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âkenma?â
âhmm?â
he doesnât take his eyes off the tv screen where he shoots at enemies left and right, but his ears are all yours.
âwho was your first kiss?â
itâs become a habit of yours to watch his fingers move on the controller, long and thin and dexterous, wondering how he manages to move them in such a swift manner that to you seems impossible.
âdidnât have one,â he says, blunt.
âever?â
âever.â
âhow?â you ask, both surprised and notâthough now that you think about it, through all the years youâve known him, he probably would have told you if he had.
âall i did in middle and high school was play volleyball and game. didnât have time to kiss anyone. also didnât care about it,â he admits.
you suppose if he wasnât with you or kuroo, he was at home, playing video games. but there was that little obsession of his with shoyo hinata⌠so you guess it wasnât a crush after all.
thereâs only an ounce of hesitation behind what you say next, because yes, kenmaâs your best friend and this could change the trajectory of your entire relationship with him, but also itâs kenma. kenma who youâve shared a bed and clothes with, kenma whoâs seen you at rock bottom and whoâs wiped your snot and tears away when you were at your lowest, kenma who youâre attached at the hip with.
âwhat if i was your first kiss?â
kenma doesnât falter at your words, not even for a second as he plays on expertly, nonchalant as always.
âuhh, why?â he asks, and youâre triumphant. if it was a âew, no, what the fuck?â then thatâs how youâd know you fucked up. but itâs not.
âit kinda makes sense for me to be your first. also, i just wanna know what itâs like to kiss you,â you admit, shrugging your shoulders.
the next few moments are full of nothing but controller sounds and the music from the video game on the tv. in the faint glow that radiates from the screen, you make out a tiny dusting of pink on kenmaâs pale cheeks.
eventually he gulps. then, âcan we drink first?â
your mouth falls open with an insulted gasp and you have half a mind to smack him over the head.
âif you think iâm ugly you can say that, kozume,â you pout, crossing your arms.
âitâs not because i think youâre ugly, dumbass.â
âthen why do you need to be drunk to kiss me?!â
kenma is silent again. he doesnât have to look at you to know youâre staring at him utterly indignantly.
âbecause iâm too scared to look you in the eyes right now.â
oh.
now you get it.
kenma kozume is such a virgin. and you want him so incredibly badly. in fact you have to restrain yourself from jumping into his lap and kissing him until he canât think straight.
instead you slide off the couch and head towards his fridge, grab two bottles of asahi and the bottle opener from the utensil drawer before padding back over to the couch, sitting an inch or two closer to kenma than you were before.
you click one bottle open for him, then one for yourself, then without a hint of hesitation you take a confident swig until youâre near chugging the drink.
âchill,â kenma says, side-eyeing you after taking a swig from his own bottle. âdonât want you pulling a himeno on me.â
you let out a noise thatâs half-scoff and half-laugh, smacking at his arm. âdonât joke about that. that scene was traumatic.â
two bottles of beer later, kenmaâs in-game reflexes start to waver. heâs no longer as sharp as usual, though his tipsy state still trumps the skills of an average player. meanwhile, your head floats with the buzz of alcoholâwell, it hovers.
âkenmaaa,â you whine, shaking his arm, when all of a sudden his character is shot to death and the screen pauses as if to deliberately rub his defeat in his face. you stifle a giggle while he runs his hands over his face, though youâre pretty sure itâs not because he lost.
âwhat?â he asks, but he fails at conveying any real irritation towards you. his voice is small, frail almost.
âi wanna kiss you,â you say. your fingers still cling to the fabric of his hoodie sleeve. kenmaâs entire body burns from it. heâs so fucked.
âokay, fine,â he says, turning his body to finally face you and criss-crossing his legs on the couch. âthis feels awkward though, how are we-â
and youâve waited long enough for this, and the alcohol that buzzes through your system makes you throw all your morals out the window, and youâre grabbing him by fistfuls of his hoodie and dragging him towards you until your lips smashâliterallyâtogether, and finally he shuts up.
youâre not sure what overcomes you, but youâre kissing him like youâre hungry, not quite ravaging him, but years of yearning deep inside of you bubbles to the surface and fills you with desperation.
also, youâre tipsy.
itâs not long before you come back to your senses a little and remind yourself that this is just his first kiss. go easy on him, maybe?
you move away, slowly, as though trying not to startle him, to find a pair of golden feline eyes blinking back at you. theyâre swimming with something unintelligible, something akin to⌠need? you think you must be seeing things. youâre tipsy, after all.
the silence that hangs over the pair of you is heavyâtoo heavy. it hurts your shoulders. you laugh so that it goes away, covering your face as though kenmaâs timidness was contagious and has now spread to you.
eventually, when you peer back up at him, heâs grinning almost⌠triumphantly. despite the blush that covers his entire face, he looks victorious. his face replaces any words he could say, and he turns back to his game without a word.
you, however, struggle to keep your thoughts to yourself.
