People underestimate how much it fucks you up to be subtly excluded as a kid. I would try to talk to my classmates and be met with disinterest or annoyance. The one friend I had, who I clung to and nodded along to his every word, had other friends he liked just as much or more. And his other friends didn’t care for me at all.
I look back at pictures from the time and see how separated I was from them. I remember knowing I was different. I remember posing questions about the world to the girls playing next to me and realizing that they had never asked the same ones to themselves. That the ways we thought couldn’t be more different.
I kept myself amused with my own fanatical stories and musings in my head. I would wander the playground on a circular path, imagining a friend and being sorely disappointed when it didn’t feel as real as I’d hoped.
There was a bubble separating me from everyone else, thin, and nearly invisible, but with a pearly sheen you could catch under the right conditions. I knew it was there, they knew it was there, and it changed me
This picture makes me so emotional... I would never hurt you, sensitive little damselfly
"it's all in your head" correct! unfortunately I am also in there
being a sysmed is like the least punk thing you could possibly do lmao, reminds me of that 'terf is the new punk' shit from a few months ago. embarrassing as fuck.
Did you know; multiple trans people say not to use the term sysmed cause it compares being trans to a disorder which are two vastly different things? Did you also know comparing being trans and a system implies being trans is a mental illness which is transphobic? Oh, of course you didn’t silly! I forgot you’re a pro-endo and don’t know anything! My bad!
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@entities-of-posts it's pretty obvious imo
it makes me so sad that there seems to be no juggalo community in my country. like, i know that it's a mostly american thing, but i know people out here love ICP too, i just can't find them anywhere:( sometimes i even think about making a little community somewhere, perhaps like a server or a blog, but i think i won't handle the responsibility since i'm pretty busy with work. i just want juggalo friends from my country </3
well it did not ground the intended person , but success technically?
Shout out to me and the other co-host who are going through the same crisis except in the opposite directions ("Oh no I'm used to stress how do I deal with daily life" vs "Oh no I'm used to daily life how do I deal with stress")
It's just me, the seven other me's, and the eldritch abomination who speaks with multiple voices.
Everybody say a silent prayer for me as I smash the head of baby Jesus clean off this statue in the name of art.
22 ꩜ rus,eng ꩜ autistic, a DID system ꩜ juggalo ꩜ genderfluid, any pronouns
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