My Inner Child Did Enough Healing I’m Giving Her A Glock

Why do I keep eating. Send me meanspo

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i hate that im relapsing. i wont tell anyone, not even my girlfriend. i hate that i fought so hard to defeat this disorder before, gaining 30 pounds in less than a year, all to go right back to my destructive habits. but i cant stop. i cant fit in my clothes, im taking up more space, and i wish i liked myself enough now to stay like this. but i hate myself.

i dont see ugly in anyone unless i know theyre a bad person. maybe i think im a bad person. i do, sometimes. i wish i wasnt so angry and temperamental. i wish i didnt struggle to do everyday things. i wish i was BETTER.

i guess i thought gaining weight would help but apparently that wasnt it. and now im beating myself up all over again. now i feel like ive gone too far, and now im in too deep.

i wish i was stronger…

Distractions

* Go on a walk

* Search for health/nutrition info on the net

* Turn up the music and dance

* Clean your house until everything looks untouched

* Read a book or magazine

* Find out about finances and investing

* Find out enough about a national issue to form a strong opinion

* Do that that you were meaning to do for so long

* Rent and follow a yoga or pilates video

* Express yourself creatively

* Wander and browse trough the library

* Read about the toxins and food that build up in the digestive system

* Start writing in a journal about things besides calories

* Make your own, original, unique website

* Have a movie fest

* Volunteer somewhere

* Get a job

* Master your self description

* Play with your pet, they’ll love you!

* Call your grandparents

* Go to howstuffworks.com and find out!

* Exfoliate your entire body

* Think about your life goals and how you’ll reach them

* Make someone a bracelet or neckless

* Read the newspaper, every word of it!

* Stop procrastinating

* look at Th1nsp0 or me4nsp0

Switchblades!

Can my eating disorder either go away completely or be bad enough that I’m actually skinny

i’ll eat smth and be like

“idrc abt my weight anymore i wanna be happy”

and then…

*sobs*