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“6 million was not enough for them to learn their lesson” things normal people with thousands of followers say on this webbed site

i open up instagram (where i primarily go to see cute dogs, until recent days) and it's samantha woll's murder and it's posts like this and it's people just begging for other people to listen and to please not do and say these things indiscriminately and my heart is sick, i cannot articulate or bear to describe 90% of what i've seen happening these past two weeks, it is terrifying

appreciative of this

“I am sad and angry and I want everyone to be alive again. I want more landmarks, less landmines. I want to be grateful but I’m having a hard time with it.”

— Richard Siken, Editor’s Pages: Black Telephone

Kazuyuki Futagawa “Memory -thoughts-“ 2021 Panel, Paper and Mineral pigments 40.9 × 31.8cm.

got our car back after $3600 worth of work, now all we can do is hope it’s fixed and continues to drive.

went with my mom to a follow-up emergency appointment about the awful wound that developed after the treatment on her arm, and they think the reason it reacted so badly and painfully is because she has cancer. apparently the cryotherapy tends to anger/activate those cells and bring them to the surface. they did a biopsy, we’ll know for sure in a couple of weeks and how to proceed with treatment from there. my dad’s been having a rough time with his lately, so praying anything with my mom won’t be too aggressive, but it’s impossible to know yet.

every day i have to see horrific things and people being unmasked ghouls with unleashed hatred on here and it is a terrible place. so. my heart is broken.

this, seemingly like all my other blogs (RIP 💀) was a bit of a failed experiment, i am taking a break for the foreseeable future. it could be short of long. tbh it seems extremely pointless to keep going or even try being here, and at the present moment, i cannot imagine feeling anything but despair if i am on here during the holiday season, and i simply would rather not do that. i need to have the energy to focus on my mom and help her in any way feasible, and my health has been taking extreme turns for the worse all year, i am more physically fragile than i have been in quite a while. the last three weeks have been the most unbearable i have ever spent online and living in this state is unsustainable. idk when/if i will feel like coming back more regularly, considering the atmosphere. my overall engagement and interaction will probably not be the same, it's just what it is. please remember that i tried. i tried so much harder than you realize. take care 💙

‘68 Comeback Special

Please do not fear for me. I have no fear myself. The old monsters are gone. The old curses have echoed to silence. And if my immortal soul is lost to me, something yet remains. I remain..

PERIOD DRAMA APPRECIATION WEEK DAY 6: Favorite Character ↳ EVA GREEN as VANESSA IVES | Penny Dreadful (2014-2016)

Gene Tierney reading a script on the set of Sundown (1941)