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I went out with my cousin. We only went out for coffee and some light walking around. It was fun it’s nice to get out and just walk around the city and not have to run errands. This week was a long one of just me running a around from place to place like a headless bird ugh. My cousin was trying to persuade me to move to New York when she does next year lol. It’s a scary idea for me but I'm not opposed to it. I would have to leave everything behind and start over again, and I'm so scared. But I'm also so tired of my current life it’s so draining and I feel so alone. Plus I have no idea what I would be doing in NYC, career wise. 2024 as a whole has been such a weird year for me. I realized that I had been doing almost everything wrong my whole life and it’s tearing me up inside. Saving money wrong. Making friends wrong. Eating wrong. Doing my hair wrong. Just overall living wrong lol. Sigh I'm trying to not be so hard on myself. Trying to convince myself that 2024 can be the beginning of something good. But it all  just feels painful. Anyway on to less depressing stuff. We saw a lot of fun stuff today, a lot of cute doggies, I should of took pics of them. I went to this interesting thrift shop, at least I think it was, everything was Hella expensive. They had this really cool painting in the back. And these giant amazing lamps, it was so cool. I can only dream of owning it. After  that we shopped for books, I'm trying to get all of dungeon meshi. I wanted to buy them all at once but buying them individually is fun too. I love the covers so much. It still amazes me how much I've come to love dungeon meshi, all thanks to my sister lol. It’s not a series I would usually get into, because I'm so picky sob. It’s probably gonna be a long lasting favorite for me.  Then we went to this house of oddities type of place, I forgot to get the store name. It was really cool but the inside smelt so bad like death lmao. There was a large coffin in the front of the store. I couldn’t stop taking pictures of everything I must of been annoying lmao. They had some really cool bug taxidermy frames, they were so pricey lol. But I would of loved to have some. Maybe in my future home.

I'm glad this week is over

Hua Cheng finally came in sept. I was getting so antsy waiting for him lol. And I kept seeing people on twitter already getting him sob. But I'm so happy, I love the design of this figure so much, his foot on the skull all the bling and bangles, his hair, I love his hair so much. And the attitude vibes lmao. Now it looks so complete with the Dianxia figure, like a married couple lmao ❤️

Going to chinatown is always so tempting

I really wanted this Halloween to be a good one. But it wasn't lol, I just had to ride it out I guess. Me and my kyodai were going through the notion that life doesn't always revolve around oneself. We have been talking bout this because a lot of r family members think that it 100% does revolve around them.

And so the notion had been stuck in my head for a couple of days. But on Halloween, it really hit me hard , that life does not always revolve around me. But it felt worst than that, like the world also hated me lmao, I felt so helpless, I didn't know what to do. Just think of the Linkin park song, I got so far and it doesn't even matter lmao.

I'm not trying to say I needed this night to be about me, cause I know the world isn't circling me. I just felt attacked even thought I was trying to make this person feel better. and I know it wasn't their fault, they just wanted to have a fun night.

At the end of the day I wished I had stayed home lmao. But you know bad days happen lol, it's not the end of the world.

lmao this was from April it's my little haul from Sakura festival, I bought a lot of stuff from small business and no figures, which was my goal that day. I love being able to buy anime merch from artist, it makes me feel like I'm getting a special treasure(or a piece of a flower) lmao. I thought it was probably too late to post this, but since Dimitri has resurfaced on my twitter, I thought why not lol.

PONDER THAT FUNKY ORB/HAUNTED CASTLE DOCTRINE

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