Is It Weird Or Normal To Have A Shutdown Instead Of A Meltdown? Like I’m Talking About Them Overlapping

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Valiant men, the clones have proven to be. Saved my life and yours they have many times. Believe in them we must.

yall. i see a lot about masking, and i just wanted to ask that, well personally, i dont mask. and i feel like thats weird because i keep hearing how, it feels like everybody else is in some form masking?

i dont even know what masking entails, what it is, i only know some very few information that it is like, well one is wanting to touch stuff but dont? idk, i just, if i wanna touch something, i touch it. but im not obsessively touching stuff. i dont like, stim either, in the autistic way, im sorry if that came across as rude i just wanna say i dont do it because of autism, i do it because of my severe anxiety. i only do stuff, crossing arms, twisting foot, idk how to explain it, if im stood still, i will like, bend my foot so it looks like it might break but it wont lol...etcetc, are those even stims? they dont sound like it now that i wrote some down haha, because i have severe anxiety and i feel like im gonna pass out and vomit when im out of the house. i have a whole ass YEAR left until i begin my cbt therapy. i dont even know if thats gonna help, i tried it before years ago but pretty much gave up because i felt it didnt do anything and im depressed af and have zero motivation. because im never gonna get better anyways. i had a nurse telling me that too ages ago and i still remember it because he was all like "so im not supposed to tell you this because its private information about me, but you'll never get better from this. this is a lifelong issue you'll have to deal with for the rest of your life, because i have it too" real comforting when you just told that person you wanna kill yourself because you suffer so bad. i feel like he wants me to kill myself so they'll rid a troubling annoying person. but anyways!

oh yea! another one is forced eye contact, i dont do that either haha, i look up people in the eye, or in the middle, and then if i dont wanna, i dont. so im sure i dont mask and is that normal? is there anybody else out here that dont either?

yall, a list of various ways of masking would be appreciated so i know whether i am or not, even though im preeeeeetty sure that i do not.

thank you. and i hope you have a good week.

I'll answer this in parts.

1 - Autistic masking is the conscious and unconscious act of pretending to be neurotypical.

Conscious versions of this are things like practicing conversations, practicing facial expressions in a mirror, watching others communicate so that you can mimic them. However, unlike neurotypicals or allistics (non-autistics), at no point do we feel comfortable or confident in doing these performances. It's exhausting and we're very aware of our actions and other's actions.

Unconcious versions of masking are those that are drilled in to us either by society, family (on purpose or not), bullying etc. These include forcing facial expressions, forcing eye contact, forcing vocal tone, holding back or permanently repressing stimming, ignoring special interests due to mocking or bullying, enduring adverse sensory experiences etc. These are often enforced from infancy and we may not even be aware we're doing it. But we are aware we're exhausted from tasks others are not.

Unconcious and conscious masking mix and match. They're fluid, and not everyone experiences the same versions.

2 - Not every autistic masks. Higher needs may not mask, intellectual disabilities may prohibit it, and supportive families may never enforce it. Some autistics grow up and refuse to mask any longer. And many different versions of this, too.

3 - Everyone stims. Stimming is any repetitive behaviour that is used to modify external or internal input via a soothing behaviour. Autistics and many other NDs simply do it a lot more and have more variety. So, yes. If what you described is done in order to add input or block out input, it's stimming.

4 - Not all Autistics struggle with eye contact. Whilst clinicians use it as this big indicator, it's really not.

5 - Lastly, that nurse who spoke to you in that moment of need was a complete ass. Anxiety is difficult, but it's not the end of the road. If CBT therapy didn't help, it may be that you need a modified version, or try something different all together. There are many different therapies and avenues. There is hope, you just need to figure out what road is yours.

Anyone else notice that when Hunter said that they are "CT 99s", Gregor said "defective clones"? As in that's what being a CT 99 means?

One particular clone's name just went from odd (and perhaps a bit interesting) to sad (and me wanting to punch whatever clone named him that).

FACTS! Say it louder for the NT's in the back!!!

ND culture is that the "taking stuff literally" thing goes in both directions.

No, allistics, I'm NOT exaggerating, saying things between the lines, being metaphorical, emphatic, or sarcastic, or anything like that. I'm being LITERAL. So when I say something, take me seriously and at face value, damnit!!

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Why, WHY is this so GOOD?! Two of the franchises that were a part of my childhood coming together? YES PLEASE, SIGN ME UP!!!

TMNT/Bad Batch AU?

Or really TMNT/Star Wars AU

C’mon, I hear genetically mutated clones I go to my favorite team of mutants.

Leonardo: Enhanced Instincts

Raphael: Enhanced Strength

Donatello: Enhanced Intelligence

Michelangelo: Enhanced Senses

Not really sure where I’m going with this, but here are a few ideas I had in mind:

Splinter & Shredder were two brothers that fought side-by-side throughout the changing galaxy. (Was thinking they were either Soldiers, Bounty Hunters, or Mandalorians)

One day, Splinter & Shredder were tasked with collecting a small team of genetically-enhanced clones and deliver them to the Kraang Labs. To further experiment their abilities.

It was supposed to be a simple task, however, the brothers weren’t expecting the Enhanced Clones… to be children! Kids with extraordinary abilities.

To Shredder, they were no more than just assets in a mission. However, Splinter knew in his heart that it was wrong.

The disagreement lead to a fight between the brothers. In the end, Splinter took the four boys and disappeared deep in space.

Now, Splinter lives in the shadows with his fours sons. Teaching them to fight and use their skills, to prepare themselves for whatever the Galaxy has to throw at them.

Meanwhile, Shredder had continued growing in the shadows. Creating an army to someday overthrow the galaxy.

I'm guessing that means Omega would be along the lines of, "Looks like a cinnamon roll, yet won't kill you despite being able to."

So there are these guys…

And then there’s Echo…

…who looks like he could kill you, could actually kill you, but still manages to be a sweet (albeit slightly crusty) cinnamon roll. 😍

I know a few people like this... such individuals usually wear me out.😅

frank castle + tumblr text posts

You know he jumped on this the moment he heard his opening.🤣 Fives had to be laughing from beyond the grave.

Is there an Echo in here?

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