Concerning Life

and since i just seem to be arbitrarily posting music ya dont know ( because I’m lazy ) here’s a song you know in a language youve never heard, youd be shocked maybe to find this language is actually the granddaddy of English, but we dont want the tumblr community thinking too abstractly now do we.

Here’s a realistic song about Junkies, I say realistic because it doesn’t glorify it or belittle said people, it’s written from first hand observation and is well, a damn decent song in general...

Oh yeah, he does music too.

The Human story: When you’re very young, the world is confusing, you struggle to understand the meaning of life, and therefore life is an abstract, fairly meaningless.  In the middle of your life, you have brushes with death maybe, health problems, near OD’s, your parents die and suddenly you’re very alone.  You work through it, but you start to fear death. 

Maybe I skipped a chapter already but at one point if you’re lucky you stop fearing the unknown, you realize everytime you sleep you die and hope you’re reborn, some people find god, and try to right all their wrongs out of fear, but death is the great equalizer, and is necessary.  Unlike Humans, Earth recycles everything and there are only X amount of resources therefore only Y amout of things can live on X. 

Do I fear death?  Sorta, do I also contemplate death as a release from the sufferings of the world?  You bet, but really it all comes down to how stubborn you are, I’m not in love with life, life has been shitty to me, and now that I’m old enough to do something about it I’ve lost all ambition therein.  At the same time, unlike some hot topic teen goth I dont romanticize death, death is grizzly and horrible. 

Most adults make a life via their vocations and families, they dont have to contemplate their mortality or the nature of the universe, not often, but I dont have that luxury, and as I sit here in my little self made cell, high or drunk on whatever, I think my perspective is different than alot of people. 

Every angsty teen is in love with death because they have a goldfish like brain, and they’re just finding the ocean, most adults are affraid to swim, so they only swim for reasons they make up, money, career advancement, what have you, and some pull the trigger and sink.  Death comes to us all, how you handle it is what makes you you, and everything you say do or think will be defined by this one basic premise, youll either be reckless or fearless, and both are really a sham.  You WILL die, your loved ones will die, in 200 years no one will remember your name, anyone who would will die, invent a heaven or live with it, live to youre old and pissing yourself in a bag, die at 20 from an OD it really doesnt matter you’re just a building everyones waiting to fall down so they can use your bones to shape a new building, you matter completely and you dont matter at all.

I refuse to cry for the people I know that have died young from drugs, i refuse to cry for the people that lived to be old enough to drain excess resources to prolong their inevitable demise, I refuse your concept of reality, I refuse.

Talking Heads // Girlfriend Is Better

https://www.youtube.com/embed/OwBNsXLfiik

“ Breath of the Streets “

Concerning Lilith, and of the Lillum:

I’m not religious, none of this is real, have fun.Ask alot of people and they don’t know who Lilith is ( though they will know this painting ).  The story goes, in the garden of Eden Adam and Lilith were created out of clay, and Lilith wouldn’t be subservient to Adam because they were made of the same thing and thus equal.  So god cast her out of the garden, and she became a demon.  God then created Eve of Adams rib, and since eve was made from Adam, she was thus indebted to him and subservient.  This is just one of many many bouts of sexism in the bible.We are children of Adam and Eve...or are we?  Wouldn’t it be a real kick to find out we’re actually the Lillum, of Lilith, and maybe Eves offspring were actually saved despite their parents nose and went to some other existence somewhere.  It’s easy to make the religious people go rabble rabble in atheist terms, but don’t tell them gods dead, or challenge their ideas from a standpoint that you believe in their ideas, it drives their little minds crazy.   Are we all demon children?  Have the Lillum been abandoned by their former god?  Has it been Lucifer, who has always pitied man been the one to keep us afloat in this chaos?  Don’t worry I’ll rant about Lucifer too later.  God says hes a spiteful vengeful god, perhaps you are dirt to him, hell even better maybe you made god kill himself to escape his last great mistake.

Aldous Huxley’s death note.

Shakes the Clown