HoO Really Is Just Nico Having The Worst Time Of His Life For Like A Month Straight And That's Really

i think im getting better! :) [another event occurs]

will look sm like apollo it kinda scares ppl who met him sometimes. especially thalia, percy, frank and even chiron sometimes

imagine walking around chb and suddenly you see fucking apollo playing volleyball?? oh, wait thats will

missing someone is crazy because you’ll have dreams that r like “we went on a nice walk together :)” and you’ll wake up feeling like you’re gonna throw up

Do you ever start writing something that you’re excited about and that seems like it’s turning out well and that you’re getting eager to share, and then you start typing it up or doing an edit pass and it’s just awful it’s awful its premise is fundamentally flawed and it’s out of character and the prose is clunky and the plot is badly paced and ludicrous and the whole thing is embarrassing, how could you have done this, how could you have sunk so much time into this, you can’t even look at it, how is this that shining thing you were so excited about, how could you even have considered finishing it let alone sharing it with anyone, you’re crying, your mother is crying, nuns are spontaneously exploding in the streets,

Morning Solangelo doodles and nicos top surgery scars!

why dont people get that Jason grace being milquetoast and underdeveloped compared to Percy and Nico is like. the point. that's his thing. he's the guy who gave everything he had to everyone else and had nothing left for himself. he's superman. he's a sacrificial lamb. he gave his whole life to a cause he believed in and his reward is being a footnote in other people's stories.

doomed by the narrative but not to death. doomed to survive. doomed to stay alive inside the story. doomed to never escape the narrative, not even through death. you are allowed no exit. there is no way out for you and there never was. you couldn’t die if you wanted to. the narrative has a hold on you and it won’t let go. death is too sweet a doom for you. the story has something much worse in mind. there is no way out.