âcan we do that more often?â you ask, leaning your frame against his, nuzzling your face into his warmth.
âyeah, we can.â
Kuroo x reader x oikawa
Synopsis : After years spent by a certain setter along with a small toddler mending you heart, your life was a just like a blissful movie with a happy ending. But little did you know the person who gave you not only the worst years of your life but also the small ball of sunshine, decided to suddenly make a appearance in your fairytale when fate played a wild
reader's note : this is the last chapter, make sure to read it in order! Sorry for the angst hehe.
Part 1 : meeting you again | Part 2 : wouldn't you | Part 3 : broken promises | Part 4 : where it all went wrong | Part 5 : enough for now (current one)
âshe is a fucking psycopathâ kenma sighs, putting the car in reverse as he pulls up in his driveway, eyes fixated on the rear view as kuroo watches the irriated expression on his face.
âdude, chill I know you hate kizumi, but I might marry herâ kuroo sips his coffee as he lets out a shallow grunt in annoyance too, what was he doing in life.
âno, just think about it, she specifically asked for the ring you bought to propose to y/n, when she knows you could afford to give her much expensive one right now, but, again I repeat. she asked specifically for that ring, onlyâ
the black hair man groans at the explanation, he knows his friend has a point, but he is trying to gaslight himself into believing whatever kizumi explained to him. âi think she just likes it, she was the one who chose it too, all those years agoââ and before kuroo could finish his sentence, the half blonde cuts him off, swiftly taking out his phone from his pocket and muttering something to it âsiri, how do you block people in real lifeâ
âyeah, okay, this is a kuroo hate club, I get itâ the man sighs, propping his head back on the headrest, closing his eyes. âhonestly I know her behavior is weird, but Iâm in a tight spot, my only left family is nagging me to marry her, and you know I could care less about marriageâ he pauses taking a deep breath. âdad is legit emotionally blackmailing me, sitting at his stupid hospital bed probably faking his diseaseâ
âthey want you to marry, doesn't necessarily have to be herâ kenma suggests, opening the seatbelt around him. âi cannot marry a stranger, kizumi is a better option, we have been dating on and off for one yearâ the rooster haired man replies, honestly he really wants to jump off a cliff, but he will suppress the impulsive urges.
âas a rebutal to that, one thing you said was rightâ kenma sighs finally looking at his friend, kuroo looks tired, or is aged that appropriate word. âher behavior is weird, it's like she has more attachment to y/n than you, she is insecure as fuck of her. you, me and her, we all know she won't ever level up to the place y/n has in your heart, so she trying to become her, its giving me chillsâ kenma shudders at that thought, physically gagging.
âdo you think it's too late for me to get a therapist?â with that kuroo tetsuro groans one more time.
kuroo sits quietly, hands clasped, looking up with hesitant eyes as he watches you put your purse on the table, stoice face, yet so pretty.
he really meant it when he said you got more gorgeous over the years, there were few lines now adorning your face, mature and elegant glow.
even if he sometimes wonders if it would have been better if you both never met at all, if it would have been better if neither of you had to go through the heartbreak, but he knows,
if there was a spell to go back in time, to where he met you, he would do the same thing. he would make a silly chemistry joke and wait for you to laugh at it, not because it was funny, no it was because it was so bad you laughed at it, it was his fault wasnât it?
to loose the most precious thing in his life, did you feel worse than him, it wasn't a question, nor a comparison, he wanted to know because he will never forget or forgive himself to give you so much pain over the year.
what did you name the kid? did oikawa tooruâ see how your son took the first steps, was he the one who got called father first, what's his favorite food, does he have a birth mark, does he like volleyball? is your sonâ tastes similar to what is his? Just like how he saw the little kid adorning your homely baked goods, similar to what he himself used to do.
it pains him, physically pains him to know he wasn't there for anything, he wasn't there to make you food, hold your hair while you threw up during you morning sickness, not hold your hand while you went into labour, he wasn't part of any of it, six years sometimes means nothing and yet to him, now, it means everything, it means every important thing he lost.
âyou don't know how much draining this is for me, to be talking to you, or as a matter of fact to talk about what happened, cause honestly you deserve nothing, not the explanation, not to meet me or rukoâ you break the silence first, firmly sitting at your place.
and kuroo wishes he could repent on all the thing you said but the only thought in his mind is what you named your son âhis name is ruko?â
âhis name is oikawa sarukoâ you firmly state, a small smile tugging at you lips, you were proud your kid had a father like oikawa, cause you can't imagine anyone else being a better father than him.
tetsuro has never wanted to be in someone else's place as much as he wants to be oikawa now, he sighs at your words. âwhy didn't you tell me, I would get it if you wanted to get away from me, but don't you think I deserved to know the kid was mine?â his voice quivering as he asks you the question, a weird pang in his chest.
