i mashed up all of my magi form stuff into one photo !
my soul gem is on the bow ! i love my outfit a lot π©΅ i edited my weapons to be blue , because all of the cute weapons on pin are in pink . i'm glad my outfit looks simple and is easy to fight in ! it also looks cute , and i adore the oversized sleeves . my sleeves also won't get in the way of my weapons ! ( also , the wig for the hair was also my inspo for my normal hair style [ when i draw . my hair irl is too short to do this style :( ] )
how do you astral project? Do you have a spell for that?
you can use subliminals or spells if you want, but it's not needed at all ! i havent actually ap'd yet , but i've done a ton a research and asked other magical heroes that have ! ( tip - if you're a beginner magi trying to fight your first witch , PLEASE bring another , more experienced magi just in case ! never fight your first witch alone , wait until you get the hang of everything ! )
find a comfortable , quiet spot to lay down and relax . you can ap any time during the day , but in ny opinion , it's easier to attempt in the morning so you don't fall asleep . when you wake , stay very still . VERY STILL . don't even move your TOE .
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your body will eventually start tingling uncomfortably . ( this is where i usually mess up , i cant handle the sensation ,,, ) at this point , move your body upwards ( without actually moving your body ) . just imagine it very strongly .
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eventually , you should be able to pull your being up and out of your body ! personally , i recommend just getting used to the experience first , the first time you AP you shouldn't stray far from your body . stay in the room you're ap'ing in , and look at something you don't really pay attention to in your room . maybe a specific crayon or something ! note things about it ( ex , the paper is peeling off, the color is dandelion yellow , ect ) then return to your body. then , go and check the object and see if your descriptions were right ! the next time you AP , you can go to a different room ( one that your body isn't in ) and do the same thing with an object there ! and eventually , you can travel to different places you havent been before, then go to those places awake and see if they're the same ! that's how you know if it works
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to return to your body , there are multiple ways . you can either go towards your body and pull yourself into it , make yourself aware of your body ( ex , thinking of it , trying to move your real limbs instead of your astral ones ) . some people , if they have an objective going into the astral , just automatically return to their bodies after completing their task . but if all of these fail, don't worry! your body will pull you back once it wakes up .
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i hope this helped ! this is just according to my research , not according to my personal experiences . but , when i do finally get past the stupid tingly feeling and ap ( which i really have to do soon , because my soul gem is so dull ) , i'll update accordingly !! β‘
You donβt have to choose between Β Devil Homura or Goddess Madoka. The world is built on complementary forces.Β
Iβd say they both have attributes youβll need in your spiritual journey, thus both are very, very important.Β
Madoka is selflessness and sacrifice, the sacrifice of the self to attain a greater good. She is aΒ bodhisattva. She is passive.
Her love is universal and bright, but reflexive and not passionate.Β
She is hope.
She is the world of Salvation, she is Transcendence.
Accepts that her laws bring about her own dissaparition.Β
She is what a post-modern mage would callΒ βThe Right Hand Pathβ
Homura is doing the bad thing for the juste cause, fixing unfair situations by doing the wrong thing. She is a rebellious goddess of chaos and knowledge, a Lucifer, a Prometheus. She is active.
Her love is focused and passionate, destroys and creates, but above all, it binds.
She is rebellion and change.
She is the Material World, not the unknown beyond.
Accepts that her world will bring her hate, even her own self-hatred.
She is what a post-modern mage would call βThe Left Hand Pathβ
(I hope I can go and add more to this post in the future!)
Psychosis Discussion for the Witchy/Pagan Folks In My Phone
also i'm not an expert, this is based off personal experience, personal research, formal research (my past college classes, but it's not like we had an in depth class for psychosis specifically, we just touched on it for like a week or two total), what i've heard from others, and observation
u know what. no one tells y'all what to do if you think ur in spiritual psychosis* (or just psychosis). all they do is make fun of people they think are in psychosis and use the term like a weapon.
here's what to do
eat enough (this one is underrated. how will your brain be able to work properly if not given the fuel? it takes energy to emotionally regulate and double check conclusions you come to)
drink water
try to get enough sleep (also underrated)
do something non psychosis related. draw something silly, or go sit outside, or watch a comfort show. observe how your body feels without assigning explanations to why it feels that way. these are all to help ground yourself. (sometimes grounding is explained with a spiritual lens and you may not want to get into that if you're trying to take a break from spirituality). if you're delusions are about deities, take a break from your deities. they won't be mad, they've seen psychosis before and they love you.
address your distress. i can't speak much for manic feeling types of psychosis, my episodes were very anxiety based. but for anxiety, use coping mechanisms for calming yourself down. do something that doesn't harm you but makes you feel safe.
