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130kcal for an ENTIRE chocolate cake

If you’ve already seen this recipe on MPA, it’s because I posted it there a while back. Anyway, here it is:

Ingredients

20g all-purpose flour (72.8)

10g cocoa powder (22.8)

2 egg whites (34)

40g allulose (14)*

Total Calories: 143.6kcal

*You can, of course, use zero-calorie sweetener if you’d like. The resulting cake will be 129.6kcal.

Instructions

Beat the egg whites to soft peaks and add in the allulose in 2-3 stages, mixing well between each addition. Continue to beat to form stiff peaks.

Fold in the flour and cocoa powder, being careful not to knock out too much air from the meringue.

Put the batter into a cake tin, flatten out the surface (or don’t and get an ugly cake), and bake in a preheated, 170˚C oven for 20 minutes.

Turn off the oven but leave the cake in there for 10 more minutes.

Irish people; The faeries aren’t real

Irish people; No fucking way will I go in that faerie ring

And after a while you just stop. You stop watering your plants. You stop watching netflix. You stop reading. You stop replying to your friends as fast as you used to. You stop buying yourself nice things. You stop putting an effort into how you look. You stop taking care of yourself like you used to. You stop sleeping. You stop eating healthy foods. You stop petting your dog. You stop socializing.

You stop with everything. You find yourself sitting in your room for hours on end, without doing a single thing. Days feel like years. And you think you can’t do it for much longer.

I'm not sure if this works for other people, but I've found the best way (for me) to study is to go through a page and highlight as many important looking words in one color, then their meaning in another, and sometimes along the way slap a third color in for stuff I think is interesting. It helps words stick in my head and makes the page not feel so slippery! Idk if you accept asks like this that arent questions/direct responses, but i thought it might be helpful for other people too!

Yes, I accept asks like this! I don’t get enough of them with advice, honestly - if anyone has any, please send it in!

Thank you <3

“My interest rate in this conversation is zero.“ Max Black (2 Broke Girls)

Stiletto by Pegasus Leaders.

I find it fascinating that people who choose not to have children are generally assumed to feel really strongly about not having children (or even to feel really strongly against children, anyone’s children, in general). I am probably not going to have children, not because I REALLY REALLY HATE the idea of having children, but because I don’t really really love it. Out of all the major decisions I will make in my life, this one is the only irreversible one. I can sell a house, quit a job, divorce a spouse, whatever. I cannot unhave a child. I cannot opt out of being a parent once I become a parent. I can’t even take a step back for the sake of self-care or whatever, or else my child will suffer.

So for me, having children is fuck yes or not at all. The default will be to remain childfree. Having children should be an opt-in decision, not an opt-out one. Until/unless I develop really strong feelings about wanting to have children, I won’t have them, even if that means I never end up having them at all.

I've seen Blackfish quite a few times now. I honestly don't consider it too disturbing or shocking - just sad and angry at SeaWorld's response.

Another short documentary called Inside the Tanks featured a french Sea Park that had orcas. The guy working at the park who actually came out to talk with the filmcrew about the animal's wellfare? For all I disagree with him on, he actually did what SeaWorld should have done with Blackfish: give their side. That he agrees life could be better for the animals and a better program would be ideal is a step in the right direction, and that is: getting the sea parks and the whale experts on the same page and work together to help their animals! It's the parks who own the whales and have all their veterinary care. It would be ideal to have the same trainers around especially for the whale born in captivity. If they were open to change - real genuine change, there'd still be room to complain but it would be SOMETHING.

Instead, SeaWorld went on the war-path against Blackfish, refused to give the doc their take and called everything in it a lie. Their failure is their own. They had the opportunity to change but that would be an admittance of guilt and that's BAAAD meanwhile Disney parks operate just fine despite ALL the fatalities that happened at their parks. It's like they know not to wear that shit as a badge and spin it like it's always the fault of the victims which is what SeaWorld absolutely did to it's employees. It's not good when you're making Disney look better, SeaWorld!

