This Is A Really Zoomed In On My Character, Might Make More Changed Such As More Scars And Tattoos, But

The loss of one

Kaidan, the crimson red eyed man chopped the remaining wood. He felt the breeze of the cold crisp cold hitting his bare back and chest. He felt goosebumps on his skin, but he didn’t feel cold. It just felt like a pressure sensation. He felt the snow melt against his Carmel skin, water slowly trickling down to his brown pants that he decided to fit in. He was shocked to see them fit so nicely after all these years.

He tied a rope around the structure, and looked up to see the many crafted ornaments around the tree that’s he’s made over the past 15 years. He’s made sure that each one came from a different wood that he remembered her liking. The craftsmanship was in good shape, and was smooth. He threw the rope and the ornament tied together on the branch that he directed, he felt it dangle and move around a it and settled nicely. As if it was a perfect piece.

Kaidan brushed aside his hair, he felt it getting longer than usual and seeing the strands of grey as well. Than again he hasn’t cut it in the past decade, nd he didn’t want to. He remembered her saying he loved his long hair, and wished he would have it down all the time. He could still feel her thin and beautiful hands brush within hair, and massaging his scalp.

He suddenly heard a loud crunching from the snow beneath someone feet. He could also hear who it belonged to based off of their stride and how they held herself. “Good morning Alea,” he muttered, not turning towards her. Already grabbing another log to shop up, to prepare for another ornament.

“Good Morning, Kaidan.” She greeted back, looking up at his work again. She wore a simple greenish black cloak to warm herself from the cold. She had a handful of expressions when Alea glanced up at the work. Kaidan knew the majority of the feels she had, but some he couldn’t. Just like she didn’t know half of what he felt when he looked up at them when he admired them from afar. “Todays her Anniversary.” Alea announced bluntly, her voice echoing through the forest.

Kaidan chuckled horsley, still feeling the scab that was on an old wound being pushed. “Yes, it is.” He replied, cutting the wood. He kept his mind to how she taught him, how to carve woods without harming the wood itself. He teased relentlessly at the fact she cared about wood life despite it being already chopped and gone. She would always argue that it was what her mother taught her, and she loved the trees.

Alea furrowed her eyebrows at him as she saw him ignore her. She sighed, “you need to get back inside Kaidan.” She ordered, her voice stern but gentle. Knowing why he’s out here in the first place, why he’s always making ornaments around a tree.

“I’m fine Alea,go back inside with the boys. I just…” he stopped for a moment, feeling himself fletch around himself. His voice almost wavering, he swallowed thickly and took a deep breath in. He let it out smoothly, and looked back up at the ornaments seeing it all hit eachother in the wind. “I just need a moment, Alea, please..” Kaidan requested, looking over his shoulder with a pleading look in his eyes at Alea.

Alea looked at him for moment, opening her mouth for a moment. But, decided against it. She sighed, and nodded in understanding. “I’ll let Farkas and Vilkas know than.” She muttered, walking back to the wooden house. Stopping for a moment, to look back at the lonesome man. “Remember Kaidan, we’re always here for you. We, too, miss our little wolf, never forget that.” She demanded, walking back to the cabin. Kaidan flinched slightly as she shut the door abruptly.

Kaidan gripped his axe tightly, and threw it down to the ground in anger. He sighed deeply, trying to calm down the fire in his throat. He wasn’t getting better, and he thought he had been. He’s been trying for the sake of his friends, and very little family he has left. But he misses her.

The day he saw her in that bed, it was hard on him to even look at her without being reminded of everyone before her that left in a similar fashion. On a bed, look pale and nothing but skin and bones. But no less smiling, as if she didnt mind being taken away to a place when he couldn’t fellow. Not yet.

She would constantly tell him to be strong, that she would always be there. Even if she wasn’t going to be in the way he hoped. She’ll always watch over him, their children, their friends, everyone. She was a protector even in the after life. If anyone in Skyrim were going to come after them, they would deal with a legendary Dragonborn ghost they all joked.

