final message: i love you people who were "scary" children. i love you people who attacked other people, who hurt animals, who destroyed people's things, on purpose or on accident. i love you people who got labeled "creepy" or "problem child" or "attention-seeking" or "manipulative". i love you people who got kicked out of class or suspended often, who got kicked out of schools, who transferred before you could get kicked, who didn't understand why they got in trouble. i love you students who failed classes, who'd cry in class, who'd sleep through class, who got sent to unhelpful counselors. you weren't at fault for being a struggling child, and i love you if you struggle feeling overwhelmingly guilty for how you acted as a child, and i love you if you dont. i especially love you if you struggle to see yourself as a good person because of whatever you did as a child. i love you people who cant remember what you did, but are told it makes you bad. you are not defined by the actions of your child self, and you are able to choose who to be as you are now. if you have the capacity and interest to make amends, you can, and its also okay to not do that and just leave it all behind. i love you all the same.
remember to pay attention to me btw. remember to pay attention and to be in love with me. btw. right now
bpd culture is your fp being the least responsive person ever and it slowly killing you
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dunno who needs to hear this but sometimes people don't want you to improve they want to constantly make you do self flagellation. find many more reasons why you can't and hold shit, especially shit from years ago, over your head as a block. it's fine to not forgive someone but if you see a person not making the same mistakes again, and infact are trying to make amends for their actions and do every possible thing they can to get better, then let them be. nobody is fucking perfect, especially to those who are barely starting adulthood.
BPD culture is feeling too sad to eat :(
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bpd culture is feeling like your fp hates you because they’re not talking to you bc they said they are busy with stuff irl (but what if they are lying? making up excuses to not talk to me??)
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suspected bpd culture is genuinely believing your cause of death will be suicide because you are aware that this disorder is slowly eating away your hope and energy to continue living, making it impossible to live normally.
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bpd culture is having the largest mental sigh while acting and exaggerating just to please someone else
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the 'wow you're so emotionally mature for your age!' to having the I can't regulate my emotions disorder pipeline is real
Euripides (Tr. Anne Carson) / @wholeheartedsuggestions / Jenny Slate / Euripides again
i got a b in personality disorders??? did i not study enough?