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I also forgot to mention! The very obvious theme of motherhood here, especially when you look at Sarto’s other works, infants and mothers are very prevalent.
One of the first things I thought when I saw this piece for the first time was the way it feels to raise a child while being surrounded by violence. To nurture a child, but you cannot change what they’ll be exposed to.
Now that I’m looking for common threads between Sarto’s works, consumption and predation are both extremely relevant.
The framing of this piece COULD even be to suggest the woman and baby are also among the meat to be consumed, thus the name— they’re in the butcher-shop as another product, not as predators themselves.
I still don’t understand the frog symbolism, but that’s another frequent mention.
Esther Sarto. Butchershop Bliss. 2019. Watercolour and Gouache on 300gsm hotpressed Watercolour paper.
24 x 16 inches
I’ve been thinking about this piece for weeks. I keep coming back to it trying to figure it out. I’ve seen some discussion, but no interpretation has ever really resonated with me.
There’s nothing particularly uncanny about the woman or baby, the surroundings seem normal for them. The lighting is bright, the room is cluttered but not obscured. The meat frames them in, but I’m not sure if that feels like an oppressive force.
The surroundings are visceral, but not scary in any way. Despite the raw meat, there’s no blood in the room, It seems clean.
The only conclusion I can come to is it’s about survival, food, and eating. The baby breastfeeding vs the butchers room. That comes back to the title, though, which doesn’t make much sense to me in that context.
There’s also several feminist and class conscious readings you could do of this; but I’m still not sure.
Please help me figure it out, I’d love to hear other people’s thoughts on this piece!!!
MAPPING REVACHOL (2.0)
Back in July of 2024, I was incredibly inspired by the project Mapping Revachol by Map Max and wanted to continue on with an attempt of my own. The canon map we're given felt out of date and more than a little incongruous with what we're told in-game, and being both an avid fanfic writer and compulsive visualizer, I really wanted to be able to see Revachol in my mind's eyes.
So, taking inspiration from both Map Max's attempt, as well as meticulously combing through in-game dialogue (with the help of my intrepid friend and far more meticulous researcher than I, @spine-y) we scoured Fayde for any and all directional references to the different districts of Jamrock, East and West Revachol, and everything that lay beyond. (Shoutout to the MoralIntern questline, that one came in clutch).
I took a few liberties with district placement, especially because the wiki also seems to contradict a few things we're told in the game. You may not agree with my choices, and I'm open to suggestions! I may not make any changes anytime soon because this took forever, but I also welcome any other attempts to map Revachol!
(The red line that cuts through Central Jamrock and Faubourg is Boogie Street!)
Included below is my initial sketch before I realized that doing this in markers and microns would actually be the death of me, and then some of the early screenshots of trying to figure out what the hell the 8-81 would actually look like and how to make it make sense.
Does it make perfect sense? No! I'm not a cartographer; I'm a fanartist. I'd much rather draw men dicking each other down nasty style. But this was an incredibly fun project that only took me... only six months to complete.
I hope you enjoy!
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I NEED YOU. YOU CAN KEEP ME ON THIS EARTH. BE VIGILANT. I LOVE YOU.
@dykeseyelmao
soft toy, ca. 1902
toy rabbit called ‘tiny’, in an upright stance, printed cream velvet with brown spots; english?, ca.1902
Electrochemistry - Honourably done. You have given up some of your own blood -- for theirs.
Esther Sarto. Butchershop Bliss. 2019. Watercolour and Gouache on 300gsm hotpressed Watercolour paper.
24 x 16 inches
I’ve been thinking about this piece for weeks. I keep coming back to it trying to figure it out. I’ve seen some discussion, but no interpretation has ever really resonated with me.
There’s nothing particularly uncanny about the woman or baby, the surroundings seem normal for them. The lighting is bright, the room is cluttered but not obscured. The meat frames them in, but I’m not sure if that feels like an oppressive force.
The surroundings are visceral, but not scary in any way. Despite the raw meat, there’s no blood in the room, It seems clean.
The only conclusion I can come to is it’s about survival, food, and eating. The baby breastfeeding vs the butchers room. That comes back to the title, though, which doesn’t make much sense to me in that context.
There’s also several feminist and class conscious readings you could do of this; but I’m still not sure.
Please help me figure it out, I’d love to hear other people’s thoughts on this piece!!!
Tried a new procreate brush and it made me crazy, how to shade latex step 1 : be yourself step 2 : have fun
I’m two years into trying to get a job. Internships, volunteering, literally anything to say I have experience. My parents told me it would be easier to find a job after I graduated, but it’s been months and It seems like even entry level positions are completely inaccessible. I’m not sure how this is even supposed to work.
i keep thinking about that one blogger on here who mentioned applying to 80+ jobs and still not getting a single callback
If you think about it Ruby is one of the coolest Disco Elysium characters because she ran away from the mob, joined a seperate mob, somehow managed to gain the respect of the local law enforcement to the point where she can give them directions and they will follow them, got into the world's messiest breakup, harnessed an incomprehensible force as a weapon using something she built herself out of most likely scraps and she didn't even use it to kill anyone she used to to hold off the police. And she's a butch lesbian that is at her core a kind person who puts others above herself until the point where she will die if she doesn't run.
