I Want To Relapse Over And Over And Over Again I Don’t Know Why I Don’t I Just Want To Fucking Die

It’s so fucking hard being in love with two people at the same time

Why have I been in sk many near death situations and haven’t gone away yet why do I have to do it why can’t I just be taken out god praying for death DOESNT work and it’s obvious Everytime I try I fail I can’t take it god please whoever is up there get me out of here I don’t care if it’s Heaven or hell I deserve to rot in hell I’m disgusting oh my god I’m going to die alone even in the afterlife L.O.L😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂I am miserable and venting about it like this makes me feel even more selfish

I don’t feel as hurt as I would’ve back then. I’m still just upset thinking about you too hard though. I hate this shit so much. I just want you to hurt. I dont Even Need you to miss me, I just want you to hurt and realize what you did was wrong. I can’t even understand how you couldn’t see what you did to me was wrong

I am so fucking worthless when will this end

Shit doesn’t get better I’m so sick of everyone telling me that my life is genuinely horrible I need to die oh my fucking god I’m so angry at myself I just want to fucking die

I have lost the only person who actually cares Color me shocked that’s what happens when you are a disgusting fucking abuser😂😂😂😂😂I have the audacity to bitch and moan when all I do is ruin people’s lives Jesus Christ no wonder my own parents don’t even lvoe me

I am so ugly and incapable of everything and I need to kill myself

I genuinely am such a fucking loser

It’s gotten sk bad I can’t even cry for help from tumblr anons oh my god I can’t take this anymore

I am giving this behavioral hospital a try and if it doesn’t work that will be the confirmation