âi tried, I tried so many timesâ your voice quivers slightly âwhy do you think I asked for your opinion to have a kid?â that silents the man infront of you, his pupil dilated as he realizes how he explained it, and how it sounded like a definite ânoâ from his side.
ânot to mention, even after that I was going to tell you, with my parents kuroo and you didn't show upâ he relishes at how defeated he feels when you don't even call him by his first name, so the announcement when you called him was with your parents? his legs tenses up and he stops shaking them.
âi know I don't have any excuse but you know there was a storm that nightââ
âyet you left me all alone in that storm, tetsuroâ his heart breaks into million pieces, do you even know how much he just wants to pull you close and cry, stain your shirt with his tears of sorrow that he made a mistake and couldn't be in your presence and of joy because after years he was able to see you.
âiây/nâ he tries to put his hands over yours but you are swift to pull away, he knows a million reasons of why your reflex action was right, yet he can't help but feel his throat becoming dry âiâm sorry, I assumed you were with your parents, I had no idea, my phone was deadâ
âhow can you still lie to me?â your voice croaks, finally looking straight into his eyes, you really don't want to care for whatever his action was or what he did but you can't help but feel wronged.
âwhat do you mean lie?â
âso your phone was dead enough to not respond to my texts but it was working when you reposted on social media with your now girlfriend, her friends commenting how cute you both lookedâ you scoff pausing in disbelief âor should I say fianceâ
âwhatever are you sayi-â then it clicks, it suddenly clicks how kizumiâs friend has always shipped him with her, despite knowing he has a girlfriend, despite him saying he doesn't appreciate it, that it straight up makes him uncomfortable.
how kizumi knew, that your birthdate was his password to Instagram, he remembers her saying it was so cute, its laughable to think how dumb he has been, how could he not notice her intention. but he wishes you told him, he wishes he could have cleared off the last misunderstanding and if he could take it all back he would.
hell, he would never breath the same air as kizumi if he could go back in time and fix things. but he cannot, all he has is regret and all he can do his atone for his mistake, he was hoping you'd be kind enough to let him see his son, he hasn't been a great partner but he sure as heck wants to have some influence in your sonâs lifeâ
after all, it was a part of you and him, back then if he actually heard you were pregnant he'd probably be scared as shit, but he would still fight every odds to raise the kid you made, how could he ever resent a mini you, kuroo knows he has no right to feel wronged but all those years without the little guy or even acknowledgment of his existence makes feel burnt.
his lips shaky and he doesn't know if a explanation would even help at this point, nothing would change and even if kizumi was in wrongâ so was he though. his mouth ran before he could know.
he looks up at her. âI know you donât owe me anything, but thereâs something you need to hear" your eyes held anger and he was scared of that, he wanted to scream please forgive me, over and over again in a chant but he knew he didn't deserve your forgiveness.
you crossed your arms, wary but patient. you had no idea how you still held on. but they say but they say old habits die hard, and even after six year you had the same patience for him, you wanted to laugh at yourself âGo on.â
âIt was Kizumi,â he begins, voice low but firm. âShe⌠sheâs the reason things fell apart. She was jealous of you, of what we had. She deleted your texts that nightâthe ones you sent me about the announcement. She posted on my social media to make it look like I was with her. And sheââ
"You didn't know?" your eyes widened and you had no idea how to feel after hearing that, conflicted feeling filled your lungs and the wall of resolve you have solidified getting cracks of doubt in them, but you remained firm.
âNo,â Kuroo says quickly, his voice thick with regret. âI was blind, stupid, and I didnât see what was happening. I let her control too much. I thought I could trust her. But I swear, if Iâd knownââ He stops, realizing that no matter what he says, it wonât erase the past.
you stare at him, your face unreadable, but there was turmoil behind your eyes âSo, youâre saying it was all her fault?â
âNo. No..no.â Kuroo says firmly, shaking his head. âIt was my fault too. I let her into my life, I didnât listen to you, and I didnât fight for you when it mattered. Thatâs on me. I just⌠I need you to know that I didnât abandon you on purpose.â
you exhale slowly, looking down at you cup, a closure huh? but what does that change ? you know oikawa is much more important to you now, nothing could change that, nothing could make you ever abandon the perfect family you have right now. âI believe you, Tetsuro. But that doesnât change what happened. You werenât there when I needed you, and I had to pick up the pieces alone. Oikawa was there. Heâs been there for me and for Ruko.â
even if there is a shaky heartbeat you feel around your past lover you know it was not meant to be. there are so many things unsaid and there will be so many things which will be, you are a mom now and you could never be an careless one. and as much as tears were welling up in your eyes for what could have been, you won't risk anything for what it is now.
