My Every Waking Moment: They Don't Care, You're Stupid, Why'd You Say That, Why'd You Eat That, Shut

My every waking moment: they don't care, you're stupid, why'd you say that, why'd you eat that, shut up, kill yourself, I'm better off dead, no one needs me, you're so fucking fat, make it hurt more, no one gives a shit, the only way to get out of the way is to die, I want to die, why do I eat so much, I wish I was tiny, just die, they want you dead, die-

What I say to everyone else: I'm okay, just tired