The first time he saw you, you were undoing his chains.
His wrists were raw, skin torn from years of iron biting into flesh. His once-proud posture was nothing more than a hunched, broken frame, his long, pale green hair tangled and dull. He had no strength left to fight, only hatred simmering behind the eyes that still refused to yield.
You tended to him with hands far too gentle for someone with your power. You fed him, clothed him, healed him. And when his body recovered, you honed his mind.
"You’re free now" you had told him, but it wasn’t freedom you gave, it was discipline, strength, purpose. You sharpened his survival instincts, refined his combat abilities, ensuring he could stand on his own before releasing him into the world.
At first, he thought you were no different from his past captors, just another powerful figure toying with him under the guise of mercy. But as time passed, your kindness never faltered. You spoke to him, not as a master, not as an owner, but as an equal.
And then, one day, you left.
No farewell, no explanation. You had done your duty, and that was all he was to you. A responsibility. A passing moment in your grand, untouchable life.
He should have forgotten you. But he couldn’t. So he searched.
He followed whispers, traced the echoes of your name through the cities and villages, piecing together the legend that surrounded you. Y/n L/n, the Kingdom’s Respected Mage. Revered, beloved, unmatched in power. People spoke of you in awe, their eyes filled with admiration, their voices dripping with devotion.
It infuriated him. They didn’t deserve you. They hadn’t seen you the way he had.
And yet, you had left him behind to return to them.
His fingers curled into fists, trembling with rage and something far darker. If he wanted you, if he wanted you to be his, he needed to become more.
More than the people who adored you. More than the kingdom that praised you. More than even you yourself.
The roar of the crowd was deafening. The Kingdom’s Grand Arcane Tournament, a competition where only the strongest mages, warriors, and scholars gathered to prove their worth. Victory meant recognition, power, and most importantly… a chance to stand before you.
Anaxa’s lips curled slightly as he adjusted his gloves, ignoring the eyes around him. He wasn’t here for glory. He wasn’t here for the approval of nobles or the admiration of the masses. No, he was here for one reason alone.
To surpass you. And he was close.
The trials had been brutal, designed to eliminate the weak and unworthy. Fire rained from the sky, ice storms threatened to freeze bones solid, illusion magic twisted reality into nightmares. Yet, he endured. He thrived.
Every challenge was a step closer to you.
And then, fate finally brought you before him.
He had been walking through the grand halls of the castle, led by a guard toward the final test, when he saw you.
You moved with effortless grace, your robes flowing like liquid magic, the insignia of the Royal Mage embroidered upon your chest. Power radiated from you, but it was your presence that struck him the hardest.
The way nobles bowed their heads in respect. The way knights stepped aside in silent reverence. The way the very air seemed to hum in response to your existence.
You had grown even more magnificent. More untouchable.
His breath caught as he stepped forward, his voice steady despite the storm raging inside him.
"Y/n!"
For a fleeting moment, your eyes flickered toward him. And then...nothing. No recognition. No reaction. You walked past him as if he was no more than a stranger, your focus already on your destination.
Anaxa froze.
Something inside him twisted, snapped, burned.
You ignored him? No.... No, no, no. This wasn’t right.
After everything. After all this time.
His fists clenched, his breathing shallow, but before he could move, the guards pushed him forward.
"The final test awaits" one of them grunted, leading him toward the towering gates of the Arcane Trial Grounds.
Anaxa didn’t resist. He let them guide him, but his thoughts never left you. It didn’t matter. Soon, it wouldn’t matter. Because when he won, when he stood above everyone else, you would have to look at him.
The moment Anaxa stepped inside the Tower, the air grew heavier, thick with enchantments woven over centuries. The last trial wasn’t a simple battle...it was a test of mind, body, and soul.
Whispers curled through the halls, illusions flickered at the edges of his vision, phantoms of his past trying to drag him into despair.
He saw chains. Rusted. Bloodied. Binding his wrists once more.
"You will never be free."
A voice sneered from the shadows. His very own voice. The voice of the boy who had once been weak. The boy you had left behind.
Anaxa exhaled slowly, his pink-violet eyes sharpening with cold resolve.
With a flick of his wrist, magic surged through him, and the illusions shattered like glass.
He wasn’t that boy anymore.
