I Am Pathologically Homesick For The Lives I Could Have Lived

You don’t feel it like me

“Tujhe yaad kar liya hai, aayat ki tarah.”

— I have memorized you like a holy verse from the Quran. 

Double RL

Reserve all your prayers, supplications, solicitations for Him and Him alone. For to bestow, give, and confer lies only in His Power. Allow God to exceed your expectations and be extravagant in what you ask of Him. Ask audaciously for your heart's greatest desires, and know that how you perceive God's generosity will shape the outcome to your prayers. Indeed, only He Who is Most Generous is worthy of worship.

— Imām ʿAlī ibn Abī Ṭālib (ع)

Guess I'm back

In English we say "I can't make eye contact". But in Urdu, we say:

"Unki nazron ka rukh aaj meri taraf hai,

Aaj meri palkon ne uthne se inkaar kar diya hai".