MY QUEEN WILL RETURN AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA-

Passages from audios that have stuck with me

Mage Bunkshelf

"I'm an angel. You're a demon. No. But... I'm a person. You're a person. We're both just... people. On that count, yeah. We are. There's more to it than just where we come from." (Fallen Angel, vol. 2)

"Did you enjoy your food? Don't look at me like that- yes or no? Did you enjoy your food? Yeah? Even though it's ultimately meaningless, you still enjoyed it. Cuz here's the thing- who cares about ultimately meaningless? Are you ultimate? No. You're just- someone. And that food, it matters to you now. This park- one day it'll be gone. The station will be scrapped, and everything you see here will be dead. All that work that went into building it and maintaining it... but we still derive value from it for the time it was here. In the moment we experienced it. That's all that's needed for something to matter- for there to be someone to whom it mattered." (Alien Abduction, vol. 3)

"Maybe this is nuts... but... let's go out for a walk. Now. Skies have cleared up so... um... I dunno, the co-op and back? Just... no hats. [...] Just as yourself. I will if you will... show the world you're proud of who you are. You said you never knew many nekos, maybe- maybe if I came with, that'd- help? [...] Maybe we'd run into someone else who's doing the same... having to hide. Another neko or another demi-human." (Neko Listener, vol. 2)

"I thought that like- if there are more of us, then maybe I can find out how they live. Learn from them. See how they figured things out. Seeing them as- like- part of normal life, it made me realize I don't have have to hide anymore, right? Not anymore... so I got a job." (Mitch the Raccoon, vol. 6)

ZsakuVA

"No, it's not my intention to fix you. It's not my duty to either. I take how I find you and tend to it. Gather all the pieces together and see the many different pictures I can make. Because your beauty deserves to be admired, and I admire it. In your world, you all are obsessed with making things perfect. Looking perfect, feeling perfect, this has to be perfect. There is no such thing as perfection. You created that yourselves and then stress over something that can never be achieved. A concept that isn't real. [...] It isn't to stop perfection. It's how you are supposed to be- not perfect but existing."(The Demon, Episode 3)

"If Serulla's charm no longer appeals to you, you might have to ask yourself why. Death of passion is the death of devotion." (The Noble Trials, Episode 6)

"We will always be treated like malignants. Hunted. They will never stop, and you know this. There is no pride in dying for a future that is already against us. It's a waste." (Dontis: The Incubus and the Vampire)

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(the tag made me smile, thank you Lunaaaa ✨🖤🐈‍⬛)

(but uno reverse XD)

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@scytheaudio

@escapedaudios (Saku was already tagged, so you two next-)

@baked-mango

@solzticesoulz

@chessman-protocol

(truly awesome seeing your creations and your work, much love to you lovely people🖤)

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Powers

Experimenting with some of my girl's traits... the flower is from the tree in my last piece with her.

Song is The Moon Will Sing by The Crane Wives.

*finally wrapping up Obi's channel with Gator Boys*

"Ok let's see why everyone likes this-"

*5 minutes later is on the floor with +50 critical damage from how cute Bodie is*

Episode 2 edit: OK THEY ARE REALLY CUTE AUUUUGHHHHHHH

Passages from audios that have stuck with me, pt. 2

Scythe Audio

"Think of a time when you achieved something that made you proud... think of that moment when you told someone that you looked up to, and their face lit up with joy. Or when you smiled to yourself with a feeling of fulfillment because of all the work you put into something. Think of it... what was it? Yes, child, you see? That head on your shoulders possesses one brilliant mind indeed. I'm proud of you for what you have achieved. Don't compare it to anyone else. Your success is yours. Revel in it." (Comforted by the God of recovery)

"What I have created, what I have been through- you think silly thoughts and paranoia would stop me? I'm not going anywhere, because there are still people out there who enjoy my work. There are still people out there that make art of my creations [...] I still have people saying how much of an inspiration I can be to them [...] and how my work has gotten them through tough times. [...] There is one thing I do have, and that's the loyalty and love of the beautiful and brilliant fucking niche community who are just as wacky and weird as I am! And that's just the way I like it. [...] If my work makes one of my wacky family smile, then I've achieved my goal." (The Reddening 6)

"Twinkle? It's been an honor to share a bit of time with one of my favorite listener characters. You are truly wonderful, and it brings me so much joy to know how loving and caring you are, despite the endless shit that you've had to endure- kinda like my audience! It won't get any better for a while, but I promise you one thing- you don't get any colder as a result. Your heart stays warm. It is in fact your warmth and kindness that will save you... and save us all. Goodbye, Twinkle." (The Reddening 6)

First ~ Next

Chapter 3:

DYING AT BYRON'S SPANISH BUT HEY, AT LEAST HE'S MORE CONFIDENT THAN I AM-

It's ok, Fletcher, I can't dance either, we can just sit hereeeeee NO CAP COME ON-

Y'ALL DID NOT JUST DO THAT TO MY BOI FLETCHER HOW DARE YOU-

Oh hang on now, Blind Simon... *goes looking for art* OH HANG ON, NOW-

*grabs headphones and crochet project*

Look at this gorgeous bastard

(So i changed his hair and expression because i was genuinely so unsatisfied with how it was looking)

*drops stack of notes on your desk* YES I DID, AND I FINISHED A FEW SIDE QUESTS TOO-

I have questions, comments, an issue, and a few random thoughts if you can stand my chaos, good sir...

The question: DID ALFONSO'S DAD ACTUALLY SLEEP WITH CARMEN. I NEED TO KNOW, DANG IT.