And he would prove it.
One step at a time, he climbed. The Tower challenged him with spell after spell, enemy after enemy, but he never faltered. His body ached, his magic burned in his veins, but he kept going.
Until, at last, he reached the highest chamber, the domain of the Royal Mage.
Your domain.
His breath was ragged, his clothes tattered, but a smirk played at his lips as he pushed the grand doors open.
And there you were.
Standing at the center of the grand hall, surrounded by books, scrolls, and floating runes. You turned at the sound of the door creaking open, your eyes meeting his once more.
This time, you didn’t ignore him.
"You pass."
That was all you had said when Anaxa stood before you in the Tower's highest chamber, battle-worn yet victorious. No praise, no warmth, just a simple statement before you handed him his new assignment. He would now serve directly under you, a mage of the Tower, tasked with studying arcane knowledge, assisting with research, and maintaining magical defenses for the kingdom.
But despite his new status, you kept your distance.
You never looked at him for long. You never spoke beyond what was necessary. You never acknowledged the years he had spent chasing after you.
Still, he obeyed. He played the role of the devoted mage, following your every instruction without complaint. If keeping his head down, working tirelessly, and proving his worth was the only way to break through your walls, then so be it. But he pushed himself too far.
It happened late one night. The Tower was quiet, most scholars having retired to their quarters, but Anaxa remained. He sat hunched over an ancient text, his normally immaculate pale green hair disheveled, dark circles forming beneath his eyes.
His fingers trembled as he traced sigils onto parchment. His mind swam, exhaustion clawing at the edges of his consciousness, but he refused to stop.
Just a little more. Just a little longer.
He had to be stronger. Smarter. Worthy.
The ink blurred. His vision swayed.
And then.. his body crumpled forward, knocking over a stack of scrolls as he collapsed onto the cold stone floor.
When he woke, the world was softer.
The unbearable ache in his body remained, but something warm pressed against his forehead- a damp cloth, cooling his fevered skin. His mind was sluggish, his limbs weak, but as he slowly blinked his way back to consciousness, a familiar presence filled his senses.
You. You were there.
His head rested on something—no, someone. Your lap.
Your hands, ones he had longed for, ones that had once freed him now hovered over his chest, weaving delicate healing sigils into the air.
His breath hitched.
“...You’re awake.”
Your voice was as calm as ever, but there was something different this time. A softness, a quiet concern you hadn’t shown him before. Anaxa swallowed hard, unsure if this was reality or some cruel dream.
"You overworked yourself" you said simply, as if scolding a stubborn child. "You need to rest."
He should have answered. Should have thanked you, should have reassured you that he was fine. But his mind was drowning in you. Your scent, your warmth, the way your fingers had just barely brushed against his hair. For the first time in so long, he felt something other than burning obsession. He felt peace.
His lips parted, his voice hoarse. "Stay."
You paused, your fingers stiffening for just a fraction of a second. Then, with the same unreadable expression, you withdrew your hand.
"You need sleep" you repeated, carefully shifting his head off your lap and onto a pillow instead. "I’ll check on you in the morning."
And just like that, the warmth vanished. The door clicked shut behind you. Anaxa stared at the ceiling, his heart pounding, his fists clenching the sheets beneath him.
For a moment, he had hoped.
For a moment, you had been his.
And now, more than ever, he knew he had to make you stay.
Anaxa was always watching. Always waiting.
For your approval. For your attention. For you.
But no matter how much he proved himself, no matter how hard he worked, you remained just out of reach. Close enough to torment him with your presence, but distant enough to remind him that he was still beneath you.
So when whispers of forbidden magic reached his ears, whispers of power that could surpass even yours- he listened.
It started with a single spell. A curse laced into his fingertips, shadowed energy that crackled at his touch. The rush of it, the sheer force, was intoxicating. For the first time, he felt as though he could close the gap between you. But you found out.
The moment you saw the dark magic coiling around his form, your expression darkened, your voice sharper than he had ever heard.
"Are you insane?" You demanded, eyes burning with disappointment. "You know what dark magic does to the mind of people, to the soul. Were you really willing to throw everything away for this?"
He had expected punishment. Maybe even expulsion.
But instead, you chose supervision. From then on, you kept him under your watch, ensuring he didn’t step out of line.