But it still wasn’t enough for them to stop feeling the impending fact of her being gone. He remembered her asking so sweetly, to be buried under the Willow tree near their home. Kaidan didn’t care, she could bluntly tell him that she would want to bury on the other side of Tamerial and Kaidan would gladly do the trip. Alone if she wanted him to. Willow grabbed a hold of his face, and kissed him softly at that. Kaidan almost broke how light and little preside he felt.

Kaidan cried during her final moments, and so did their children dispite not knowing exactly what was going on. They all were around her, holding her close. Along with the pack as well, touching her legs, arms, hands as she passed. They all whimpered and cried as she was humming softly, having a small hand on Kai’s face as he basically wrapped around himself around her. While leaning her head on the kids, who were smiling at her. Saying that they couldn’t wait to see her again. Not fully grasping the meaning of it.

Yes she smiled so sweetly at all of the. She kissed Kai’s head softly again and on her kid’s. She felt a tear trickle, as the last note she sung. And felt her hand slowly slip away from Kaidan’s face, and her grip failing to keep its hold on Erik’s hand. Kaidan kissed her head softly, muttering “I will see you again my tre huger..” Lydia bit her lip tightly, fighting back any more tears on her face as she held up both of the kids who were about to crawl back to their father.

Lydia held the children’s hands toward their rooms, saying the adults would need to discuss some of things in private. Not wanting to interrupt anyone’s grieving, and saying at a later time they’ll discuss more of this.

Everyone went in their respective rooms, not wanting intrude on anyone’s moment. While Kaidan still stayed in the nursery’s room. Laying near to Willow’s Body, and slowly letting go of her. She felt so cold now, and he wished he could hold onto her just a little bit longer. And kissed her forehead wince again.

Kaidan felt himself be pulled back to the present. He heard the door slammed open again, and saw two of his children running fast at him. ”Papa!” Kaidan first instinct was to check if they were harmed or were going to be harmed, he instantly instantly picked up his axe, and checked for danger behind them. Instead, he saw was Alea, and the wolf twins grinning ear to ear.

He felt their weight ram into him, causing himself to be unbalanced and crash into the snow below him with a thump. “What?! What is it?” He asked the kids who had bright smiles, that Kaidan had to look away. “Are you in danger? Are we in danger? Is your uncles and aunts in danger?” He asked instantly, his mouth speaking before he could think.

“No! Papa, come on you promised us!” One of Teens exclaimed. “Please papa!” The other exclaimed excitedly, practically hopping.

“Huh? Promised you what?” Kaidan cocked an eyebrow, trying to decipher what they were all reminding him of something. He looked past at the two, and silently pleaded them for assistance or help. But all they gave was a wave, and shut the door behind them. With a undeniable smirk on all their faces. He grumbled, and looked at his kids for answers.

“You promised you would tell us about Mama.” They answered bluntly, Kaidan was taking a back from their honestly and stright forward approach. It made him almost proud of them. However, he felt his gut clenched at the idea of telling his kids about their mother.

“Kids, I know you all want to know her-“

“Please dad. You promised, you can’t keep her memory of her forever.” One of the grimaced,it felt like a gut punch towards his scab. “we want to know her, see her life through the memories of the man who loved her the most. A-and it’s-“ he cut himself off, trying to composed himself. The other finished for him. “Papa, what we’re trying to say is we want to hear of our mother. What she stood for.” She answered, getting up walking towards the Willow Tree in their yard. She looked in awe of the ornaments that hung around it, if anything ot made the tree looked more beautiful with around her.

“What she was for this family. And to you.” The son finished, standing by his sisters they all turned towards Kaidan, who looked at his children in shock. They waited for his response, what he would say, and what he would think.

He sighed, and looked at his children. “I’ve been selfish for 15 years, I think it’s time I tell you kids memories of her. She would probably kick me in my hind neck for doing it towards you.” He looked at the ornmaments for a moments in wonder, and looked intently for a moment. And chuckled softly, “no, she would definitely do so.” He chuckled, he walked towards them and learned against the willow, and patted the spots near him for them to sit. Which the kids did so.

