Mon, Nov 28th - 04:54

[A video starts, Red Robins face incredibly close to the camera as he whispers into the microphone.

Red Robin, in what we can assume is the Batcave, lying down in an army-crawl position: *whispers* okay, so i know were technically not allowed to record in the cave but- were playing cops and robbers and-

*There's a clattering noise in the distance and his head whips towards the sound*

Red Robin, sounding equally gleeful and terrified: shit shit shit, i think someones in here? i gotta go free Signal- FUCK!

*Another noise, this one louder and accompanied by the sound of boots hitting the floor in a run, a flash of red is seen in the corner of the camera*

Red Robin, scrambling to his feet, the camera is shaky, and all you can hear is his feet running and the sounds of yells: ohmygod im gonna die who the fuck made RED HOOD A COP JESUS CHRIST!

Another voice, deeper and followed by cackling: IM GONNA GET YOU! ITS FUCKING OVER REPLACEMENT! COUNT YOUR DAYS YOU SHIT!

Red Robin is full sprinting now, and he turns sharply into a ballroom (??) where Nightwing is seen next to The daytime hero Signal, both of them waving aggressively*

Red Robin, panting: SIGNAL! i'm- shit, I'm on my way!

*The sound of boots gets closer as the camera blurs fully, only audio being heard*

Red Robin, screaming: FUCK NO- NIGHTWING SAVE ME-

*The video cuts off the the frozen image of Red Robin on the floor, a Red metal-plated boot planted on their back- if you look closely you can see Signal and Nightwing in the corner, Nightwing dramatically on his knees as Signal is fake-crying*]

Mon, December 5th - 18:13

It hurts you know.  Those aren’t words you’re meant to hear coming from your mother. 

“I’m tired.  I’m giving up.”

Knowing she is talking about giving up on her family.

“It’s the same thing over and over.  I’m not doing anything with my life and I can’t stand it.”

It’s to much for her.  She can’t handle taking me to school anymore.  She can’t handle any of this.  I’m putting to much on her back right now.

“I’m the same way mom, I can’t even shower without thinking about hurting myself.”

My sister is not allowed to think like that.  She’s C.R.M.  shes not allowed.

Her poor son isn’t happy anymore.  He’s only 9 and he’s so depressed. 

My dad is being over worked.  I know he’s thinking about leaving.  We’ve talked it through.  He misses his old house, I can’t say I don’t agree.

My sisters life is falling apart.  She’s been crying every night.  She’s been struggling to keep going.

it sounds bad right now but it was just as bad 3 months ago before any of these problems.  Every time we fix our problems more ones come around.

I’m so tired of everything.  I’ve hurt myself again.  I never really stopped but I went awhile without the thought of a blade and when it came back to mind I always found a way to stop myself.  Yet this time I didn’t.  I am getting so bad i’m cutting with everyone still awake because I’m dying for a release.

I’m having issues with food, but its okay.  So is everyone else in my house.  My sister hasn't eaten in a week other than half a sandwich.  shes so skinny she can fit into my jeans.  I think shes anorexic with the way she talks.  My mom says shes not hungry but she hasn’t eaten in three days.  for the last two days my sisters son hasn't touched any food and on his birthday Friday he would even touch his cake.  my dad is the only one eating and hes working so much he doesn't have time very often to even make himself food, so some nights he skips dinner.

My sister is angry.  She yells a lot and gets med to easily,  My mom does too.  I can tell my dad is done with it.  He gives me that look that says hes tired of it.  I know hes on edge.

I’ve started smoking again.  K.R.  got me some cigarettes from some kids at school.  I have about five left before my pack is empty.  I’m going to steal some from my sister. 

I have to share my room now.  My sister is sharing with me.  My moms getting rid of half my stuff and we are buying a bunk-bed.  I need to clear a lot of room for that though so im getting rid of my desk, posters, fairy lights, TV, and other things. 

I’m starting to think it’s just to hard to keep going.  What’s the point? my own mom gave up can’t I? 

I know I said I wouldn’t, but I’m still thinking of moving schools.  It’s to hard on my mom to keep doing all this.  Plus my grades are so bad, I’m not doing any better.

I  missed school again today,  I can’t go back.  There isn’t anything there for me.

There isn’t anything in this world left for me.

~Anon

00:25

I’m sat here. It’s currently 00:25. My mind has been messy lately. I feel like I shouldn’t have friends. Like I should shut my mouth instead of talking. Yet I talk anyways. I feel like I’m annoying everyone I make conversation with. I feel gross. I want to be someone else. I’ve been unactive because I wanted to have this as a positive account but I have nothing positive to say. I’ve dicided to forget it. It’s my account. No one reads my post anyways. I’m sat on my bed right now. My sisters tanning on the other side of the wall. My parents are sleeping. And the world feels empty. My friend just went to bed. I wish I could have seen her today like I was ment to but she remembered she had plans with someone else so she hung out with them. I won’t lie, I feel jelous. This seems to happen Everytime I want to hang out with someone. They are busy. I’m starting to think maybe it’s intentional. It’s okay though, I don’t blame them. Everyone has a right to their own opinions on me. I’m so incredibly sad right now. I keep hoping someone will say something to help me right now but everyone is asleep. The world around me seems asleep exept for my sister and I just feel like a tiny annoyince in her life right now. I never said anything but I’m going to say it on here sense no one reads it anyways and I need to get it out. Last month I got super depressed. I swallowed a half a bottle of random pills I’d been saving up. I have about two pills left. They didn’t do anything. I somewhat wish they had. That’s not my only problem. I’m facing one right now. I just need a sign. But who I want one from hasn’t said a thing. I should stop relying on others to save me. I’m sorry. ~Anon

Suicide sqaud and boating

Today was amazing! I haven’t felt so alive sence tatinof which was like three months ago… we picked k.R. up at one and went out on the boat for awhile and had a Awsome time! We swam and listened to tøp and p!atd really loud. After that we went out to eat and had a Awsome time. Then went to see suicide sqaud in 3d, which was bomb! I loved it so much and so did he! I only wish we could have done this stuff when we were dating… I also found out today I think I still like him…. I’m kinda screwed aren’t i? But my parents love him and my dad even knows I like him. Jeez dad back off, lol. I’m going to snapchat him for awhile because we are talking about the movie rn but then go to sleep. Goodnight, sleep well. ~Anon

choose everyday, to forgive yourself

I wish you some wonderful days~

yeehaw, baby!

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men's shampoos be like: ARCTIC ICE; DARKNESS; GUNS; TESTOSTERONE; PAIN

Blood, cigs, and poring rain