The issue: you are making me choose between the Spaniard and the Scotsman for my hubbie and I don't like it-

my list of fictional crushes has only grown since I've gotten into ASMR... the list was already long enough...

The comments:

First off, I really like Alfonso's character. Specifically the fact that he's not already a famed vampire slayer or anything, that he's still low in the ranks of the Guild and he's trying to live up to the memory of his father. I also enjoyed how the confession scene in Episode Five was written. One of my BIGGEST pet peeves with romance tropes is when someone says "I love you!" after TWO DAYS of knowing the other person (I'm looking at you, Disney). But here, it felt like it was taken into account that Alfonso and the Guest hadn't known each other for long and were thrown into a very stressful and emotional situation. So yeah, feelings were probably going to be a result of that, but that doesn't necessarily mean it was "love" to begin with... but it could become that. Saying "I want you" made it feel more honest, I suppose.

Second, loveeeeee how the video was set up (I watched the story compilation btw, probably should've mentioned that). But the way the background shifted with the situation was SO cool. I've noticed that before in your other series, not sure if I've brought it up yet, but it really helps with the immersion as well as giving me a better idea of what the setting is. Also- SOUNDTRACK. THANK YOU AGAIN FOR THE SOUNDTRACK.

Third, I thought it was epic that you did it in English and Spanish. Also neat finding out that you're Spanish, that was cool. My family's Puerto Rican, so I can understand the language (if you speak it at very slow pace and are very patient with me) but I personally can't speak it. I love hearing it, though, and I want to learn it properly lol.

Mmkay, that's enough of sane Nyx, time for my chaos-

"Alfonso, shut up about Carmen, Carmen is my QUEEN, I LOVE HER, she shall be the tía of our children when we get married-"

"This is probably not at all canon but Alfonso looks like Inigo Montoya from Princess Bride in my head- where's the actual design for him-"

*is once again deceased at confession scene raaaaaaaaaaaaaagh*

"Scythe, you did it again, this villain is epic."

"Ok so we have werewolves in here, which probably means that Der Wolfsjäger might be connected...? Possibly? Bro, these mythic transformations do not sound PLEASANT, AUGH-"

"OMG WE GET TO TRAIN TO BE A VAMPIRE SLAYER LET'S GO-"

From the Matador Gothic spinoffs:

In "Proving Yourself to Your Vampire Master", I could literally see it all playing out in my head as an animatic, which makes me furious that I can't draw well.

"Infiltrating a Vampire Nightclub":

"These tight pants reduce my mobility."

Me working on my sweater vest: "Pretty sure you look great from behind, though-"

"And stop looking at my butt!"

*drops crochet hook* "LORD, I PROMISE I'LL BE MORE WHOLESOME, I'M SORRY-"

"OHHHHHHHHHHHHHH BUT WE'RE ENGAGED NOW!?!?!?!?!?!?" *internal squealing intensifies*

"Not in Front of Dinner, Darling"- the tea. Just. All. The tea. I was literally sitting there with one hand covering my mouth listening to everything go down. Like yes, this is very entertaining, I could absolutely just sit here while y'all sort out your relationship- ONE HUNDRED AND SEVENTY- SIR?!?!?!?!? Also, dinner would very much prefer to NOT see any ravaging of ANY sort... thank you...

OH and the Goblin series, decided to watch that before Matador Gothic... listen, I'm all for teaching people about the magic of Christmas and what not, but if I got locked up for a year because of that little imp AND it's wrecking my house when I get home, I'm getting the baseball bat again, I'm sorry. It was a great series, 10/10.

*checks notes* Aaaaaaaaand that's about all I got for tonight. Or today. Take your pick. Bravo, Escaped, I enjoyed this once again... don't know if I want to watch Wolfsjäger yet, I might go for New Jersey Rats, since that's another finished series.

Thanks againnnnnnnn, happy holidays!!!

-🖤🐈‍⬛

Episode three of Matador Gothic:

"How much of that did you hear?" "... Enough to say I hope we get married by the end of this story?"

The Ilves Crest Crochet Tapestry

I locked in last night lol, just finished this-

Original design by ZsakuVA, border pattern by naztazia on YouTube, tapestry pattern made by me on Stitchfiddle.

Random notes:

So the actual stats of this thing: The actual creative process started January 23 (I'VE BEEN WORKING ON THIS FOR THAT LONG?!?!?!?!!?) when I asked Saku if it was okay to try crocheting his design. Crocheting took a little over 7 weeks and ~108 hours? But with a bunch of interruptions due to college and family stuff. Luckily I bought more than enough yarn to finish this, since I found out a week after I started that JoAnn was closing (they had the best yarn selection I'd ever seen too 😭). It is 57.25 in. long (~1.5 m) and 47 in. wide (~1. 2 m).

I thought about making this like- an actual wall-hanging tapestry, but as it got longer I saw that it made a really nice blanket so I decided to just keep it as a throw. Definitely my biggest project to date...

Crochet list is still going for the VAs lol... I kind of want to make a wearable for myself though, so one small plushie attack to take a break from the big projects, then I'm going to make myself a spiderweb coat! If anyone has ideas on what I could make for the VAs, I'd love to hear them- Saku's down, for Nora I want to make a giant stuffed onigiri pillow... I think for Scythe I want to make JayJay's red panda plushie Advoo, but I feel like I could make something more epic. For Escaped, Mage, and GBA I have no idea what to make.

Anyway hope you guys like it!!!! This was super fun, and I'm really really proud of how it came out.

And thank you Saku, your work is super inspiring and I hope I did your design justice!

Cheers, lovelies <3

-🖤🐈‍⬛