Scarlet-anon - BV

hey

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you mean so much to me and so many people.

i’m glad you’re still around.

please stay with us, we love you.

try to breathe.

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choose everyday, to forgive yourself

Sat, Dec 24th - 17:44

Here I am again,  hope everyone is having a good Christmas eve.  If you are doing good I recommend to just unfollow me here because these blog post are going to probably get sadder from here on out.

My family has been doing horrible, I’ve brought it up before.  Although now its worse.  My mom and dad are getting a divorce.  My mother said she is unhappy and my father is done with her complaining so this is it.  My mom says shes leaving him right after Christmas.  I’ve already told my dad I’m going with him so I’ll have to switch back to my old school most likely unless my dad moves into town which I doubt will happen.  My family has been extremely sad lately and even I have gotten pulled into it.  I have spent most my time in bed lately yelling at myself and planning things.

I’ve been wanting to cut again and I’m skipping meals.  I don’t know why, I try not to but i keep almost crying every time I go to get food so I just end up back in my bed. 

Last night was good.  I was sad because my mom was talking about my dad again so i went to my room and took 5 sleeping pills although i still couldn't sleep,  my mind was to much of a mess and I was like that until A.M came in and we spent the night on his top bunk and watched marble hornets until about 1 am when my mom came to yell at us.  I actually had fun though.  It was nice.

I was watching Dan and Phil today so I decided to go watch it in my moms room and that's when she told me about the divorce.  she said she won’t be here tomorrow because shes tired of my dad.  Shes leaving early and shes going to get a hotel.  She asked me to come with her but I said no,  hopefully I can stay with my brother considering hes the only sibling I have that has their life somewhat together.

My mom said its to the point shes done with her kids, we are to much for her to handle.  That hurts a lot, I try to be good.  I’ve changed so much to make her love me.  Yet I’m still not good enough for her.  If you aren’t good enough for your own mom who are you good enough for?

No one in my family understands love or they mess it up.  Not ONE person in my family can have a relationship without messing it up.  No one here is made for it so I’m just going to save myself the drama and heart break.  It's not even worth it when you know its going to fail.

That feeling you get when you break up with someone that you get in your chest.  The one that feels like its a black hole and it seems to be creating a giant empty mass in your chest has been eating at me for the past week and its getting worse.  I’m tired of leaving bed,  I’m tired of eating,  I tired of interacting with others, and I’m tired of being let down.  More that tired, I’m scared of all of these and honestly I’m okay with that now,

I’m so, so, sorry.

~Anon

Bruce: TIM! Are you ok? I heard screaming

Tim, in tears: I had a nightmare about the duolingo owl

Bruce, who's parenting books have not prepared him for this: ....what

Jason, from the other room: HOOT HOOT

Tim: screaming

absolute batman giving birth to tiny titans cass

shout out to the hearts of gotham by schrijverr and the absurd amount of "batman is pregnant with cass" tweets shown to me in the past week

Writing Timber is making these two so similar, but different in tiny, distinct little details. They're both conspiracy theorists, they're both the most insane person in any room they walk into, they use the cringiest slang, they're just Some GuyTM, they're addicted to Zestis, they're disaster bis, they're troublemakers, they're both magnets to tragedy, they're skater boys but in different ways.

But also:

Tim's first instinct in danger is to use his brain while Bernard's is to use his brawn.

Tim wins in the category of intellectual intelligence but Bernard wins in common sense.

For Tim, subtlety is everything. Bernard's never heard of it though.

Tim constantly has high expectations placed on him and usually manages to rise to the occasion. Bernard is constantly underestimated by everyone around him and that means he can occasionally surprise a couple people.

Bernard yaps a lot and goes on endless tangents about anything and everything. Tim doesn't talk much but he listens to every minuscule detail, and knows exactly how to use it against you when you least expect it.

Tim was that one guy in class who the teacher could not stand but always managed to get straight A's without trying. Bernard was the class clown that got mediocre grades but was surprisingly skilled in things he was passionate about.

Tim's a lot more reserved and calm but can make friends with just about anybody and is surprisingly laidback and snarky once you get to know him. Bernard is loud and annoying and extroverted, but he pulls back when someone gets too close and suddenly they realize he has secrets too.

Tim doesn't usually try to impress anyone romantically but he keeps managing to pull people into his orbit anyway. Bernard will flirt with anyone who breathes and ultimately fail to impress anyone.

They both love looking into mysteries but when Bernard is investigating, the What's New, Scooby Doo? theme is practically playing in the background, while for Tim, it might as well be the theme of Criminal Minds.

Tim seems all chill and put-together until you actually step into his room and wade knee-deep into punk rock dvds and mismatched socks. Bernard is visibly a mess, but he can get his shit together when it comes down to it.

Tim handles a situation by going out to take down a threat, as is the nature of a Bat. Bernard stays to tend to the wounded, because his time is Louis Grieves has scarred him and now he has to make sure what happened to Darla never happens again.

They both think of themselves as a magnet for the trouble and think of each other as a good luck charm that managed to bring the light back into their lives.

Things to remember: - There are so many reasons to live and things to look forward to. - If your mind is foggy and distracted, write everything down somewhere. Empty your thoughts and listen to some music. - Even if no one sees your art, writing or creations, don’t stop creating them. - Most of the things you’re scared about will never happen. - Try not to look at anyone else, just do your best. - Be kind to yourself. Make yourself a mug cake or your favorite tea, or do something you’ve been meaning to do for a while. - Don’t give up on your goals - remember why you started. - It’s okay, you still have lots of time. - Whatever you’re going through, it’s only temporary. - You’ve been through worse things. You can get through this. - Tomorrow will be a new beginning. - You will be okay, even if it may not seem like it right now.

reminders for bad days // (via flowerais)

Bruce: Why did you get arrested?

Jason: We don't know?

Dick: We didn't do anything wrong.

Tim: We got pulled over and when the officer said "papers" Jason yelled "scissors" and Dick drove off.