if you can, get professional help, or get medications adjusted if that's what's causing it
if you know the source or something heavily influencing your psychosis, distance yourself from it. witchtok is known for fearmongering and feeding peoples psychosis
reach out to friends if you've been isolating yourself. you can just spend time together doing something chill. something that helped my episodes was being with people who weren't tied to the themes of my psychosis, so if your psychosis is tied to witchcraft for example, hang out with friends who don't do anything witchy, or stay off the topic of witchcraft if your friends are all into witchcraft
hold off on major decisions like large purchases, getting rid of lots of personal items, moving, etc until you feel better and more stable
a bonus tip is to spend time away from people who are toxic or who make you feel confused and off kilter. if there's someone who for reasons you can or cant explain, just repeatedly makes you feel bad about yourself or guilty or angry, it might be because they're toxic in a way you havent noticed yet. if i had a nickel for every time someone told me they thought they were going insane until they spent less time with someone who turned out to be an abuser, and they suddenly got better, i'd have three nickels including myself.
i see too many people in witch/pagan communities acting like the psychosis is just when people are weird or when believe weird things and it's such a bold thing to say when we literally talk to gods and/or light candles to get money. it makes it seem like the bad part of psychosis is being weird or cringy. that is not what is destructive about psychosis. what's destructive is the social isolation, obsession, anxiety, paranoia, lack of self care, and big impulsive decisions. if you feel safe, are safe, and aren't harming others, your beliefs are not a major concern. you're either right, or harmlessly wrong. nothing wrong with that. so stop bullying people you think are weird, i will always repeat this sentiment
if something happens in your practice that is a little wacky, just keep taking care of yourself. the priority is your safety and others' safety. there's a lot of fearmongering in witchy spaces about being wildly wrong meaning you're in psychosis, but being wrong is okay. do some research (not on social media), ask for signs you can't miss, get a tarot reading from someone you trust, and remember spirituality is just wacky sometimes. we can't prove every single spiritual occurrence. we can only prove if we're physically taken care of. if you're safe, and the people around you are safe, and you don't feel overwhelmed with paranoia or anxiety or mania, you're probably okay to move forward, and just accept you could be right or wrong.
also, coming out of psychosis is a slow process. you're changing your view of your own reality. that doesn't happen in one night.
*i want to add to this, it is possible to know you're in psychosis, it's just not always common. if you are feeling like everyone is out to get you (thinking everyone is trying to hex you or you're being constantly spiritually attacked), or that you are more special than everyone (thinking youre a gods favorite devotee, that you're the most powerful witch, thinking you're the only one stopping an astral war, for me i thought i personally would cause the rapture), feeling like everything is a sign, those could be delusions. (the ones i'm describing here are delusions of persecution, grandeur, and reference. i see these most often in witchy/pagan/spiritual spaces)
also this might just be me, i have chronic dissociation, OCD, GAD, and such but psychosis has its own separate feeling of "i'm losing it". it feels like that mental thing you get in dreams where you just don't question anything. once you're out of it, you're like "why did i just believe that???". and like you can question yourself in a dream, but you'll only catch one thing. you'll recognize the clocks are look weird, but you won't notice the walls changing colors, you know? so if you feel that half-in a dream, reasoning isn't working right feeling, that could be a signal too. i think the closest feeling i've had to this was a PTSD (not a cptsd one in this case) flashback after a night of no sleep.
okay i'm rambling. tldr: if you think you're developing are/in psychosis, do basic physical self care (especially eating enough). do things that are simple and fun that isn't related to what is triggering you (so like grounding). social self care, like meeting with friends to do things not related to your psychosis triggers. try to use basic coping skills for anxiety, guilt, fear, things like that. you don't need to dig into why you feel it, just how to calm it down.
and stop bullying ppl online, doesn't matter how insane you think they are
(i have DID and it's hard to keep track of what i say without rambling and switching trains of thought and repeating myself without realizing so if this is confusing. uhh. rip lmao)
what abled ppl think is a massive problem for disabled folks: 13 year old on the internet faking something
what is actually a massive problem for disabled folks: "well you don't LOOK disabled, are you sure you're not faking? I'm not giving you accommodations until you PROVE you're not faking. Please give me, a stranger, your medical info and explain your condition to me in detail so I know you're not faking and only then will I respect or take you seriously"
i started playing "sis puella magica", set up two LED candles beside me, cleansed my room with incense while saying "this space is cleansed of any beings, creatures, or spirits with negative intentions. only those with neutral or positive intentions are allowed to exist within this space."
then, i used my selenite stick to create a circle, while saying what i said before + "on top of that, only incubator's or kyubey himself may enter this space"
after that, i said "i ask that kyubey or an incubator please talk to me and answer my questions if you are willing to."
