Thesemidnightthoughtss - Midnight Thoughts

I'm just so tired of this. my body is tired, my mind is a mess. I just really want to lay in bed and never get up. I'm just so tired of life.

I mean yeah I carry a sadness that exhausts my will to live like a leach on my heart but I’m basically fine

i dont have the strength to recover. im going through the motions at this point. i gave up long ago, now i breathe because i dont know what else to do.

I don’t even want any of this, but I have to deal with all this failure which is a result of me being alive. And that just makes it a million times worse. I fail at everything, I can’t do one thing right. Yeah I failed but I don’t have the motivation or the will to work. I’m not being lazy. I just don’t know how to work towards anything when my end goal is to be dead

Benjamin Fondane

my entire life is just about trying to survive my mind but then again there are moments where i ask myself why i’m even trying so hard. there is no light at the end of the tunnel, there is nothing worth staying for. why am i still doing this then? why am i still trying

Mental illness took so much away from me, sometimes I wish it would have taken my life as well

how tempting it is to stop existing when you’re already barely here