Kuroo swallows the lump in his throat. âI know. And Iâm glad heâs been good to you both. I just⌠I missed so much, Y/N. I want to know him. I know I donât deserve it, but I want to try.â
bonus scene
Kuroo sits on a bench, watching from a distance as you and Oikawa playing with your son, Ruko. The boyâhis son, biologicallyâhas Oikawaâs mannerisms but your smile. Kurooâs chest tightens as he watches the little boy stumble, only for Oikawa to sweep him up, spinning him around while you laugh.
They look like a family. They are a family
Kuroo thinks to himself, maybe this could have been you both if he wasn't consumed by the thought that you both would also be horrible parents much like your families.
you notice him then, your gaze meeting his. Thereâs no anger in your eyes anymore, just a quiet understanding. you approach him cautiously, arms crossed. âYouâre here,â you speak, trying to keep your tone neutral.
âI just wanted to see him,â Kuroo admits. âI wonât interfere much. I just⌠needed to see him.â
You sit beside him, keeping a respectful distance. âHeâs happy, you know. Oikawaâs a good father. He loves Ruko like heâs his own.â and that breaks kuroo's heart, as much as he tries to look positively at this. He can't help but feel his heart become empty, can't help but wish to be where oikawa is right now in your life.
Kuroo nods, swallowing the lump in his throat. âI can see that. Heâs a lucky kid.â you glance at him, your expression softening. âI know the truth now, about Kizumi. About what happened. Iâm⌠sorry you were caught in that.â
âIâm sorry too,â Kuroo says, his voice breaking. He knows it's not enough but all he can do is regret it over and over again. âFor everything. For not being there, for letting you down. I shouldâve fought harder for us.â you look away, your gaze fixed on Oikawa and Ruko. âMaybe. But itâs too late now, Tetsuro. Weâve both moved on.â and he feels a bit happy, you used his first name, God he is so pathetic
âI know,â he whispers, his heart breaking all over again. âBut Iâll never stop wishing I could go back and do it right.â and before you are able to say anything you notice a small figure approaching you, you feel at ease when you notice it's your son, oikawa stood a bit away, he felt protective over you both but he doesn't want to snatch away the closure you deserve, and he can't snatch away ruko from his biological dad. so he stays silent cause he knows ruko would pick him for sure, he loves the little guy to death after all.
âRuko, this is⌠this is Tetsuro,â you say gently, getting up from the bench only to kneel beside your son.
The boy looks up, curious but cautious. âHi,â he says softly, clutching his toy dinosaur.
Kuroo crouches down, his heart aching as he gets his first close look at his son. Ruko has Y/Nâs eyes and his messy black hair. He smiles faintly. âHey, buddy. Thatâs a cool dinosaur youâve got there. Whatâs his name?â
âCupcake,â Ruko replies, holding it up proudly.For a moment, Kuroo wants to giggle, pondering why a dinosaur would be named Cupcake, but he holds back, his lips twitching into a soft smile. âCupcake, huh? Thatâs a pretty unique name. Whyâd you pick it?â
Ruko beams, his small chest puffing up with excitement. âWellâitâs not weird, okay? Itâs âcause I love dinosaurs and I love Momâs handmade cupcakes, so I mixed two favorite things at once!â
Kuroo freezes for a moment, his breath catching in his throat. Cupcakes. His gaze flickers briefly to you, you who look away, your expression unreadable. He remembers countless nights when heâd come over to your place, exhausted from work or practice, and the smell of your freshly baked cupcakes would make him feel like he was home. They were his favoriteâa sweet, simple treat that reminded him of your warmth.
And now, their son shares that same love.âThatâs⌠thatâs actually genius,â Kuroo finally says, his voice hoarse with emotion. âCupcake is the perfect name for a dinosaur. Youâve got great taste.â
Ruko grins proudly, going on to describe Cupcakeâs many adventures and how he takes the toy everywhere. Kuroo listens intently, his heart clenching. Thereâs an ache beneath his chestâa mix of pride, love, and regret. He and Ruko have so much in common, and yet, this is the first time heâs learning it.
The realization stings, and he resents you a bit for that but it also fills him with a bittersweet joy. Ruko is bright, imaginative, and full of life. Heâs a part of you and himâa reminder of what you both once had. And kuroo decides he can live with that. That's enough for now isn't it?
Finally ending this series, I get embarrassed whenever I reread it but it was my first series and it has been in my drafts for years. But here I ending, thank you for everyone who waited for this.
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