Hello my friend, my name is Jaafar from North Gaza, I am 24 years old, and finally after waiting for a whole year of killing, displacement, hunger, massacres and genocide against us, the time for a ceasefire has come, thank God we are still alive after all the exhaustion, and during the next week we will return to our homes in North Gaza, which was completely destroyed, unfortunately our area was completely and brutally destroyed and we have nothing left, neither a home, nor property, nor furniture, nor clothes, nor any other clothes, I know that returning to the north will be very painful and difficult due to the lack of the necessities of life, and we will start building our lives from scratch, but we are happy for the war to end.
Please 🙏, donate to my campaign to save my family, even a small amount will help us stabilize ourselves a little, and buy some supplies 🥹, I hope that God will protect your family and friends, thank you 🥰🩵
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i think shirt slightly too short to fully cover the belly and pants hung low on the waist is the most powerful and sexy fat boy combo
oh fuck me i instantly realized I uploaded the wrong version
Made Fumihiro’s reference this year… I was like “certainly this won’t take longer than last year” and then I spent 10 extra hours on it. Curse these terrible slow artist hands of mine
Made Fumihiro’s reference this year… I was like “certainly this won’t take longer than last year” and then I spent 10 extra hours on it. Curse these terrible slow artist hands of mine
I have no mouth and I must scream
Had to ban the phrase “tricky dick” from my classroom during watergate lesson because saying the word dick in front of 30 fifteen year olds is like lighting a bomb and throwing it through the doorway but now they’re just calling him Richard the Treacherous like they’re all medieval peasants. gonna lose it
a comic about printers
I remember seeing a post a couple months back of someone talking about printer troubles and companies making them bad deliberately, like pointlessly different screw sizes and a lying no-usb-compatibility sticker
If someone knows it please tell me, I'm pretty sure I remember it had good resources on a youtube channel that teaches you how to fix stuff!
i truly am obsessed with thinking of a dynamic of Kim, post transfer, becoming very close friends with Harry to the point that he knows that Harry has a crush on him, and is just waiting for Harry to bring it up so he can gently and professionally turn him down
only for Harry to talk to him outside of work one day like "yeah so I'm def bisexual and I wanna explore that, do you - "
and Kim is preparing for a long night of comforting harry and assuring that they can still be friends and it's better that they can stay platonic, just for Harry to finish with something like "do you think you can come with me to this bar, mostly for moral support but to maybe also be a wingman?? maybe?"
and Kim is silent for half a second because internally he's going "alright so I'm absolutely in love with him and he wants to fuck other men and I have to be so cool and so normal about that Right Now or else it all goes up in flames."
i think trans people need more fun stereotypes. so many groups get at least one that is like, offensive but also kinda baffling, like "gays walk fast" or "germans are obsessed with efficiency." all we get are like "evil sex predator" shit
My creatures are speading
my creatures
when it comes to disco elysium, one of my favourite things within the game is the usage of lungs as a motif of love and the representation of this through dolores dei. it’s an incredible way of showing it, as when you love someone or something it almost seems to sustain you, becomes the air that you breathe.
however, another thing i noticed is that an overwhelming majority of the characters smoke. smoking is famously damaging to your health, more specifically to your lungs - almost like smoking is a metaphor for the way these characters show their relationships with others.
some prime examples are:
• harry du bois, who smoked heavily before losing his memory (and after, depending on player choice), a clear instance because of dora and her effect on his life and relationships for years after she left
• the smoker on the balcony, who is never seen without a cigarette, and is in an unloving sexual relationship with someone who can never understand him or truly know him at all
• klaasje amandou, who is also never seen without a cigarette, believes that she is at fault for all of her relationships collapsing and has a skewed view on what it means to love
however, my favourite example is, of course, kim kitsuragi. yes, he smokes as he enjoys the control he has over his addiction and the “cool factor” it gives him is satisfying, but i think there’s a more specific reason there - kim is so repressed that he consistently walls himself off from relationships.
kim himself says that he smokes one a day as he goes over his notes. to me, this says that he is causing minor, daily damage to his interpersonal relationships that builds up more and more over time. the fact that he does it specifically when going over notes says a lot to me too - that his work is what he’s using to push others away.
he does break this one a day rule, however - in the ending where the player chooses not to recruit kim. harry leaves kim behind. they shake hands, and as soon as harry turns away, kim lights a cigarette, a visual representation of the damage caused by another partnership cut short.
kim being so insistent on you being in your late 50s is so funny we dont talk about it enough
I like reading DE fanfic but imo the characterization of Harry and Kim is like several steps away from canon in the majority of fics. There is a dynamic that writers tend to favor that is Harry as expressive, clingy, does dumb and impulsive things for the sake of it and Kim the stoic, patient, empathetic minimalist.
And in canon Harry pretty explicitly struggles to form regular facial expressions while Kim has to put substantial effort into controlling his. Harry can choose to go off without Kim or attempt to drive him away while Kim will very rarely leave him alone. Kim is also almost always the one to initiate physical contact between them. Harry typically has some sort of internal reasoning behind his actions, even if they seem nonsensical to an onlooker, but Kim will often do things or agree to plans just because it amuses him.
The biggest thing that bothers me is that in fics Kim often takes on a role of a sort of mediator, settling disagreements, deescalating situations, clearing up misunderstandings. I think that in many ways, that’s the kind of person that he aspires to be, but canonically he has pretty fucking awful people skills. He can barely have a conversation without putting on the role of Cop. I think that one of the main things he admires about Harry is his ability to read people and connect with them.
Idk man. Let Kim be a socially awkward dork and let Harry have more depth than a golden retriever archetype