By Elliothawkey

by michellelartigue

I dusted and filled up my bookshelf. I never thought I'd fill it lmao, but here we are. This year I really want to read all my books or a good majority of them lol. I need to reread D-Gray man I miss it so much, it's been to long. In 2024 I think I only read 2ha book 3 and the beginning of book 4, and it took me the whole year to read book 3 lmao. So much stuff just got in the way sob. I also read all of OPM and SD. But I have so many series on my shelf that I have never touched 😫.

When I was younger I use to read all of gravitation and then reread it all over again. I use to know that series like the back of my hand. I want to go back to that and finish series and read them all over again. recently after dinner I sit on the floor with all my plushies and a cup of tea and read. it keeps me off the internet and clears my mind it's so refreshing. I'm getting a little addicted to it lol.

Reading is gonna be one of my major goals this year, idk if I'll keep record of it but maybe I should lol.

(via Instagram)

by rosegarden_flowers

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Sakura Sunday 2025

It was so nice this year. We finally got pink trees after like 3 years. the past couple of years the trees have bloomed 2 months before the fest,so all the tress would be green instead lol. I love regular trees, but something bout that pink on trees, it's like they're dressing up for us, so pretty. I was so happy to be surrounded by pink trees that I started walking while looking upward at the trees lmao. my siblings kept walking away from me.

The weather was not so great, it rained most of the day. the sun never came out sob 😫. We also didn't see any cosplayers, but i assume its because we left early.

We got to see the Taiko drums performance which is always great. I got almost sentimental thinking about how I have been going to the festival since I was in high school. Back then it was so niche and not as packed. I miss that lol. I use to volunteer with my classmates and goof around making origami 🎏🎐🏮and calligraphy🖌. Then we would walk around window shopping because we were broke teens lol. The Taiko performance would have like 10 drummers and last an hour long, and we could meet and talk to the performers after the show. lmao I am going down memory lane.

But this year was really fun. We started a little tradition where we sit under a tree and eat lunch.We realized how unprepared we were this year. Our blanket was to small and the ground was cool from the morning rain. But we made it work and the food was really good. We sat under a pink tree and petals kept falling on to us and our food🍡, I think we ate some lmao. One fell on my nose at one point. It was dreamy.✨🌈Next year we have to bring a bigger blanket lol and maybe bubbles, that would be fun. 🪁🔮

I also spent way to much money lmao, I was so sad, I gave myself a budget of 200 and I spent most of it on merch and TGCF, always TGCF 😫. The artist alley was small this time but I managed to get some small artist goods. I love buying from artist lol. I was so excited to get home and decorate my desk with the goods lol. I got that Buu plushie, to me it's a rare find lmao, Buu is my absolute fave from DBZ, him and Shin. and Vegeta lol. and Piccolo. and Bulma. and everyone else lol.

The gloomy ☁☁ weather really zapped our energy. On are way out of the fest it rained on us lol, just light drizzle. We were zombies by the time we got home.

~sigh I really rambled in this one.

The small business art is by LiangArts

by schroederphoto

Emerald ponds 🌸

© Jee Won Park (ig: zeewipark)

I've been trying to stay off of social media so I can focus on other things. So last night I logged out and stayed off. But afterward I just sat in my seat thinking about having a better future. Then I got really sad like, this is my life, why is it so horrible. Why aren’t I fixing it. I always get these feeling out of the blue, but usually its like once a year. But lately it’s been every couple of months.

Then I realized that doom scrolling literally distracts me from my sadness lmao. Cause I am not usually like this, usually I’m on twitter looking for something to make me laugh or yt. 

But when I logged off, I sat in silence wondering what to do next. My options were to either go to bed or continue sitting there. 

I convinced myself to read Dungeon Meshi. I’m on book 11. It was a hard read honestly. Maybe it was because of the state of my emotion but I was not having a fun time reading it, and I like reading conflict.

But I got to this page in the book where Marcille is expressing how she didn’t have any good memories in the dungeon and if only she had given up, she wouldn’t have to suffer through the bad experiences. But in the next page she says there’s no way I could just give up. 

And wow….I felt that lol. I feel like I feel it almost everyday.

I don’t want to get into details about it because I am emotionally drained right now.

I just wanted to remember these pages, and express some love for Dungeon Meshi. Lmao I never thought I would come to love it so much. A series I would have never picked up by myself probably because I am super picky lol. I want to get all the books so I can reread it and relish all the amazing line work and compositions.

This part felt so real. I can feel the love and care Marcille has for her comrades. That shes drops all her resolve and standards to protect her friends and they do the same for her. Seeing the Dungeon Meshi crew take care of each other makes me so jealous sometimes but it’s also so sweet. I can feel the love, it oozes.

I really wanted this Halloween to be a good one. But it wasn't lol, I just had to ride it out I guess. Me and my kyodai were going through the notion that life doesn't always revolve around oneself. We have been talking bout this because a lot of r family members think that it 100% does revolve around them.

And so the notion had been stuck in my head for a couple of days. But on Halloween, it really hit me hard , that life does not always revolve around me. But it felt worst than that, like the world also hated me lmao, I felt so helpless, I didn't know what to do. Just think of the Linkin park song, I got so far and it doesn't even matter lmao.

I'm not trying to say I needed this night to be about me, cause I know the world isn't circling me. I just felt attacked even thought I was trying to make this person feel better. and I know it wasn't their fault, they just wanted to have a fun night.

At the end of the day I wished I had stayed home lmao. But you know bad days happen lol, it's not the end of the world.