“Where should I begin? Hm.. how about when I met her.”

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I’m starting to make a possible one shots of my oc and Kaidan. Cause I’ve already made one story. But oh, well!

uuuhh, Merry Christamas!

i got married in the playthrough! i usally never do, just mainly because the whole thing is a lot, and i usally have major update in the game that requries the game to be restart. so i'm glad that i got to do it, the work was amazing and beautiful. i love all the dialogue, the set piece, and just everything!

anyway, i'll probably publish some more screenshots at some point.

Bro’s the definition of “I got two wolves inside me” meme.

got that dawg in him

I’m currently sick, so I’m going to imagine if the frat pack realized my character was sick.

Alea was usally the one to wake before everyone else. SIt was always a bad habit of herself to be awake first and before everyone else. It’s why she was so caught off gaurd to see Kaidan and Willow Springs, her shield siblings, awake first within the camp.

Kaidan seemed to not have gotten that much sleep, while Willow looked like she got a wink of sleep. She was much to be busy looking like hell. Her scarlet hair seemed to be in disarray, and almost everywhere. Her emerald eyes seemed to be looking almost blood shot, and exhausted. Her nose seemed to have tinted of red, showing signs of buffyness. Along with her Wood Elf ears, were with tinted red tip.

Kaidan didn’t seem all that better, he seemed to have been awake almost all night for Willow’s sake. He kept close, but keeping his distance in order to stop himself from keep sick. Although, Alea could tell he wanted to be there for her.

“Hey, Alea.” Willow waved at her, while under Kaidan’s cloak that seemed to be handed to her. She kept her distance away from the group, and sat against the wooden post near the den of pillows and blankets. Her voice seemed to be raw, and dry.

“Hello, shield sister.” Alea waved back, her voice filled with concern. She was about to step closer, but seeemed to be stopped when Willow held up her hand and shook her head. “Are you alright?” She asked, keeping her distance like Willow asked.

“She would’ve been if she asked earlier for help.” Kaidan explained blatantly, while stirring the cook pot. Which Alea assumed would be filled with food for Willow. Speaking of which, the wood Elf rolled their eyes at the comment and puffed their lips.

“Oh, please Kai. You know I didn’t realize that it was bad until last night.” Willow groaned, while leaning back against her shoulders. She sighed, and coughed violently. It sounded crisp and loud. No matter how much Willow tried to cover it up with her hands. As she felt embarrassed with coughing so loudly.

Alea felt her eyes soften as she looked at Willow’s vulnerable state. She looked over at Kaidan’s, and saw how much worry and concern that was in her shield brother. He looked like he was so close to just crushing Willow in his embrace, wanting her sickness just to end so he can hold her. She walked over to the man who was silently stirring, and grabbed the spoon.

“I’ll take over, you watch over Willow.” Alea had explained, letting herself tske over the crock pot. Kaidan seemed hesitant, but it all it took was Willow’s state as she soon enough coughed again, this time more violently.

He nodded, and knelt beside her. Alea didn’t even realize that he had a wooden bucket near him with a steaming rag inside. He dipped his hands in it, and grabbed it and pushed it against Willow’s forehead. Her already flushed face seemed to be redden at the action, and looked away flustery. Kaidan seemed to soften at that, but kept focused on her health.

“You’re dumb, love. you know that?” Kaidan scolded softly, as he continued to press the wash cloth over her forehead.

“Yeah, that’s what you love about me.” Willow Smiled at him, with a laugh. She seemed unbothered by her sickness, dispite it taking a toll on her.

“That, I do know.” Kaidan whispered, looking at her with melted eyes. He dipped in the cloth in water, and squeezed imthe water out of it.

“As much as I appreciate the looks and the moment, but what in the fuck Is happening?” All three almost jumped at the voice, and looked over to see who it was. And saw it was one of the twins. farkas to be exact. He seemed to be holding a cold gesture, but his eyes seemed to hold such concern over Willow.

