Katherine Larson, From Radial Symmetry; “Gardens In Tunisia”

— a girl is a haunted house, tathève simonyan

[text ID: “I could’ve lived like this”, echoed in my head. / As I looked around, my eyes unthinkingly clung to places where I could’ve hidden my selves: the ones that didn’t come to being and the one that I was. In the cupboards of this kitchen I could’ve buried all the women I could’ve grown into. While doing so, I would’ve put on the apron of the one who inhabited the kitchen. The cups and the glasses would’ve made place for me. I could’ve easily found a home in between the kitchen table and refrigerator. As the fragrance of rosemary and thyme found their way to me, a picture found its way to the back of my eyes: a hushed scene, full of contentment, a shot of me standing in the center of this kitchen, feet thick brown trucks giving birth to dozens of snakelike radixes, covered in colorful moss, devoid of flowers but who needs flowers when all they do is wilt anyway? I would’ve thought so, had I been the me of that frame. / I could’ve been content here, not happy, but content. The cutlery and the plates would’ve made place for me. The dull roar of the washing machine would’ve hidden my cries, with the same diligence it sheltered my mother’s. The “what ifs” of this particular scenario smelled of cinnamon and vanilla. / I could’ve been content here. I thought as I placed the coffee cup on the countertop next to the gas stove: the surface always wet for it filled the space between the sink and the stove, in between water and fire.  / I could’ve been content here. I repeated as I unscrewed the lid of the coffee jar and took out a spoonful of the umber powder. / While turning on the gas and putting the cezve on its designated place, I cursed the mind that yearned for more, yearned to be more than what it was supposed to be. I cursed the eyes that only saw what was not in front of them, hands that wished to touch what wasn’t theirs to touch and the tongue that longed to taste what wasn’t hers to taste. I cursed myself because I understood that I could’ve been content here, and as the umber froth fought its way to the surface, my tears caved in to the gravitational force.]

Mary Sarton, Journal of a Solitude

If I wished hard enough, do you think the fae would steal me away?

Call Down the Hawk, Maggie Stiefvater // C. S. Lewis // St. Lucy’s Home for Girls Raised by Wolves, Karen Russell // vintage print, Cicely Mary Barker // “Plea” by me // the Cottingly Fairy hoax picture // “Plea” // vintage postcard // Anne of Avonlea, L.M. Montgomery // “Plea”

“You will freeze in place if you remain this way. You must not, dear. You have to move.”

— Rainer Marie Rilke, letter to Sidonie Nádherná von Borutín, August 1, 1913, translated by Ulrich Baer

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ANNIE MURPHY as Ruth Brenner in RUSSIAN DOLL - 2.02 “Coney Island Baby”

I am terrified all the time

I am filled with fear in the face of beautiful things

The most beautiful thing I ever saw has made me the most afraid

And the fear has never left me

— Niina Pollari, from “Megalophobia,” Path of Totality