Tyleno1

I don’t think healthy people every really get chronic illness.

I have a friend I know from when we were both 6. She is the only person living nearby and so she saw me go from walking through limping to wheelchair on a daily basis. I keep her updated on my health even tho we rarely hang out anymore. She was gonna come over yesterday and I had to cancel. She asked if I can’t hang out later that day. When I said i won’t feel better later, that if I feel that bad in the morning later will only get worse she got annoyed and “joked” that I’m just finding excuses. And I was surprised, she knows all about me being disabled after all? So, a bit taken aback, I told her it’s a normal thing for me.

“But you got the diagnosis now, aren’t you better?? I thought you’ll get better now”

She was honestly surprised and it made me realize a thing. They don’t get it. They don’t get that getting diagnosed only equals benefits like welfare or parking spot for us, and sometimes better pain meds but that is just like pushing luck. That it’s a forever thing. That that one day we felt good a week ago was just a bright spot and doesn’t mean we won’t need our aids anymore, cause chronic illness is not linear and will make a great comeback in next four hours, and the next good day is planned on when we’re 70. Cause when abled people are sick, they get better. And our illness is just an excuse for them. And when we say we will never get better they think we’re being dramatic and pessimistic. And I don’t think they’ll ever get it, cause to get it you need to live it. And I want my friends to stay healthy and not go through hell.

im just spilling this to the void. i had a tonic clonic seizure day. i hate my friends i hate my doctors i hate everyone who doesn’t take me seriously i hate my body i hate this i hate this i hate this. scariest fucking thing ever

i started hydroxychloroquine a few days ago. crazy im finally taken seriously. wow

honestly just getting so concerned about the public reaction to d*pp’s defamation case. like he lost a defamation case in a jurisdiction famous for being sympathetic to the claimant because the sun proved to the satisfaction of multiple judges that he assaulted heard at least twelve times, but he’s a poor baby who did nothing wrong. marilyn manson is suing evan rachel wood and the other women who spoke out against him and where do you think he got the idea??? bob morley and ezra miller’s exes, at bare minimum, have been accused of “pulling an amber heard” when they accused morley and miller of abuse. people are eating up a diagnosis of fucking hysteria by a psychologist who isn’t board certified!! d*pp pursuing heard through the courts is making it so much harder for abuse survivors to speak out and he’s fucking proven to have abused heard

My new method to avoid eye contact is a low cut top and a push-up bra.

religious men: god’s purpose for women is to give men sexual pleasure and sons at men’s will

atheist men: the way we naturally evolved makes women’s purpose to give men sexual pleasure and sons at men’s will