“Well, brother, Willow is sick, and Kaidan being a love struck lad about it.” Kaidan flushed a bit at Alea’s comment, as Willow smiled and waved brightly at Farkas. As the brother walked over near Alea to help her cook.

“Maybe add healing herbs, we want her to get better. Not feed her.” Farkas explained, grabbbing some of the healing herb that Willow usually gathered on her adventures in one of the chests near the Alchemy station. Kaidan seemed to grumble about “it of course itsn’t enough for the over protective brother.” Which Willow seemed to pat Kaidan’s head at the comment.

“Here,” he explained, giving Alea some herbs that he remembered reading up about it. Usually not one to read, although he remembered seeing it on the pages that Willow ranted about in her alchemy interest.

“Thank you brother,” Alea muttered taking the herb and placing it in the cooking pot. She quickly stirred it in, mixing it with the other ingredients. She hoped it would leave an effect on Willow’s Body. Usally Willow wouldn’t be one to catch diseases due to her Bosmer blood, if anything she would be the last one to be sick.

Farkas quickly sat beside the campfire warming himself up, while keeping intense eye on Willow. Who slumped forward in their knees, while seemed to show a bothered expression. More likely getting frustrated with being sick.

“I’m assuming that our wolfling is sick?” Vilkas had stated, stepping out of the shadows. Willow seemed to be the only one startled, seeing as their state they were keen on their sense like the rest of the pack was.

“Aye. And it seemed like she decided to wait the very last second for it.” Farkas had stated, furrowing his brows towards Willow. Who in turn gave him a rude hand gesture while not even looking at him. Which in turn gave the stronger twin a roll of the eyes.

“Oh for the love of Mara. I didn’t know it would turn out this-“ Willow was soon interrupted with their violent cough, which seemed frustrated once more. “Curse my bosmer blood not doing jack shit about this disease.” Willow cursed, while Kaidan chuckled a bit at her theatrical performance.

“It might hurt be the fact that you haven’t given a chance of your body letting you heal.” Vilkas had stated, going over near Alea to help her a bit. “You have been traveling for a while.” He explained, looking at Willow.

She seemed to be taking in the piece of knowledge, and groaned. Realizing that Vilkas was indeed right. It’s been a while since their last rest, the last one she could remember was when they made a stop to an inn after getting an artifact for the museum. Which was about a week ago. They didn’t really stop due to Willow’s need to collect more for Auryen.

“I’m so fucking stupid.” Willow muttered, it wasn’t until she felt a bowl of soup in her lap. She looked over to handed to her, and realized it was her husband. He had a big and caring smile at her. And Willow flushed under his face, and took it. She took the spoon that was in the bowl and slurped up the soup.

“It’s alright, love.” Kaidan had comforted her, rubbing the back of Willow. “Just focus on getting better.” Willow nodded, while chewing on the chunky meat that Kaidan added. Which Willow had seemed to like very much, she could feel the meat getting crushed with her sharp bosmer teeth.

“How about you slow down on the soup a bit, puppy. don’t want your heart to be on fire. Much like Kaidan’s.” Vilkas had joked, sitting next to his brother. Willow looked up from the bowl in confusion, while Kaidan blushed intently at the comment.

Alea knocked the back of Vilkas’s head softly, which Farkas had laughed about it, and looked back at the drangobborn and the Akaviri. “Why don’t you rest a bit, and Kaidan chop up more wood for us.” She had requested out of the two. Willow drooped a bit from the request to sleeping, but sighed and nodded in agreement. Kaidan nodded in agreement, and got up.

Kaidan brushed his soften hand against Willow’s redden hair, and kissed her forehead. Which she looked away flusteredly, and continued to eat the soup. “Get some sleep, Willow, you know I’ll be here when you wake up.” She nodded and clasped her hand onto Kaidan’s. Kaidan walked outside the tent, grabbed the axe, and went to the chopping block.

After Willow finished the rest of the soup form her bowl, she handed over to Alea. “I’ll give you some more after your rest.” Her sister had muttered to her, and continued to stire. Willow nodded in understanding, and crawled over to the den.

