Okay, I'm rambling BUT
I think people forget that Chuuya is one of the very few people who know Dazai. Like, actually know him past his masks. That Dazai isn't the only one who can hurt Chuuya, that Chuuya can hurt Dazai just as much. Because Chuuya knows Dazai. Knows what makes him angry and what makes him act in certain ways to some extent and can understand his plans with no words sometimes
People focus on Dazai hurting Chuuya. But nobody thinks Chuuya can strike back just as hard. You really think Chuuya didn't at some point absolutely made Dazai feel like shit to the point it made his mind spin for nights? You really think Chuuya hasn't made Dazai feel guilty at least once?
I headcanon that when Chuuya is so pissed he becomes serious his words are pure poison. I headcanon that Chuuya can hurt Dazai more than anyone else could think. I headcanon that Chuuya even has said some very hurtful things to Dazai from time to time and has regretted them terribly. That there were points when Chuuya broke Dazai right back.
Soukoku are equals in ways not many would think. They are soulmates. I'm pretty sure if there's someone who could hurt Dazai for real, it isn't even Mori, but Chuuya.
I bet they struggled at some points to understand when their bickering was okay and when it actually came too far and one or both got genuinely hurt.
Chuuya keeps much to himself, so I think everyone should be absolutely terrified for the moment he actually bursts. Genuinely bursts.
he's so girlfriend im gonna chew his head off
gaz study
i hate that i have no volume control. i try so, so hard to reel it in but when im happy, excited, relaxed, comfortable, etc. i talk and laugh loud. it’s as involuntary as laughter. i don’t realize until i get shushed, then i feel like my heart got stomped on. it’s so frustrating because i KNOW it is annoying but can’t seem to help it. getting called on it always takes me from happy to feeling awful in a millisecond
“idc about shipping im an adult” i love that and i hope youre having fun but im gonna go gorge myself on every silly little interaction these fake people have and live like a king
Charlie's the aroace with a naturally flirty personality and then has to deal with the consequences of people reciprocating (Charlie is they/them, Alice is she/her)
Forgive any insensibility, but I really don’t understand why people would be upset at BSD or at the vampire arc. It seems so, so clear that it’s only a plot point, none of those important characters are going to die - the fact that it’s so many main-cast characters all infected should precisely be an indication that it’ll have to be undone. It runs long, for sure, it’s a huge-ass buildup to a rollercoaster climax and it can be a lot to take in, but I’m really not seeing anything wrong, traitorous to the audience or a single sign of bad writing, from my point of view.
BSD doesn’t make a habit of killing characters, not main-cast ones. Side characters, guards, smaller enemies, sure, but not main cast. That’s why I’m calm as ever and simply enjoying the ride!
I want to say that such a big youtuber coming out as aroace is such a step forward in representation in general of course, but also specifically by using the rainbow flag and only ever portraying those two identities as unquestionably being part of the LGBTQ+ community in her video, a huge step forward for the general opinion to properly consider us part of the community since it’s unfortunately a “debate”. She really reaffirmed our belonging in the community and that is so impactful.
kaeya being everybodys big brother :)! plus him with his own
What an autistic person says: "How long is it going to take?"
What they mean: "I want to know whether to activate my short term waiting mode where I just wait and do nothing else, or activate my long term waiting mode where I occupy my mind with something else. I fully understand that both are possibilities, and I have no problem whatsoever with either one, but I want more information so I can best adapt to the situation."
What neurotypical people hear: "I am impatient and demand that everything I want happen right now. Please scold me and publicly humiliate me for it."
draft timeeeeees
as a dostoyevsky fan i first discovered bsd by being very confused whenever i saw pretty anime boys in the crime and punishment tag, so now i’m using bsd to discover more classic literature, and you can too!
this is my personal list straight from my phone notes app, of the most significant works mentioned in the series. italized titles are those that i really couldn’t find an english translation of but they’re there for completeness (if you’ve found one please comment!)
