C0kezer0lover

Hey, so I tried recovery, and I recovered. Or so I thought. Anyways I am now gaslighting myself that downloading tumblr again is really healthy, and yea. I don't wanna have 4n4 again, but i kinda do. I have missed it in a way, and idk this probably doesn't make any sense, but of course, i gained a lot of weight, so i am gonna try to lose it again.

I love you all!

Okay so probably no one will see this but that's okay. I ate way too much the last few days so I'll try to skip dinner tonight. Does anyone have good excuses?

I despise myself it looks like I've gained so much w3ight in like 2 days.. I know it's not true because I am just on my period, + I ate like a healthy person, but I feel like a p1g, and I hate myself so much. Why can't stop eating 😭 I literally can't stop thinking about food it is so annoying, but I wanna be sk1nny, so I have to deal with it ig

Anyone got any tips for me?

me looking at the person im eating with to make sure im eating slower than them😭😭

Guys!! I am almost back on my l0west w3ight!!! Ahhhh!! I am getting back on track!!

Morning routine with ED

My current motivation <3

I told my father I am @n0rexic and I would wanna recover, but I can't and would want help. Yk what he told me? "You don't have 4n4. You aren't thin enough." Well, f recovery then