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Am i weird for not liking makeup?

Little context here: it's not that i don't like it... it's that i don't like to do it every day!

I like fashion for sure but i prefer most of the time wearing a t-shirt with a sport short. And if it's a bit cold outside i put a hoodie on.

You probably wondering "i'm like this too, girl you are not special." And i agree.

But when the people around you expect you to be more 🌸feminine🌸 it's kinda hard to not try to fit in.

I see very pretty women everyday who have their makeup done with pretty outfit.

And i feel like i'm not girly, elegant or feminine enough, kinda like wearing makeup everyday makes you more lady-like

I try to talk to my mother about it and she always answer "boys prefer feminin woman if you are not, well you will be left behind" or something like that. Thanks mom for telling me that i'm not pretty enough for a guy to fell in love with me.

At fifteen y/o the others use to called me a baby and now at nineteen i have a full makeup bag that i never use. Is it seriously that bad to not fit in?

I know this is dumb but if someone who've been through the same things, let me know please, i want to know your opinion.

Changing

No one ever said changing for the better would be easy. Sometimes, I wish I could go back to doing the things that I used to but…. When I look back at those times, I realize the same thing over and over again. There’s no point in doing something that will just hurt you more in the end.

If someone asked me what I thought about myself a month ago, I would’ve told them: “I wish I could die but not really.” Being asked the same question now, I answer with: “it’s complicated. It’s hard respecting and fully loving myself while being constantly told what my faults are.” I want more for myself. I want to care. Sure, this is actually a new thing for me. I’ll be honest with you; it’s weird and sometimes I think it’s pointless. I’m not really one for showing those closest to me how I really feel. I’m so used to hiding my feelings that now when I try to express myself it can be misunderstood.

Nowadays I am taking care of myself more and focusing on myself which has caused me to stop doing the things that I used to. I feel bad for the people I used to talk to because I never got to explain anything to them. I just had left them without saying goodbye. Sometimes I wish I could tell them what’s been going on and how I am doing but then I remember one minor detail. They don’t care about me nor will they ever. 

No matter how much I wish this wasn’t true it is…. And inevitably, I’m alone during this self-transformation for the better.

Can you see the message I'm trying to go for here? Lmk pls 🙏

Opinions wanted Hi everyone, I know it’s late to be discussing this but I’d really like some opinions. I was having a “disagreement” with another Grey’s fan about what Jackson’s silence meant during Japril The Movie, when they were signing the divorce papers, after April asked him whether he really wanted it. From my perspective, he didn’t answer because he couldn’t. There was no right or simple and truthful answer for him. I feel like the truth is that he was torn between WANTING to say he didn’t want the divorce because he still really loved her. While on the other hand NEEDING to say yes and proceed with it because he couldn’t accept and let go of her abandonment of him when he needed her most. He’s said in the past (to Lexie, I know, but it still applies as his lean towards self preservation at the cost of a relationship) that he had to walk away from her for him. When he spoke about the divorce to April, he said that he knew what he had to do, no matter how hard, that it was “best for him” moving forward and that his mind was made up. And at the same time acknowledging that when he just stopped thinking and let himself be with her, he wanted her. Those are obvious indications that he had strong conflicting feelings between his head and his heart… what was rational/“necessary” and what was emotional/desired. I can see sensing some spite or defiance in his facial expression but I think that’s only because he was still so hurt by the situation. Some people believe that his silence meant that he was sure he wanted a divorce and that his facial expression was saying “really?!?? Of course I want this” But that doesn’t make sense to me after all of his previous actions that he would be 100% certain that he wanted this. It was also suggested that he didn’t say anything because he was prideful and didn’t want to say anything in front of the lawyers. This idea is not in line with his character. It’s true that he has a hard time communicating his feelings but when pushed, he does it. He stood up at April’s wedding in front of all their coworkers and friends, risked his pride and dignity to express his love for her. This is not a man who would go through with a divorce simply out of fear of speaking up. Sorry for the long rant and overanalyzing. I feel very strongly that his silence and facial reaction were complex and profound. It was the climax of all of the intense and painful things they went through and that can’t be dumbed down and simply explained. Am I alone in seeing his reaction in this way? What do you guys think his silence meant?

Hey, how are all of you doing?

So I've seen that a lot of people have a pinned post at the top with a bio and I was wondering if that was the norm?

If so, any suggestions as to what I could put on mine? Idk what I'm doing 😅

@daedelweiss DTIYS!

My goal for this year is to get back into art, and finally use the drawing tablet I got last year. So finding this challenge was a good start. Not entirely happy but this is what I can do right now, gotta say not a bad start. Here is to getting better through practice.

Using a Ghibli Prompt list and for the first day it is a female character. I can relate a lot to Umi from "From Up on Poppy Hill". Also a good start to use some grey markers I had.

Process of my latest drawing from very quick sketch to shading and line work. I am trying to get back into art after a long break and drawing my fav character is helping. Critics are welcomed since since this was a really hard pose and lighting even with reference.

Tried to draw Liliana like Luffy to make them seem like twins but couldn't really find a style.

This is a dog running around out neighborhood. Everytime I drive near him he gives me this look... Or at leat it feels like it.

An older sister and baby brother moment :) (my OCs)

Trying to draw my original character in different positions. What do you guys think?