It should have felt like a leash.
But to him? It felt like being caged in your presence. And he loved it.
Under your watchful eye, Anaxa returned to his duties, but the hunger in his heart never faded.
Late at night, when the Tower was silent, he poured over ancient scrolls, searching for something he had never dared to seek before- his past.
And he found it.
His people. His homeland. The ones who had sold him into chains. The weight of it settled in his chest like stone. The hatred, the pain boiled beneath his skin. He couldn’t stay here. Not when the past still breathed. So he did the only thing he could. He ran.
Slipping past the Tower’s wards was difficult, but not impossible. He had memorized every security spell, every blind spot. He knew how to disappear.
But he also knew you would never let him go so easily.
He should have known you were following him.
Every time the road grew dangerous, every time the enemy’s traps were one step ahead of him, something interfered. A spell dissolving a barrier. A blade missing its mark. A shadow moving just out of sight.
By the time he reached his enemies- the cowards who had once controlled his fate, he knew. You had been there the entire time. But it didn’t matter. Not when he stood before the people who had once sold him into slavery. Not when he saw the fear in their eyes. And suddenly… revenge felt meaningless.
They weren’t gods. They weren’t demons. They were just pathetic.
Killing them wouldn’t erase the past. It wouldn’t change anything.
So he turned his back on them.
And when he walked away, he knew you were waiting.
The journey back to the Tower was silent.
You never scolded him. Never demanded answers.
But when you finally reached your chambers, he fell apart.
"Erase it" he whispered, his voice trembling. "Erase everything."
You stiffened. "Anaxa..."
"Please." His eyes were wild, desperate. "If it’s you...if it’s your magic, master...I won’t fight it."
You frowned. "Memories shape the mind. If I remove them, it will change you."
"It’ll be fine if it’s you controlling me."
The words slipped from his lips before he could stop them.
For a long moment, there was silence.
"You need rest" you said softly.
You turned away.
And for the first time, he wished you would just take him. The silence after his plea was unbearable. You didn’t answer him. You didn’t cast the spell he begged for. You simply turned away, as if his pain, his very existence, was just another fleeting moment in your long, untouchable life. And that broke something inside him. Days passed. Then weeks. Anaxa returned to his duties, but he was different now.
He still watched you. Still obeyed you. Still craved you.
But now, there was nothing else left inside him.
The hatred, the grief, the fire that once burned in his veins- gone.
All that remained was you.
You, who had refused to erase him. You, who had refused to free him from his torment. You, who had chosen to let him suffer.
And if you would not take away his pain, then there was only one other path left.
It happened deep in the Tower, beneath layers of wards and forgotten corridors, where only the most forbidden spells were kept.
Anaxa stood before an ancient circle, his fingers tracing over runes that pulsed with dark magic.
If you would not erase his past… If you would not take control of his mind…
Then he would give everything to you himself.
A spell older than time. A binding more powerful than any chains.
A curse that would tie his very soul to yours.
By the time you found him, the ritual was nearly complete.
"Anaxa!" Your voice cut through the chamber, furious and sharp. "Stop this!"
He turned, smiling softly. Finally, finally, you were looking at him.
"I can’t" he murmured. "I don't want to exist without you anymore."
The runes flared to life. Magic crackled around him, the binding beginning to weave itself into his flesh. You moved. Faster than he had ever seen before, you raised your hands, and in an instant, his spell was shattered.
The backlash sent him to his knees, gasping as raw magic burned through his veins. His vision blurred, his breath ragged, but none of it mattered. Because you were standing over him now, your face unreadable, your fingers curling into tight fists.
"You're a fool" you whispered. "Do you have any idea what you've done?"
He let out a breathless laugh, his eyes filled with something between devotion and madness.
"I tried to give myself to you" he said. "But I was wrong, wasn't I?"
"You're the only one who can claim me. So do it, master." His voice dropped to a whisper. "Make me yours."
You stared at him.
At the man who had once loathed you. At the boy you had saved. At the monster you had created.
And for the first time, you hesitated.
Because despite everything… you felt it too, didn’t you?
The way he always sought you out. The way he belonged to you, in a way no one else ever had.
Maybe it would be easier if he was only yours. If he never left. If you never had to wonder if he'd disappear into the night, chasing ghosts of a past he could never change. Maybe it would be better if he belonged to you alone.
