The Trick Is To Not Let People Know How Really Weird You Are Until It’s Too Late For Them To Back Out.

for Acker, writing seems to be a way to slow down her pain, to snatch at and examine it

The young woman that emerges is herself in flux, and appears, by turns and at once, petulant, defiant, earnest, seething, self-sabotaging, fearful, isolated, longing. From time to time, and especially when discussing her cats or her writing, there are eruptions of elation, even ecstasy. She feels too much, doesn’t feel enough. She has a difficult time meeting people, she hates people. She loves her body, hates her body. She loves New York, hates New York. In one moment, she is completely convinced of the value of her writing; the next, it’s worthless. She craves authenticity while struggling to define what that even means. Above all, she is constantly questioning—what she thinks, what she does, what she writes and feels and remembers and desires. Even as the entries can feel hurried and harried, for Acker, writing seems to be a way to slow down her pain, to snatch at and examine it.

— Jason McBride, “Eat Your Mind: The Radical Life and Work of Kathy Acker“ (Simon & Schuster, November 29, 2022) 

if you're not obsessed with anything weird and niche please try harder. stop going outside for a while. consider getting weirder about the things you already like

another day of thinking about jeff buckley calling nusrat fateh ali khan his 'elvis'

the city where we live doesn't allow public barbecues so my brother fucking welded a grill to a handcart and now hosts "chill and grill sessions" where he sends all his friends his live location so they can hunt him down on their bikes with sausages in their backpacks while he carts it around evading the police like some sort of barbecue vigilante, grilling on the run. i have never been prouder of him

Y’know what i want to know….everyone’s first listen fave from Harry’s House vs Current favorite in the tags 🤭🤔

Richard Papen winter

losing my mind over googling "what do you do if someone recognizes you" and google autocompleted with "in patterns of everything"

Jude Law as Graham Simpkins THE HOLIDAY (2006), dir. Nancy Meyers

A belly can be a "slut waist" too. If you're not a fearful little freak