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"omg do you have a hangover?"
nope, just a chronic illness
had to cancel so many plans with my friends recently...
do they seem mad? -nope
did they say that they are mad? -nope
do i still think that they are mad? -absolutely
please if you're sick stay at home if possible or at least wear a mask!
... even if it's just a cold some people don't have the best immune system and i am tired of being sick on top of my chronic illness every other week
barely having symptoms for a few days made me think i was cured... turns out that isn't the case
how are you supposed to tell people who you recently became friends with that you sometimes need to use a mobility aid?
is there even a way to make it not awkward? because it shouldn't be awkward
there are things i need to do, but i can't cause i'm sick
pain and suffering, pain and suffering, pain and suffering, pain and suffering, pain and suffering, pain and suffering, pain and suffering, pain and suffering, pain and suffering, pain and suffering, pain and suffering, pain and suffering, pain and suffering, pain and suffering, pain and suffering, pain and suffering, pain and suffering, pain and suffering,
had a low fever for almost a week now, but am refusing to see a doctor cause "not like they would do much"
and that's on doctors constantly dismissing people with chronic illness
feeling a flare up coming, but trying to push it down cause there is stuff to do... knowing very well it will do nothing... if anything it'll make it worse
having to wait a long time for a doctors appointment sucks, because until i got proof i am not getting any accomodations from my school and it's affecting my health even more
not being able to sleep due to pain sucks, because sleep is the one time i am not in pain
wishing my chronic illness would take the day off on busy days
i need to lay in bed for a week to make up for one day i overdid it
shout out to everyone who doesn't have a chronic illness!
How does it it feel to not be terrified of having to stand for longer than a couple minutes?
i think younger me would be disappointed, but current me is just grateful for the opportunities i have
i feel like i only really developed something similar to health anxiety after a chronic illness...
because what if this is just a new thing now?
normal people sick in addition to chronic illness really sucks...
everyone that has a chronic illness already shouldn't get sick in addition to that
collapsing on the floor in front of people that question my chronic illness just for them to freak out like i haven't told them this could happen at least 5 times
navigating doctors visits and applying for university in the same week while going to school should be a valid answer if asked what exercises i do
people that adapt to your chronic illness,
people that give you a ride and pick you up places without making you feel guilty
people that go to the ER with you
people that make sure to walk slowly so you can keep up while using a mobility aid
people that are willing to try different things to help you
people that are willing to learn and listen to you when speaking about your chronic illness
i ate a dry piece of bread... nothing else... my stomach feels like someone is stabbing me
teaching people that were curiously asking about my cane how to walk with it because i refuse to make mobility aids a topic that isn't spoken about
wanted to go to london to see a festival with some friends and i realized i would need to get an accessible ticket to go...
it feels odd to actually depend on accessibility
i miss travelling without basically taking a mini pharmacy with me
how to ask your doctor for stronger pain meds without basically being called a drug addict
sometimes i forget you can actually just pass out from pain
my body just said "nope"
hypothetically in how much pain would i have to be in order for it to be okay to tell people to fuck off? because i am close
everything that could hurt... hurts...
i'm tired of being scared of how i feel
started doing physical therapy again and my chronic pain got worse... really debating just quitting rn