( Nothing Without ) PAIN, Helena Minginowicz

Once again I need a baby just for this

I'm glad this week is over

I must change my life so that I can live it, not wait for it.

— Susan Sontag, Reborn: Journals and Notebooks, 1947-1964

by patrix15

My little keychains and pins collection. I needed a new place to hang my keychains/pins, and I don't like corkboards. So I put it in this jewelry holder/hanger. I was scared the plastic on it would cover some of the images and it does but it's ok. It actually looks way cuter in person lol. I'm still figuring it out and stuck some flowers to pretty it up lol. But overall happy with it.

Some of the artist

MK/RET Retquits | Neesawahh | Syrren/syrrensong | Liangart

I dusted and filled up my bookshelf. I never thought I'd fill it lmao, but here we are. This year I really want to read all my books or a good majority of them lol. I need to reread D-Gray man I miss it so much, it's been to long. In 2024 I think I only read 2ha book 3 and the beginning of book 4, and it took me the whole year to read book 3 lmao. So much stuff just got in the way sob. I also read all of OPM and SD. But I have so many series on my shelf that I have never touched 😫.

When I was younger I use to read all of gravitation and then reread it all over again. I use to know that series like the back of my hand. I want to go back to that and finish series and read them all over again. recently after dinner I sit on the floor with all my plushies and a cup of tea and read. it keeps me off the internet and clears my mind it's so refreshing. I'm getting a little addicted to it lol.

Reading is gonna be one of my major goals this year, idk if I'll keep record of it but maybe I should lol.

“To tell someone not to be emotional is to tell them to be dead.”

— Jeanette Winterson

December manga haul. I'm super excited for the mxtx books, I want to start with svsss first but I'm currently reading demon slayer so might finish that first. I got the d.gray-man noche for Christmas and I love it, Hoshino's art is absolutely amazing. I stumbled on to madk at my local barnes and nobles, they only had the second book. Madk has ruined me I feel lol, it's a great read but it's definitely fucked with my head

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Oh boy so many setbacks this month.

It honestly started off so good. And now its ended in a confusing way. I’m trying to handle each month as slow as I can. February feels like 2 years ago lol. 

I watched Nezha 2, 3 times lmao. I almost saw it a 4th time, but I had to restraint myself plus I’m short on money for the month. it's probably gonna be one of my favorite memories of the year. I love that movie so much. I don’t even consider myself to be a big 3d animation fan. Some of my faves are Megamind, httyd, happy feet and maybe tangled shrugs. But I never saw any of them in theaters tho.

Nezha 2 is almost 3 hours long not including travel to get to the theater(it’s not in the best area either). So I must really love the hell out of this movie to waste 3-4 hours to see it(I do I really do). It’s such a great movie, I think about it almost everyday. There’s so much I can say about it about it but I will end up writing a book on why it's great lmao. I’m so jealous of all the merch it gets out of the U.S. our country is full of so much hate. I can’t wait for the dvds, and the art books 😫. I wish it could stay in theaters forever lol, so I can see it whenever. 💖

Other stuff that happen, I cleaned my bedroom, I made it as functional as I can, hopefully for the rest of the year. It still needs a lot of work but I think I used up too much energy on it and was feeling like a dried jerky for a week just floating in the air, head empty no thoughts ugh.

The weather has been really nice out, I was out a lot this month, I wasn’t doing anything fun tho, but I had some cute outfit combos that I didn’t get a chance to take pics of, sigh I always forget. 

Some of the cherry trees are in bloom, I think it just the dark pink ones tho, still I love walking around outside just to see them.

This month I really was drawing a lot. The question of what do I want to draw just flashes in my head all the time. What do I want to draw, what do I want my art to look like? Idk, I just want to draw lol. I think that in the early 2010s I use to draw for myself, whereas now I am self conscious about what others might think.

sobs I’m just rambling now. I wanted to post more this month but it’s been a long ride. Hopefully April is less bumpy.