i’ve also got links to the french text of all works that are originally in french, because i read french and as said this list is just adapted from my personal notes hahaha
special shoutout goes to @bsd-bibliophile and their website from where i got many of the links, especially the works of the japanese authors, as well as the bsd recommended reading list ❤️
links are pdfs unless otherwise specified
the armed detective agency:
no longer human by dazai osamu
the moon over the mountain by nakajima atsushi (beast beneath the moonlight)
an encouragement of learning by fukuzawa yukichi (all men are equal)
o brother, you must not die by yosano akiko (thou shalt not die)
kunikida doppo’s works
the makioka sisters by tanizaki junichirou (light snow) [epub]
naomi by tanizaki junichirou
be not defeated by the rain by miyazawa kenji [online]
demon pond by izumi kyouka (demon snow)
edogawa ranpo’s works
i am a cat by natsume souseki
futon by tayama katai
the port mafia:
rashoumon by akutagawa ryuunosuke (link includes o-gin that akutagawa gin is based on)
this soiled sorrow by nakahara chuuya (upon the tainted sorrow) [online]
golden demon by ozaki kouyou
falling camellia by hirotsu ryuurou
the dancing girl by mori ougai (elise)
vita sexualis by mori ougai [epub]
higuchi ichiyou’s works (no ability specified yet, but see for example encounters on a dark night)
midwinter memento by tachihara michizou
lemon by kajii motojirou
dogra magra by yumeno kyuusaku [website, incomplete translation]
madness of george III by alan bennett (madness of the jewel king) pretty sure this one’s still copyrighted, hence why they couldn’t use alan bennett’s name for ace, and why i can’t find any pdf copies
the guild:
the great gatsby by f. scott fitzgerald (the great fitzgerald)
little women by louisa m. alcott
the grapes of wrath by john steinbeck [online/pdf/epub]
the scarlet letter by nathaniel hawthorne
gone with the wind by margaret mitchell [online/pdf/epub]
anne of green gables by l. m. montgomery (anne of the abyssal red)
moby dick by herman melville
the adventures of tom sawyer by mark twain (huck finn and tom sawyer)
the adventures of huckleberry finn by mark twain (huck finn and tom sawyer)
the black cat by edgar allan poe (the black cat in the rue morgue) [online]
the murders in the rue morgue by edgar allan poe (the black cat in the rue morgue) [online]
the call of cthulhu by h. p. lovecraft (the great old ones) [online]
the rats in the house of the dead:
the house of the dead by fyodor dostoevsky [online/epub]
crime and punishment by fyodor dostoevsky
a feast in time of plague by alexander pushkin [online/pdf/epub]
the precipice by ivan goncharov (this is an abridged translation please buy the new 2020 unabridged translation titled malinovka heights please it’s one of my all-time favourite books please thank you for your attention)
the perfect crime by oguri mushitarou
the decay of angels:
the decay of the angel by mishima yukio [online]
the overcoat by nikolai gogol
dracula by bram stoker [online/pdf/epub] (bram’s ability isn’t named yet but come on who are we kidding)
sigma has been speculated to be a reference to russian writer and journalist sergey nikolayevich syromyatnikov, or possibly sigmund freud
the hunting dogs:
mirror lion by fukuchi ouchi (online summary)
gasp of the soul by ookura teruko (see bewitching shadow which is the only work of anyone from the hunting dogs with full english translation!)
priceless tears by jouno saigiku
plum blossoms in snow by suehiro tetchou (wikipedia)
special division for unusual powers:
discourse on decadence by sakaguchi ango
hail in the begging bowl [online/pdf] (an essay by james abrams on the life and poetry of taneda santoka, from which the ability name is derived)
order of the clock tower:
and then there were none by agatha christie
dark era:
strait is the gate by andré gide (french original, online)
flawless by oda sakunosuke (see his other works from the stories of osaka life collection that has been translated into english, which can be found on the @bsd-bibliophile website)
55 minutes:
the time machine by h. g. wells
the mysterious island by jules verne (french original, online/epub)
matasaburou of the wind by miyazawa kenji [online] (atsushi’s alias)
johann wolfgang von goethe (mentioned)
william shakespeare (mentioned)
victor hugo (mentioned) les misérables french original
fifteen + storm bringer:
illuminations by arthur rimbaud [online] (french original, online/epub)
paul verlaine’s poetry [online/epub] (french original, online/epub)
frankenstein by mary shelley (adam frankenstein)
gaiden:
another by ayatsuji yukito (volume 1, volume 2, volume 3)
the summer in the ubume by kyougoku natsuhiko (an inherent drop)
yesterday’s shadow tag by tsujimura mizuki
dead apple:
shibusawa tatsuhiko’s works (referred to collectively as draconia, see fish scales which has been translated into english)
chapter titles and other references:
franz kafka’s works (our man asagiri) metamorphosis [online/epub] the trial [online/epub]
the setting sun by osamu dazai (have you seen all those dazai sunset scenes in the anime)
the black lizard by hirotsu ryuurou
the case of murder on D hill by edogawa ranpo (murder on D street, ch 6)
poems of days past by nakahara chuuya (back in the day, ch 11) see poem collection
light, wind and dreams by nakajima atsushi (even if my head be mistaken, ch 29)
if you’re gonna read the above you should probably be acquainted with robert louis stevenson’s works, like the strange case of dr jekyll and mr hyde [online/epub]
tower of silence by mori ougai (the silent tower and the raven’s feast, ch 30)
husband and wife by nakajima atsushi (cherrirs, ch 43)
dreaming of butterflies by hagiwara sakutarou (ch 65-66)
the sheep song by nakahara chuuya (the chant to activate chuuya’s corruption)
les sœurs de charité by arthur rimbaud (the chant to activate verlaine’s corruption) french original
this is all the main works i could find, but naturally bsd is chock-full of literature references so please feel free to add to this list if you have anything! again i have to direct you to bsd-bibliophile’s online library for more complete resources and relevant authors that are not directly mentioned in bsd + a bunch of other useful content, i swear that page is one of my most-visited websites hahaha
other great resources for free books that have entered the public domain, where i got most of the links to the western books on this list:
project gutenberg
free editorial
planet ebook
planet publish
happy reading!