I Basically Have Two Moods: Either Let’s Do Something Spontaneous And Awesome, Or Let’s Just Lie

I only know how to write free verse poetry

Rue, what happened?

A reminder for the girls with big plans

To all the girls with big dreams, who have been told that they are ‘too preoccupied with success’, or that they are ‘too selfish’ or ‘too ambitious’ - do not listen to the people who speak those words. If you love something that much, and will pursue it to the ends of the earth, do not give it up for anyone. Hold it close to your heart and understand that you are not obligated to dim your sparkle for anybody. In your life, there will always be people who tell you that you are too much or too little. They will say a woman is too assertive, or too reserved. They will say she feels too little or too much, that ambition is selfish. They may even be hurt or offended that you do not think the same. Yet at the end of the day, know in your heart that you are the only one who will ever know whether you are truly enough and that is what’s important. Go out there and smash the glass ceiling to pieces.

You see the person they could be and not the person they are. That is why you pour your heart into everyone you meet.

That is why you are so empty.

Dissociation feels

everything is happening 0.5 times too fast

numb

everything but a little bit to the left

Numb™

it feels like Monday the 17th at 3:31pm but also like Saturday at 4:57am

….. existing?

hahahaHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

why are the end credits playing I didn’t even hit play

Current emotion is coma

I need to self-harm but I physically cannot move

feeling panic rising up inside but being too numb to physically react

Must Do Thing. Do Not Know What Thing Is.

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everythingeverythingeverythingeverythingeverythingeverythingeverythingeverythingeverythingevery

…I should start a religion

I A M G O D

*vibrating softly* everything in the world is my fault

Numb

Existence Is Fraud

Do I still have legs?

Caesar: dead

Brutus and Cassius: gay

Mark Anthony: triumphant

Hotel: trivago

keep creating. please.

keep creating your art. please.

Sick so you can learn how to write poetry

how it feels being swarmed w responsibilities but not having enough executive function/motivation too deal w them

some dissociation feels:

my thoughts are far away and I can barely hear them 

feelings and reactions are all fake

emptiness

personality???

there’s another person in my body

there’s someone trapped in the mirror

I can’t die because I’m not real

why is the world so blurry and bright?

time goes fast but everything else goes slow

always performing in front of an invisible audience

nothing makes sense so what is rational/irrational??