“what If Kids Identify With Something And It Ends Up Just Being A Phase-?” Good. Stop Teaching And

A guy who smokes weed for chronic joint pain has found a dealer that sells customers pre-rolled blunts, but due to the pain he never makes it to the goods before the dealer has sold all the good ones off the top, so he's left with the crappy ones - the dealer knows that he'll buy them anyway because even if it doesn't stop the pain, it's still easier to deal with that when he smokes. It also helps with the lack of appetite he has because it's not fun to eat when you're in pain. He can't really cook either, anyhow, so most of the time the best he can do is trying to choose between the two utterly dogshit cheap fast food places that are within reasonable distance of his house. Which are not good, nor good for him, but better than nothing.

All his life's problems are caused by - and consist of - shitty fucking joints.

me w the gang

he committed third degree murder

absolute diva that i made like 2 months ago who i love more then life itself

all fandoms walk a notoriously fine line with trauma survivors and i feel like johnny cade is a good example of that. specifically, the often-seen portrayals of traumatized characters in ways that either romanticize their experiences or completely ignore their experiences (the latter of which is often done to favor another character’s journey).

i feel like the outsiders fandom (book, movie, and musical are lumped together here) at times leans heavily into the second one (minimization of trauma). now. i understand the fandom reversal of johnny’s role as being like. Not Innocent (and while i partially agree and think it’s a based take sometimes) i feel like some people do kind of turn him into a character he’s not by instilling a kind of confidence in him that he never had the opportunity to get. people tend to brush past the fact that he is, canonically, by far the quietest of the gang and RARELY talks. he is also, quote, “the gang’s pet.” (while pony IS an unreliable narrator, many of his descriptions of johnny, especially toward the beginning, are just descriptions of his physical reactions to his surroundings as well as past events like johnny getting jumped.)

He gets nervous around strangers. he’s hyper vigilant—two-bit surprises him at the drive-in and he pretty much has a panic attack. he’s 16 and has been borderline homeless for years. he has ptsd from a life of simultaneous abuse and neglect. he’s afraid to take up space because his life is so inconsistent he never knows what his existence will be met with—will it be ignored completely, or will it be met with an unforgiving hand? so he listens, and he watches, and he does hang around dally and the gang, but a big part of who he is comes from his upbringing - he tries as hard as possible to Not be noticed at all, because when he does, it’s bad. i think he would like to be a more confident, “normal” version of himself, but that person isn’t someone who he ever really had a chance to be.

thinkin about the possibility of Johnny writin a letter for Dallas too again. n knowin. even as he wrote it. it would never be read.

Darry having autism is actually my biggest comfort headcanon

(Basing this off of MY autism with overlapping adhd and ocd)(I hc him with some of all three)(projection character !)

He yearns for familiarity and follows an empty pattern in his life. He took the roll as a parent over a brother because of this. He doesn’t want Pony and Soda to go without one and thinks that if he can’t act as them, it’ll be like things are the same. He needs a routine or he will break. He can’t handle change

He doesn’t know how to show affection and it often gets misunderstood. He wants to best for his brothers and wants Pony to have the life he never had the chance to have, so he pushes him for it. He thinks he’s giving Pony a chance in life, while Pony sees it as Darry telling him that he’ll never be enough.

His outlet is anger because he struggles to show emotion. He doesn’t know how to process or show emotion that he default to anger. When he gets worried, he gets mad. When he gets scared, he gets mad. He doesn’t show much emotion, either. He stays neutral and only ever shows it when it’s huge. He’s not the best at understanding it- at all. He doesn’t get why people are upset or mad.

He craves to love, but he just can’t show it. He knows something’s wrong with him- his parents never had that problem, Soda never had that problem, Pony never had that problem. So why does he?

He always does some repetitive motion, mainly with his hands, when he’s overwhelmed or nervous- which, for him, is more often than not at this point. He has a 100yard stare when processing anything sudden and overwhelming.

He takes things to literally. He struggles to relate to others. He’s not good at communicating. He can’t maintain good relationships. He’s often told to be emotionless because he just can’t fucking get it.

He hates the way cigarettes smell, but he can’t tell the others. He hates certain foods the gang loves because of texture, but he can’t tell them. He hates how washing dishes feel, but he can’t tell the gang. They’ll all think he’s being dramatic when he’s always just overstimulated/overwhelmed.

I have so much more for this, but currently I am overwhelmed!

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i physically need to squeeze Darry. like psssst psospspsps come here little guy I'm gonna squish you. Think of hugging a really fat cat. I need to do that.

Stupid dumb stinky doodle from a few days ago that I love

Like imagine Ponyboy just hanging out in a tree and Darry being so confused. Hed be like "Pony get down and go do your homework??? Why are you up there in the first place???" and Ponyboy saying with a straight face "..Its fun!"

“I guess that’s your decision, huh Dally?🤨”

“It’s a greaser decision, Darrel 🙄”

God they fight like a divorced couple trying to keep it together for the kids but still can’t hide the fact that they can’t stand each other

behind the screen this is who I am