If you haven't seen Blackfish yet, you should. The most misleading part of the documentary is using footage of wales that aren't actually being described the interviewees ((the baby whale Jon Crow talked about capturing in the beginning of the doc is NOT Tilikum, but Lolita)). That's it though. The rest of it is honestly pretty forgiving of SeaWorld's employees and legacy considering the circumstances - especially the first 10 or so minutes. This isn't some PeTA shit, folks. This movie is sad not only for the orcas but because it makes you feel for these trainers who love these animals and eachother and have been utterly betrayed by the industry.

top 10 horror movies streaming on amazon prime

Suspiria (2018): AMAZING!!! This movie is simultaneously beautiful and disturbing as hell. I haven’t seen the original so I can’t really compare the two, but this movie is without a doubt the most creative horror film I’ve ever seen. The visuals are…stunning. This movie (on the surface level) revolves around a dance troupe where something unsettling seems to be going on, driving several of the girls there crazy. I won’t give too much more away, but I’d highly recommend! The music and dancing is incredible, too. Everything is just so pretty to look at, and so interesting because you never know what to expect, like watching some kind of art presentation. I will admit it starts out a little slow and I found the story hard to follow for maybe the first 20 minutes as I don’t know much history, but make it through those first 20 mins and you won’t regret it! (Warning: this movie is not for the faint of heart. Extremely graphic, gory, and honestly straight up disgusting in parts. One of the most horrifying films I’ve seen in a long time.)

Hereditary: I love this movie!!! Though I didn’t really find it scary in the traditional sense. People acted like it was the most frightening thing they’d ever seen, and I thought it was a bit tame, but then again, basically nothing scares me when it comes to movies, so I don’t know. Let me know if you think otherwise. That being said, it’s still super good and will still make you feel some type of way. Does a great job of making you feel uncomfortable and stressed the whole way through. Which maybe doesn’t sound like a good thing, but if you’re seeking out horror, what else are you here for?? This movie has gore, don’t get me wrong, but not too much compared to any other scary movies. But it’s shot really uniquely and the story is totally unpredictable, and there’s certain things that happen that make you feel so fucking upset because you start to put yourself in the characters’ shoes and you’re like OMGWHYWHYWHYWHYYYY. 

Would You Rather: Kind of a “slumber party fright night” sort of movie. Relies on shock, some gore, and jump scares for its frights, and definitely an easy movie for a beginner of the horror genre. It’s just one of those movies you can watch over and over again, with friends or alone, and never get sick of. This film depicts a game of would you rather where whatever the players choose, they actually have to go through with. It’s interesting to think about which of the two terrifying options you’d pick if you somehow found yourself in the same shoes.

It Follows: I saw this with my friend in theaters and neither of us were very sure how we felt about it immediately after finishing it. However, after giving myself some time to think, I found I couldn’t, well STOP thinking about it. First off, the music in this film is incredible, which is probably something I say way too much, but what can I say? I love a good original score. Anyway, premise-wise it might sound a bit WTF, but somehow it weirdly works as an original, entertaining, and chilling story. I recommend watching a second time, as you’ll begin to notice things you missed the first. Make sure to constantly pay attention to the background of this movie! You’ll notice people walking towards our protagonists the entire time, completely unfocused by the camera, which I enjoyed. It sort of forced you into the shoes of the characters, making you realize how easy it was for you to miss things they did, as well. I also thoroughly enjoyed the opening. 

They Look Like People: This is a pretty low budget indie film, but does horror in a way that doesn’t need a ton of special effects. It will put you into the head of the main character, who has no idea whether he is schizophrenic or actually experiencing the end of the world. The buzzing of flies he constantly hears, the constant anxiety and unease–it’s all just…I don’t know. Brilliant. This film will make you uncomfortable as hell. The ending is very abrupt, but I love everything about it.

Antisocial: Another one of those “good to watch with friends” type movies that doesn’t require too much thought. I don’t think it has the greatest reviews, but honestly I love it. I guess it’s sort of a guilty pleasure kind of movie. The characters can be dumb (not frustratingly so, but they have their moments), it’s fairly cliche, but overall it has a unique story and has lots of gore and fun scares. Apparently there’s a 2nd movie also on Prime, but I’ve never watched it so I can’t tell you how that is, but I’d definitely give the first a shot!

