Guys? I think I'm really tired. Sometimes I just sit listening to people and I think: "I really wish I could hear you..." You know? Like with my own ears. I wanna listen to your voice completely unaided by technology. I wish I could hear what you sound like with my own ears. I just wanna hear you without everything sounding so dulled like it's underwater. It's been so freaking long since I really heard someone and I really just wanna hear you talk. I just wanna hear you talking, not even saying much, just talking. For hours and hours if you have the time. And I wish I could say things back and not stutter and sound like an idiot. I wish I could carry a conversation like other people can. I wish I could freaking talk. But I can't talk to you about all the crazy things I think of or listen to all the dumb things you have to say because some guy thought that it was more important for them to drink and drive than it was for me to be able to tell you the joke I heard yesterday the way I heard it said. I just really wish that accident had never freaking happened.
This Is Going to Hurt 1x06
I moved out a year ago and thought it'd be cool to share what I've learned so you don't have to suffer as much :,)
Decide a day to sit down and pay all bills and everyone
Know and accept you won't get your initial budget right, it took me a year
Google is your friend, but people are better.
Especially when looking for cheap markets and places to eat, or safe streets to walk around, people know more than google.
4. Speaking of cheap markets... get those (free) memberships for discounts. But most importantly, dowload and check every supermarket app and search for the cheapest one.
5. When looking for a place to live, try to speak with people who live there and check google maps reviews and your countrys site for custumers complaints.
6. You likely don't need to clean as often as your family told you, but cleaning your place will make you feel better. And you gotta clean the fridge. And hair. So much hair.
7. If you don't have a fridge, just a small cooler, check if the building has a common fridge/kitchen and Don't. Be. Shy to use it please.
I recommend not moving into a place without a fridge if you don't plan on eating out or going to the market every two days.
8. Carry your documents with you, or write them down or make a copy. I recommend not carrying the original since if you lose it/get mugged it's a pain in the ass to get it fixed.
9. Cook as much as you can in one go, but don't overwhelm yourself. Get those washed vegetables and cut onions, do what you need so you don't end up exhausted and crying on the floor... not that I've ever done that myself...
10. It's gonna feel hard at times and that's ok! The freedom is worth it, and after a year I'm really happy with all the progress I've made
11. Avoid pets, especially in a scenario that you're moving around or in a small studio or with financial difficulties (this can change from ppl to ppl etc)
12. Join or make a chat group with everyone in the building, without the sindicate so y'all can be honest about complains and create a single, solid complaint before showing it to the sindicate. (apartment manager? syndic? assignee? idk, whoever fixes things)
That's all I can remember for now, feel free to ad or correct me if you like :)
Love comes to the door asking for nothing in return. That's how it functions. But the world will knock your door, or may even impolitely bang the door, or may even outrageously break in and see what it can get from you and may even be audacious to sell you off. Don't trade your soul for a paltry gain. You'll recognise in an instance if the one standing by the door is pure love or just another phoney seeking to gain out of you...
Random Xpressions
me explaining how when I change my phone wallpaper, it symbolizes a whole new era
gentle reminder: you are very capable and I’m excited for your future
I know it’s wrong
The way I look at you
The way I want to touch you
How your name rolls off my tongue
Like it was always meant to
When you hold me,
It feels like heaven
You give me a bliss
I didn’t even know existed
I want to reach out
I want to grab on
I want more
And I know you said,
This is purely physical
And I know everyone says,
It’s only ever physical
But for once,
After a night of purely physical,
Can you hold me
Like it’s more?
The sun didn't rise today
But it will, tomorrow
Despite knowing our future...
We still waited for the sun to rise
I wanted you to be by my side♡
❤
Jo Koster (Dutch painter) 1868 - 1944 Interior with Piano 1916