Auggieoof - August (he/him/it)

hello everyone! I have made a go fund me so that I can afford a binder! if you could donate that would mean so much to me, and if not could you please share the link? thank you all so much!!!

when you get into a new hyperfixation but there's NO fandom<<<<<<<<<<

Diary entry #2

I want to make some pvz butcher vanity fanart SO BAD but for some reason I keep putting it off. I saw this post about not being able to put your blorbos in situations can be depression and like. yeah that's true.

Butcher Vanity is an amazing song btw

Probably gonna make some MAMA chicken ramen soon

I have underlying dysphoria that just seems to get worse every day. I look at men irl and online that are cool looking and I get so jealous it makes me angry. I'm still stuck in this shell I can hardly recognize, something that can be fixed or made better but I'm not allowed. I can't even cut my hair short for christ's sake.

Started Gravity Falls last night, gonna try to watch an episode a day; for some reason I have problems watching shows/playing videogames even if they're really good. When I was a little kid I didn't have that issue.

Me when I just wanna grill for gods sake (I want to exist as a gay trans person without having my entire existence whittled down to a political debate where my entire life is spent constantly needing to defend my own right to exist because my life quite literally depends on it)

Filling the void is fun while you're doing it, but then you look at your bank account and you suffer 🙂👍

(Also the plushies I am getting soon are posted here as well, I'm having a very intense mlp hyperfixation at the moment)

[ID: three photos, one is a spongebob meme where spongebob is holding and then opening a container labeled "ol' reliable" with "*in cases of dysphoria" added. Inside is text saying "buying plushies I don't need to fill the void and to forget the body i live in for a second". The next two pictures are a derpy hooves/muffins/bubbles plushie and Princess Luna plushie respectively. /END ID]

Dave and Edgar(Zomboss)

remember those who could not make it to today. honor their memory. live for them.

this year, more than ever. remember those who have perished. live for them. live for yourself. existence is resistance

Diary entry #18

I was with my grandparents at chilis and a transfem lady was our server. I wanted to shrink down and die because, although I wasn't paying much attention, I think my grandma asked my sister if she was trans. She wasn't near when I thought my grandma said that, but transfem lady at chili's I am so sorry I wish people were fucking normal.

I wish I could feel camaraderie (hope that's the right word) with the queer people that I see out and about, but I'm always looking over my shoulder to see if my grandparents are there because GOD FORBID i interact/even look with people like me I guess.

I don't say anything to them, I'm not the type to out people, but I look at them and think they are cool and maybe compliment them. I don't have any friends at all, let alone any queer ones, so these are the only people that are like me in that way I see irl. God I hope this doesn't come off as weird.