Stake Land: I don’t know what it is about this movie, it just makes me FEEL something. Sort of has a zombie apocalypse vibe to it, although we’re dealing with vampires instead of zombies. This movie does have it’s gore and jump scares, but I’d say it’ll probably depress you more than it’ll scare you. Still, there’s something disturbing and unsettling about it all the same, and I think it deserves a spot on this list. 

We Are What We Are: OH BOY. This movie is great. I absolutely love the pacing, and the excellent way it builds up to the story’s climax. You’ll get uneasier and uneasier as it goes on, and more and more is revealed to you. This family is hiding a dark secret, one that you won’t want to be right about. But maybe don’t eat while you watch this one. It gets pretty disgusting, and I remember feeling a little sick towards the end despite not usually being too effected by gore. 

Animal: Is it cheesy and totally predictable? Sure. But I love monster movies!!! There’s not really much new I can say about this, so I won’t go into too much detail, but the design of the monster is cool as hell. If you enjoy watching movies about people lost in the woods getting hunted by something truly evil, give this one a go. 

The Ruins: First of all, I must stress how badly you need to read the book this movie is based on, by Scott Smith. It doesn’t particulary matter which order; I actually watched the movie long before I realized it was a book and still enjoyed the read. Oddly enough, even though the author heavily helped write the movie script, the book has some major differences?? Overall I liked the book better though because it ends a little darker. That being said, the movie is great! It has a really unique concept for a horror movie, but I won’t say much because I want you to be surprised about what the “monster” is. (So maybe avoid trailers or reading any kind of description!) I know there’s an alternate ending, so I’d be sure to look that up and watch it on YouTube because I remember liking it better since it was more of an “unhappy” ending and I don’t go into most horror movies hoping it’ll end well. This is just such an awesome movie. I don’t know what else to say but that: it’s fucking awesome. You’ll get to watch a group of friends completely deteriorate as they lose their minds, desperate to escape their impossible situation.

Everyday ADHD Things

- Losing things all the time

- Always being late

- Finding it hard to listen to someone talk about something you’re not interested in

- You can focus better when you’re doing something else that requires no thinking (eg, tapping fingers on the desk, playing with your hair)

- Cannot follow spoken instructions because you’ve already forgotten half of the steps

- Takes way longer to clean your room than it takes anyone else because as you’re tidying something away, you realise that your floor is dirty, so you start cleaning the floor, then you realise you should get a rug, so you start thinking about what colour to get, and half an hour later you’re standing in the shops looking for a rug but your room is still horribly messy

- You think someone hates you because they were busy and couldn’t hang out, and you KNOW you’re probably being oversensitive but also you’re worried that maybe you’re not being dramatic and they actually do hate you

- Getting obsessed with (hyperfixating on) a tv show/book/hobby and doing nothing but researching that one thing for weeks on end until one day you just suddenly aren’t that interested in it anymore

- Doing things - even things that you want to do - is hard. You want to get up and put a pizza in the oven but for some reason you just can’t make yourself do it. Now it’s three hours later and you’re starving and also bored so you want pizza and you want to watch the tv but you’re still. Lying. There.

- Trying to do schoolwork is a nightmare. You’re trying to read the work, but your eyes are just glazed over and you’ve read the same page about 10 times but you still have no idea what it says

- You’re obsessively talking to someone about that thing you love and you know that they lost interest about ten minutes ago but you can’t stop yourself from continuing to talk

- You try so hard at school and you’ve been told you have “potential” and would be doing so much better if you just focussed

- You have no money right now because you keep impulse buying

- People think you act young for your age

- People say that you always seem happy (even though you know that it’s not always true)

- You wish you got extra time in exams because you can just never finish them in time

- The first half of your exams have very long and detailed answers, and the second half is just random scribbled thoughts because you absolutely cannot plan your time properly, no matter how many times your teachers tell you that you’re meant to spend X amount of minutes on each question