 1. I was waiting for this day thinking "How do I write seven creatives in Bangla exam that day?" And ya I am writing now at 4 am!

  It feels quite thrilling to face a strange challenge, but it is difficult for me to imagine the dire consequences. When people feel a lot of pain, they feel it later. Today, life may seem easy in the face of such a big change, but waiting for the feeling when it itself will seem helpless.

To me, quarantine is not something uncomfortable. I'm accustomed to stay home. So ,maybe I don't understand the change. This time in the house is used in many ways by effective people . I am already inefficient in this regard. So I am more inclined to waste this time. Maybe I'll try but fail.but I do not fear failure.rather I'm afraid of change. I did not think it was so difficult to take responsibility for my life as a follower of the eighteen. I thought the taste of freedom is not too bitter. But alas, living in a house and capturing a strange liberty, I never dreamed it would be so difficult. I don't like the digital age, I'm not that smart. So I do not know if everything becomes normal, can I be normal.I do not know where my world will stand. Those who can still keep themselves normal at this time may be superhuman. However, I do not know why the change always seems awful to only me.

Give me time. I know how to adapt. :)

Starting to walk alone

In case you have learnt swimming in a traditional way, you should know it that first time, a teacher gives a support to the learner and the learner tries to survive in the water thinking s/he has a companion to support. Meanwhile, a time comes when the teacher makes the learner free and the learner still tries to swim assuming the presence of the teacher.

The moment the learner sees back ,realizing that he is alone, gives him two feeling.

1. The instant void feeling

2. The aha moment that yeah! I have learned it!

I know I am going through a path in my life when I saw behind, I saw none to guide me to my path. The aha moment is still ahead. But I know I am learning an invaluable skill

to walk alone.

( Don't get it otherwise. I am not saying that I don't have any well wishers, family members, friends to support me. Of course, they are beside me. But that's another part. To get my dream fulfilled, I need to take further steps where none will accompany me. And it's not bad. It's necessary for everyone to be self dependant. Some learn it fast; some do not. In case of me, it's harder. But I know I can cope up with it.

If you want to get something, you need to sacrifice other as well.)

And practice is really necessary!