I Fucking Love Lost. For A Show That's All About Black Vs White Symbolism, Good Vs Evil Morals, Light

michael emerson as ben linus in season four of lost

primetime emmy award nominee for outstanding supporting actor in a drama series

I know Ben was sweating thinking about how he had to leave John on the island with Eyeliner Richard. Like not only can he not return to the island or bring his boyfriend with him off the island John is now buddy buddy with a man that has beautiful eyelashes and doesn’t age. He must of been breaking out in rashes the minute he left

someone should write a crossover fanfic where the characters from lost find that cave from "h2o - just add water" and turn into mermaids

Gia is the sweetest girl ever and I absolutely adore her… in a vacuum! Or a brand new cast! Put her in the context of the series and it’s painfully obvious that she’s just created so people would stop shipping Darius with Ben. The love for dinosaurs, the adoration of Ben’s quirks despite everyone else making fun of them, even the Dino Nerd nickname (?????????), they literally took all of Darius’ characterizations towards Ben and slapped them on Gia. It’s extremely telling that even when they had to cook up a girl in a lab for Ben to have a straight relationship with, the best they can do is literally still Darius.

very sad i will not be finishing this tumblr please enjoy

+ here's the before rendering version that i like much more.. there's a charm that i must've lost halfway through sighhhhh

i miss you camp cretaceous

hrmm ... criticism below the cut

s3 is such an interesting case study of Questionable Darius Writing to me. like, he's more involved in the main plot than he was in s2 so at least he's doing something. but i spent the first half of the season just going "he would not fucking say that" and the second half wishing he'd have stronger feelings about anything that was going on

about Ben being queer coded

I must start saying this post won't be about ships. This is about some of the things in Ben's character arc that can be paralleled with queer experiences. Feel free to add more parallels on the comments or reblogs.

These are just some general observations that I already pointed out before and that I wanted to put in a single post.

For me, seeing queerness in Ben is not about simply putting him in a relationship with a men. For me, it always has been about Ben's identity as a person, about how his queerness could be inherent to his character.

Now talking about Ben's character during JWCC, the first thing we should mention is how his arc portraits a journey of self-discovery.

The way he changed after the monorail incident. The way he transformed himself and started doing things he hasn't done before. He clearly was trying to achieve more freedom by doing that.

When he turns into his "island boy" persona in season 2, his identity is not clear for him yet. He tries to perform some confidence, constantly trying to affirm himself as brave, but he doesn't know who he is.

In season 4, he freaks out about it and starts thinking he is not good enough for being that persona he was trying to be, and to protect camp fam.

This identity "crisis" is so common for queer people. Not just that, but the feeling of displacement he expresses in S4 when he's thinking that who he already is is not enough, really resonates with lgbtqia+ realities.

When he turned into an "Island Boy" we finally thought Ben was feeling free to do whatever he wanted. But the truth is that he kept feeling insecure about who he was and S4 shows this to us.

That's why I used the word "displacement" to describe his situation. I know he had his friends' support. But anyone in his situation would feel out of place, after all, he was questioning his own identity.

When he advises Yaz after she came out to him on season 5, it looks like he knew what he was talking about. For me, what justify he having that specifically knowledge about life is that he has been questioning himself too. And I'm not even talking about Ben questioning if he is queer himself, I'm talking, again, about him questioning his own identity in general. And this is already enough for us to make a parallel with queer experiences.

In conclusion: questioning his own identity, having a journey of self-discovery, feeling out of place, wanting to achieve more freedom to be who he is, giving advises about coming out...It all feels queer coded to me.

RIP Sawyer you would’ve loved

Oh Charlie how I miss your gay walk and flared jeans in these trying times