She leaned back, feeling the warmth of the furs. She grabbed the blanket, and nuzzled into it. She looked over at the chest near her feet, and saw it looked like it was recently opened. It seemed like Kaidan made a letter for her last time she was in the tent. She sighed, and would remind herself for later to read it.

She closed her eyes for a moment, to hear her husband chopping the wood, to hear Alea stirring the pot, to hear the wolf twins’ banter, and the leaves brushing against the winds. She smile, feeling herself at home in the tent. And before she knew she slept.

guys! i;m completely in love with this Darksouls Mod armor. i have armors decated for the Frat Pack, Kaidan, and mine Character, i've also did different hair style as well for Kai and My hair. i'm in love with it! so, you'll definely see difference now lmao.

Some really funny memes that i made that are so fucking stupid. Please don’t judge me. I swear I’m normal

when you have no idea what's happening to your game:

anyway, i have no idea what's going on with my Skyrim world, i know i use DynDOLOD and TextGEN, and it was working fine with me for sometime. but after downloading a handful of mods, my game is like this. i don't have any idea what mods are doing this to me, or anything like this. i just know that i'm expreinceing a thing called "Black LOD' the conversation i saw seemed to help a little bit, but that was mainly to identify the issue. i'm kind of an idiot on understanding all that tech modding stuff. so, any help would be greatly appreciative!

I wanna thank personally @ultimatewarriorbambo so much for the help with this. there is an annoying neck seam, but i'm 99% sure its due to the difficulties of getting the right number/color for him in the racemenu. which is a pain in the neck (GET IT?! cause the issue is in the neck).

but anyway, i'm so happy how it came out! there are definitely going to be issues with trying to figure out the best look for him, due to the fact i have never bothered with Males appearance (like seriously, i struggle with trying to draw men but women i have no problem) until now. so be preparted for Kaidan to change his look time to time. i'm definitely keeping couple things about Kaidan that i've always loved and for my personal thing.

such as the height difference, its amazing being short for when you have a thing for tall dudes. cause no matter what, they're going to be taller than you lmaoo.

LIKE Look at him! i find it so funny and i personally love it.

as well as a little signature that Personal Replacers for Followers have. like for Han's personal replacers, she usually has something written on them to show that replacer is hers. for mine, i wanna added a little heart on his face, (cause i love hearts, shut up.)

i don't know if you can see it, but there's one on the right corner of his cheek (around under his eye if i remember correctly). and for the life of me i couldn't find where the heck is the Daedra paint symbol that is usually on his cheek that was made by one of my favorite Replacer (the red eyes warrior). so, still trying to figure that whole thing out lol.

here are some other photos for the people mainly her for my Playthrough before i had to reset for this mod to work. (trust me, i'm used to it. but I'm a little salty cause i just had started the Romance)

anyway! save travels adventures!

‼️credit will be given at the end of post if I can find it‼️

Willow: *falls off the loft’s ladder*

Kaidan catches her with ease: it’s cute how you’d falling for me..*blushes*

Willow raising an eyebrow: Kai, we’re married..

Kaidan: still! *blushes furiously*

Credit goes to @incorrectquotesideas-deactivated

Anyway, enough of me crying about Kaidan.

i decided to update my character (again), this time added a lot more things with my character that goes wit their lore that i had. if you're curious of her background, please let me know! i would love to go in depth with their physical description, how they got their scars/tattoos. i really love the eyes, and decided to change the hair. i do love the long luscious hair that i originally had, but i felt like it wouldn't fit her. if you're curious what mods I'm using for her i would gladly give away them (that is if i can find them within my NOW 609 mods) i love the shots i took! i tried to use more of the dresses that i loved with an armor pack that i got. i never use those clothes due to me running around in the world trying to get all the quests done lmaoo. but here are some more!

I've love Rain (as you can tell with my screenshots), and the lightings mods, along with my ENB I'm in love with how its all turned out. anyway, I'm exhausted. i still have yet to go to church tomorrow, which i haven't gone in a while.