Youdelight-itolerate - Steena Longstocking

Just one of my favourite Will lines

edward + full body shots

Not parasocial love nor parasocial hate but a secret third thing where I respect the celebrity for their talents and achievements while acknowledging that I do not have a personal relationship with them and that they are a human with flaws

I just realised, Ed didn't return to the revenge to rescue Stede. Not entirely.

When he see's the three english warships he knows the Revenge is done for and anyone on board is going to be killed or captured.

So his decision to leave and go back to the ship isn't to rescue Stede.

It's to either sacrifice his life for Stede's.

Or die beside him.

Ed confesses to Nigel's murder to try to spare Stede.

Ed has no reaction to being told he's being sentenced to death other than "Yep."

But when Stede is sentenced to death Ed panics.

In hindsight his decision to take the act of grace is a simple one. It's actually better than he could have hoped for because up to that moment he knew they were probably going to die anyway. He's Blackbeard for godsake. He knew he was done for when he set foot back on the revenge.

But watching Stede die and being made to live without him? Nah. Unacceptable.

He'd rather sign away both their lives so they can die together fighting a war for the king.

Ed was really ready to die. No escape plan. Every plan he had was aimed at not being made to live without Stede.

And then Stede kissed him back and suddenly he realise they could actually have a life together and THAT? That is worth having an escape plan for.

I can't help but wonder if Ed kissed Stede when he was mid sentence because he was expecting a rejection and couldn't stand the idea of it. Had to silence him because if he didn't kiss him right now he would die without knowing what it was like. And they are both going to die anyway. Why not just go for it?

He didn't dare dream, even with Lucius telling him more than once, that Stede could want him.

I've hurt my own feelings.

I need a lie down.

‘When you find somebody who absolutely gets you, that is a beautiful thing, and it is hard not to want to be in the presence of somebody who really, truly understands you. It’s a rare, rare thing…’ ~ Bryan Fuller

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