then, i used my pendulum to ask if kyubey was here, and i got a yes !!! from there, i asked if i had enough potential to make my wish ("everything goes in a way thats benefitial to me and my future"), and i got another yes :D
after that, i used tarot so kyubey could give me some advice. i pulled eight of swords reversed, strength reversed, nine of cups, ten of cups reversed, three of cups, and an orace card from a seperate deck.
my interpretation (that i confirmed w/ kyubey was correct) was bascally that once i make my wish, i can stop stressing and relax, that i need to trtust my intuition and power more, that i need to be ready to step into my power once i contract and start fighting witches, and that once i contract i need to defeat the witch that has a witches kiss on my father. which i. Really Need To Do.
i doubt that *all* of my fathers... actions probably aren't just from the witch, but i think his willingness to just... be like that, with no guilt, no attempt to even hide it, and his just. zombieness, probably are from the witch.
i doubt i'll be able to forgive him even if he completely changes after i defeat the witch, just from everything he put me and my family through, but as a magical hero i have to save all people, including, unfortunately, him.
ANYWAYSSS, all in all, it went really good !!! once i know i can astral project, and once my necklace i'll be making my soul gem gets here, i'll be able to make a contract !!!! ^_^
i'm pretty shy about this little detail bc this doesn't seem to be the case for many magis on this platform, but i actually haven't become a magical hero via contracting kyubey. i plan to, when i'm fully ready to make a wish, but towards anyone who's a little hesitant on what wish to make - i promise you can turn towards madoka! she granted me a soul gem, magical abilities, and more than anything, support for my adventures!
if you're nervous about making a big wish and want to take your time while getting magical experience - see what madoka can do for you! she's really understanding, and she's there to help any aspiring magical hero.
she may ask you why you want to become a magical hero, and ensure it's really something you want to do. but once she's finished, she'll help you blossom into who you want to be.
A drawn stick figure of Apollo is better devotional work than AI generated "artwork" of Apollo.
I don't know if anyone has asked thus of you, but how do I develop an original magical girl concept? Do I need to Astral project? Meditate? Please and thank you.
Actually, we don't get very many asks, and I'd be happy to answer!! β¨
I'm not a magical hero who scripted their concept, but I am friends with a lot who have! Developing your own original concept is similar to the practice of scripting when manifesting or shifting - ask yourself questions to figure out what works for you! What's comfortable for you? What do you aspire to be? What do you want your life as a hero to be like? Do you want to take inspiration from pre-existing magical girl media (like Madoka Magica, PreCure, Cardcaptor Sakura, Sailor Moon, etc etc)? What's your skill level with astral projection? Would you want to be a physical or astral magi? How about both? It's all up to you!
If these questions seem a bit hard to answer, then yes I would recommend meditating on it! You can also take inspiration from other original concepts (unless the creator says otherwise, though I haven't seen any "closed concepts" yet!), or even ask to join them if that's what you discover you want!
good luck, anon!! I believe in you! (β qβ β’Μβ α΄β -β )β β§
-Polaris π
CHANGE OF PLANS.
since i have. A Lot of things to do, im gonna be doing this isntead;
today, i'll be doing a normal shower, and getting my room ready for my new altar space (corner wall shelf)
tomorrow, i'll be setting up my altar's for the gods i worship, including Madokami and Homucifer. and i'll be giving Them my first offerings too !!
the following day is when i'll do the energy cleansing shower and try to contact kyubey / an incubator !!!
and the day after that, i'll attempt to astral project :]
its a bunch of stuff to do, but i can do it !
still need advice on contacting kyubey / an incubator tho,,,
tysm ^_^
(note; this is not roleplay, delusion, or fictionkin, but those who are rping, delusional, or fictionkin can interact. please do not call me delusional / psychotic, as this can cause me to doubt my own experiences and reality, which can send me into psychosis.)
im gonna take an energy cleansing shower later and then try and communicate with kyubey / an incubator willing to talk to me !! :D im gonna write down a list of questions i have for kyubey / the incubator.
before i do this though, do any puella magi's / more experienced pop culture pagans have any advice for confirming whether the being you're talking to is kyubey / a real / trustworthy incubator ? any specific questions i should ask ? any warning signs / red flags i should be aware of that signal that i'm not actually speaking with kyubey / a real and/or trustworthy incubator ?
also, i plan on using a pendulum and tarot to communicate with kyubey / the incubator, but are there any better methods / methods that kyubey / incubators prefer ? and is there anything i should do before trying to speak with them (a ritual, offering, etc) ?
any and all advice is super appreciated !!! tysm :D
aspiring irl magical boy ^_^16 yrs, queer genderqueer ftmphysically + mentally disabledhost of did sys, anti endo dni
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