I Think About God And All The Ways He Has Failed Me. He Let Me Be Assaulted And Abused And Groomed. Its

i think about god and all the ways he has failed me. he let me be assaulted and abused and groomed. its all gods fault. he couldve prevented it if he wanted to. and i wouldnt be so disgusting and mean if he prevented it. what if god isnt real? what about all the devoted christians who never got a life outside of something that never existed? they lost every last thing they had but still had faith in nothing?? how is that fair??? and does god really punish people for killing themselves? im gonna go to hell if i just cant handle living like this?? and what if hell isnt real? will my groomers and abusers ever get the punishments they deserve? the legal system never did anything and neither does god. im on my own. i hope heaven is at least real. i hope everyone i lost at least feels the happiness they couldnt find on earth

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I got into Mouthwashing guys…

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Hiii, I felt like really pouring out my feelings on a fic (since it's also been a while). I used David to portray my thoughts and feelings since I have a hugeeee attachment for David and blah blah blah,,, well, the point is that I self-reflected on him and if anyone is interested in seeing him suffer, this is your fic. Btw, big fat content warining for suicide attempt and mentions of other issues.

Rating: Explicit !major character death!

Relationship: --

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“You’ve been off lately, man,” he said, his voice softer than usual. “Is everything alright?” David forced a smile, one he had perfected over the years. “Yeah,” he lied. “Just tired, you know?”

1985

https://archiveofourown.org/works/64030417

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theunfrgiv3n

1 month ago

PHIL AND DIMEBAGGGG AMBATAKUMMM,,, i have another phil/dime fic idea, might post this week as well. Now, real freaky pantera yaoi bellow

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Relationship: Phil Anselmo/Dimebag Darrell

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After Phil loses a fight in a bar, him and Dime head back to Dime's place to patch up and cool off. After a little talk, the sight of blood on Phil's face is a real turn on for Dime, and one thing leads to another and they end up getting caught fucking in the kitchen by Vinnie.

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https://archiveofourown.org/works/65984050

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3 months ago

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Love collecting physical media

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2 months ago

I have this urge to delete all my fics and start over, I hate my works so much bro

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3 months ago

⋆˙⟡ painfully beautiful

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2 months ago

WHAT, WHY AM I TAGGED FROM THE PAST

I’d be nothing without @theunfrgiv3n.

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3 months ago

David looks bonita

I already posted this on X

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theunfrgiv3n

3 months ago

PLS DO I LOVE SEEING PPL’S SHRINES

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Let me introduce you my small shrine of David, which is composed of him and only him…

I love him sm, I can’t wait to get more magazines and posters ◝(ᵔᗜᵔ)◜ . He’s my favorite musician ever, I really hope to see him again and I’m praying to meet him ughhh…