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Affirmations bc i'm disabled & struggle with internalized ableism:

I am doing good. My goals are mine, and I don't need to compare myself to other people.

I am inherently worthy as a human being, regardless of my productivity (or lack thereof).

I am allowed to rest, and it is okay that I need to rest almost 24/7 because of my disabilities. Rest is not a break to be earned; it's a need, and everyone's needs are different.

I am allowed to enjoy things simply because they make me happy. My joy is a human need, not something to be commodified.

I have so many strengths: thoughtfulness, compassion, gentleness, creativity, etc. These are the core of who I am.

I am loved and cared for. There are so many people like me across the world, and any time I feel lonely, there is another disabled person somewhere feeling the same. In the same vein, there are disabled activists who are fighting for us; being a voice for people who can't make their voice heard, or don't even know it's an option.

I am not alone <3 And neither is the person reading this. We are worthy, valued, and important. No ifs, ands, or buts.

Dear October,

Please handle me with care, I'm as fragile as a potato chip in a thunderstorm. I hope you understand.

I’ll admit, I’m going to miss the little wizard guy. However I do like this thing where they completely change their logo randomly every few months.

I’ve started a collection:

sunday, september 17th, 2023 | 49/100 days of productivity

I woke up in a grumpy mood, but I did some yoga and then sat on the balcony and drank some tea while I started a reread of Braiding Sweetgrass. it's one of my favorite books and I really wanted to reread it this year. just reading the first few pages snapped me out of my bad mood <3

today's productivity:

did laundry

cleaned the bathroom

did some prep for a budgeting challenge next month

today's self-care:

I woke up at a reasonable hour

I did yoga!

I have some friends coming over this afternoon to play board games :)

Sometimes people aren’t their best selves to you, and while it hurts, it doesn’t mean you did anything wrong. Their actions reflect on them, not you.

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types of study settings

raining:

sitting close to a window, sure to hear and see the raindrops fall

candles lit, fairy lights strung, the soft orange glow of warmth surrounding you

a desk cluttered, but organised

a laptop with its brightness on low

or a journal spread open with pens ready to be used

quiet

morning:

the soft morning sunlight hitting your (note)books

the scribble of the pen scratching across the paper, writing and memorising

a cup of tea or coffee, the damp curling through the air above it

the soft rattle of music playing in the background

hearing the world wake up along with you

night:

the tired ache of your body after having lived through another day

your mind tired in a way that it won't get distracted easily

sitting down at the desk, on the couch, but steering clear from the bed for fear of falling asleep too soon

candles lit, tea made

either staying in your day clothes or deciding to get ready first

the clean feel of your face as you ready yourself for your study session

library:

walking through the rows of books to find a quiet place

hearing the murmurs of other students trying to grasp their mind around their study materials

the table in the back corner of the library, a big window in front, lined with bookshelves on either side

setting your stuff down and making that little place yours, if only just for a little while

working away, not noticing time go by, suddenly the soft glow of golden hour falls onto your work

the quiet murmurs and laughs of other students have faded away

being proud of what you've achieved

I don’t want my future to be a compromise.

19.4.23 // at the library today :) i almost finished my first essay and ive just two more to go before summer !!!

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