side sh blog, she/her, 18+, I'm Inirat and this is my main blog, - very fandomy.
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'Why are you so sad and gloomy'shall I give you the 463736637 reasons it's you, mother?
Sorry i just wanna be miserable and bitter for a second.
I mean, what fucking friends.
every single conversation with my family makes me wanna kms
Rn my mom talked about the future, for like, 3 minutes, and i nearly said, what future? while imagining increasingly violent ways to die.
what is a birthday without one of these, really???
going out today. car crash??? 👀👀
hearing your parents talk about future plans, knowing you probably won’t be here anymore
Anybody ever wear short-shorts to see their thighs after cutting cause they look so pretty 😍
Like I wore short-shorts today to look at them just because. even though my sis could've so easily found out at any time but whewwwww I'm slick
Pretty sure she like, has an idea, but who cares (ok fine i care a lil bit, she saw one, but this happened a long time ago and maybe she's forgotten?)
to quote one of my fav characters, 'a shit life beats no life'
Why do people react so strongly toward cutting? To me it's an equivalent of smoking or drinking so it's just another coping mechanism. It's not that serious. Chill the hell out
keep going
When will I have the BALLS to actually do something instead of cvting stupidily
Well yes. One of you need to come over and accidentally run me over with your car. Please.
Tomorrow we find out if I'm actually gonna kms
Nervous rn (not without good fucking reason) digging my nails into my thighs but obvs my nails aren't big or sharp enough for their to be blood. When will this torture ENDD
FAILED
Guess who's not eating today! If I have any say that is 😌
Confession: I go to sleep fantasizing about someone on top of me choking me to death. And it's the most intimate romantic thing 😊 and then I die.
Tomorrow we find out if I'm actually gonna kms
Guess who's not eating today! If I have any say that is 😌
They should invent a new kind of Being Alive where it's not painful and it doesn't hurt constantly and actually feels worth it and you're happy for more than a few hours at a time
Life changing event upcoming. Loosing my mind wanting to cvt but my family is with me 😭. I honestly don't deserve them. Why didn't she abort me
Just saw a fucking amazing video essay about, wanting to die vs. Wanting to have never been born. There is some overlap but it's different
I simultaneously want tomorrow to happen but I also don't. Please just let me die in an accident or something.
i cvt my thigh in the shower, after i really long time of not doing it, and it felt sooo good. literally just one small tiny one and it still burns now even after an hour or so. and i was like, ok i have to get a side blog now.
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Pencil sharpener blades: We’ve all been there, the definition of desperate. May not be the sharpest but she gets the job done and will have a special place in our hearts <3
Razor blades: My absolute fave, works like a fucking charm. You’ve definitely done some experimenting trying to get them out of the razors.
Scissors: You’re either super desperate and using the only thing you can find, or you’re crazy and literally cut chunks out of your skin. I could never stomach cutting chunks so y’all are brave
Lighter: I’ve never used it, but you seem pretty chill. Definitely gets overlooked in the sh community
Hands: sometimes it’s just easiest to dig your nails into your skin until they’re decorated in those little half moons. Skin picking too, that also a fun one. Pretty easy to hide and execute, not the most painful tho
Knives: depends on the kind of knife. You could have anything from light cuts to some deep serious shit. It’s probably a pain in the ass to hide the knife tho.
Safety pins: these were my starter tool. Again, not the sharpest, but she works and isn’t really that hard to find. You’re probably just starting out with sh, and I recommend you don’t continue doing it because it can be very addictive
Glass: you’re pretty cool! It’s a pretty solid tool with good sharpness, and not too big to hide! You have a very well rounded tool and have probably been doing this for a while.
Box cutter: again, never used it, but they seem about the same sharpness as a razor blade. I’m kinda jealous of how easy they seem to hold and the leverage you can get. You seem like someone who likes the sharpness of a razor blade but is going the classy route.
I’ve definitely forgotten some so lmk what and I’ll edit it <3
If I got anything wrong I’m so so sorry
hello void! this is Ini! finally making a side blog to vent n stuff. (the two people following me on my main did not sign up for my breakdowns.) let's hope this is as cathartic as i'm imagining.