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Holy crap... dang. Your so quick to liking. Again, thxxx

No problem, it's cause I e just got home and am already on my phone btw xxxx

List five things that make you happy, then put this in the ask box of the last ten people who reblogged something from you to spread some happiness in the world! 😊💫

1. My family

2. My friends

3. My pets

4. Fanfictions, ships, TV and films

5. DAN AND PHIL

In awtwb, we see Simon take his cues from Baz – he doesn't know how to be in a loving relationship (outside of friendship) and doesn't know how to express romantic love or sexual attraction.

We see Simon slowly learn from Baz, picking up what Baz puts down (making progress in bed when he switches his focus to "pleasing Baz") or identifying the things Baz does for or to him that he likes, and trying to do them for Baz. "I like the way Baz constantly checks on my well-being, you think that could be annoying, but it makes me so happy I wish I always had this..." after reading Baz being Simon's rock, the shoulder Simon leans on for a whole book... we see Simon doing the same thing for Baz in SFC. We see Simon start to use pet names for Baz after Baz has been using them with Simon since they got together, so we can infer that Simon likes when Baz calls him love and darling (and he would, since he insistence on being called Simon and not Snow comes from wanting to feel closer for Baz, since he was used to associating Snow with their distance)... but it doesn't end there. Or rather, it didn't start there...

On their very first meeting, Baz holds back while Simon can't resist the incredible pull he feels towards him. Much can be said about their meeting, about how much it says about the characters and the way they act about their feelings for the other, once they become aware of what those feelings actually are, but I don't want to get sidetracked here. Simon is someone who refuses to process (and so isn't used to analyzing himself or his feelings, or knowing what he wants outside of the very obvious – that being "I want a family, stability, to belong"), who needs something to guide his actions at all times... and so would be used to react to what he thinks other people are putting down. It's a survival instinct.

I think Simon has always been taking his cues from Baz.

When Simon first meets Baz, it's a moment characterized by an irresistible pull, an unbearable pain that can only be soothed by touching Baz. That's how loving Baz feels like for Simon. That's how attraction feels. It's painful to not be able to touch Baz (he will pick fights not just for his attention, but because is the only way he knows how to touch him... note how quickly Simon escalates in his touches in less than 24 hours once the truce begins). And Baz reaction to Simon in that first meeting? He's feeling the same things too, and yet, he restrains himself. While such control can awake certain admiration, his restraint in the face of such intense feelings can also feel like a rejection. Why else wait to hold Simon's hand? Maybe he just doesn't want to touch him at all, maybe he sees Simon as beneath him – which is something Simon could feel and internalize on a subconscious level, even before Baz starts acting in ways that Simon feels like it’s saying that more blatantly (which is part molded behavior and part of a wall – when Simon is like "Baz is the most arrogant person I know" I think Baz was very much exaggerating that shit around Simon, but that's another post)

This sets the tone for their future interactions. I'll never stop saying this because I'm not a bitch easily fooled by unreliable narrators with unprocessed homosexual thirst: Simon has always been following Baz around. It's just the intensity with which he follows him that varies. In one way or another, he always found him interesting and mysterious and enthralling... I also always say Simon is the obvious one between the two of them – he doesn't know, but his behavior betrays him (when Agatha and Penny both figure out in hindsight that Simon's behavior towards Baz has been gay behavior for years... it's them mostly looking back at Simon's behavior, they didn't know Baz like that back then). Baz is way better at hiding himself, and the defenses he employs are thorny. His walls have barbed wires at the top. When Baz looks unimpressed by Simon, but his behavior makes Simon think he's absolutely despised? Simon lashes out – Baz is a(n incredibly fit) creep only capable of making 2 or 3 expressions >:c (yeah, I picture Simon making that face, like he's pouting... because he is! Mr. "I know you're alive because I have been observing your soul" doesn't truly believe this shit). When Baz looks unimpressed by Simon, but his behavior makes Simon think Baz loves and wants him? A turn on, actually. Baz’s resting bitch face makes Simon want to climb him like a tree and suck his face. The difference is in what Simon is picking up from Baz (even if other things also come into play)... that has always been the case, I think. He's not free of impulses (he's full of them, actually) but a lot of his behavior centers on what he thinks (or assumes) (whenever he assumes we have problems) he's getting from Baz.

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I'm a slightly aggressive smol who wants friends. Pls reblog if you like..

Ed Sheeran*

Halsey

All Time Low

Panic! At The Disco

Troye Sivan

Jack’s Mannequin

Melanie Martinez

3OH!3

My Chemical Romance

5 Seconds of Summer

Twenty One Pilots

Blue October

Blink-182

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Riverdale*

Full House

Fuller House

Friends

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Septiplier*

Markiplier

Jacksepticeye

Phan*

AmazingPhil

Daniel Howell

Shane Dawson

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Space*

DIY’s

Memes*

Wattpad

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Cats

Dogs

Literally any animal

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I would do this 😂😂

TODAY AT SCHOOL...

Someone: *plays music on teacher's computer*

Teacher: ...

Teacher: this music is so gay

Me: ...

Teacher: *changes music*

Friend: ...

Teacher: *leaves room to get something*

Me & friend: *changes music to Troye Sivan*

Teacher: *walks back in*

Me: no now miss now you've got GAY music :)))))))

Things about my dynamic with my friend that I just find very funny:

I'm 4'9 and sunshine, lollipops and rainbows. He's six foot, always dressed all black and his neighbours are scared of him.

Despite this, he's the one who censors swear words when texting, while I use fuck vigorously and with great elan.

He's the hug initiator, which is good because I like hugs but I'm terrible at initiating them. I'm the conversation initiator though.

Him telling me to go the fuck to sleep is basically a ritual by now.

On the last day of the festival where we met I noticed that my phone stopped working, he checked it for me, realized the battery had swollen and basically went "okay we will proceed by staying very calm and CHUCKING THAT THING AS FAR AWAY AS POSSIBLE JESUS"

One time I was trying to balance a whole bunch of stuff at once and he was like "you know I can just carry some of that" so I gave him the kitchen knife and he was like"yep I was hoping for that, I think it's better for everyone's safety if I take that "

He calls me sunshine. It's unimaginably sweet.

We both had night watch duties in a camp and were awake for like 24 hours and the next morning he was basically a zombie and I was so high energy I just jumped straight to showering, doing my make-up and going for a jog.

On the second occasion we met he first commented that I'm a lot shorter than he remembered me and then spontaneously made up a poem consisting of two lines which roughly translates to "you're short, but still a sunshine"

the “tumblr community invents a whole mafia movie apparently directed by martin scorsese with an official soundtrack, movie posters, screen caps, and all enough to make one question if that movie really did exist at all like a mandela effect” was not part of my 2022 bingo card