But in the end, you didn’t say those words.
You only sighed, kneeling beside him, your fingers brushing over his pale hair.
"You’re staying" you murmured. "That much is certain."
His breath hitched.
"But" you continued, your voice turning firm, "I will never take away your mind, your will, your soul."
You tilted his chin up, forcing him to look at you.
"You don’t get to run away from your pain, Anaxa. Not with dark magic, and not through me."
He trembled. He hated this. Hated the way you still held the power, the way you still refused to let him give himself up completely.
But deep down, he knew, he had already lost.
And yet, as he knelt there, drinking in the warmth of your touch, he decided.. that was fine. Because in the end, whether you wanted it or not. He was already yours.
twitter trend with anaxa
He should come inside so I can tell him everything about my lore
Im gonna touch him
Anaxa : Stalking? I was just... educating myself on your lore.
self shipping is like the biggest act of self love. it genuinely feels so healing. like yes I deserve love. yes I deserve a happy and fulfilling relationship. yes this 300 year old cryptid would smooch me.
On a romantic day, I draw romantic pictures
bruh hsr players really cant handle characters that dont act like lifelong friends with us😭😭 hating on Aglaea and ruan mei is diabolical
this fandom gotta read more books and then the lore istg
I love you for making anaxa crazy like he really is, like girl, i get angry when people write him normal, or 'soft for you' or just plain lovesick yandere. These are not defining this man this man has already some shit going on in his head and that shit would get worse if he was in love
We love crazy anaxa with no reedemable things🥰😍😍🥰
Awhh 😭
Each to their own, I suppose. My brain kind of just connected it as —
He neither reveres nor fears the “Gods” of Amphoreus.
He doesn't hesitate even a little bit in literally selling his soul for his crazy experiments. Even talks about it casually (and very proudly).
Suspiciously chill all the time.
Understands the way humans tick very well and is quite emotionally intelligent himself. It'd seem like he prefers the logical course of action most of the time, but doesn't seem to stubbornly adhere to one extreme.
A very “the ends justify the means” type of guy.
Conclusion : he's scary, even more so than Phainon and Mydei combined.
a writing competition i was going to participate in again this year has announced that they now allow AI generated content to be submitted
their reasoning being that "we couldn't ban it even if we wanted to, every writer already uses it anyway"
"Every writer"?
come on
ANAXA - Through the Petals in the Land of Repose
hey so in the context of the equivalent exchange thing it really does make sense now why anaxa values love so much. why he travels to okhema just to speak with the families of the dead; why as i've written mentions that he's surprisingly empathetic and good at giving emotional advice. there is a logical reason behind it all:
love is the only power anaxa has never had to exchange anything for.
through love & sheer force of will, anaxa's sister basically changed his fate. her efforts (getting him books, materials, transport to the grove) are what let him become a scholar instead of an outcast. she opened the world up to him and never asked anything of him in return. even though she sacrificed so much, it was somehow worth it to her. anaxa must have seen his sister's love as an infinite source of energy, something that should've been impossible under the laws of fate and alchemy and exchange. a perpetual motion machine, where love is both the motivation and the reward. something that seemed more and more impossible the further he delved into alchemy.
even from a purely logical perspective, of course anaxa would seek to recreate that source of energy in his own life. of course he would try to be empathetic and considerate and giving, despite all his cynicism and arrogance.
because to anaxa, love is the only true miracle.
they should kiss NOW
Aughhhhg revexa my beloved doomed queers
@merlucide bc you luv revexa :33
if I get E1 anaxa its revexa oneshot
If a miracle happens and I somehow get E2 Anaxa I’ll draw revexa kissing🥀🥀
改札の安座椅子はあなたの影すら落とさない˙. ꒷ 🩻. 𖦹˙— 🦋⭑.ᐟcertified hater ‧₊˚⋅°Irl Furina/Vill-v˚˖𓍢ִ ໋Non-binary Aroace/they/themRadiohead/Malice mizer/She wants revenge enthusiast/waiting for Anaxa! sometimes fanart and I swear Im saneplease NEVER take me too seriously, Im being sarcastic most of the timeAnaxa/Furina yumes/selfshippers DNI.
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