I Am So Sorry I Am Only Reading The Secret History For The First Time Because I Feel Like I Am Missing

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he is like a babygirl and punching bag to me

judy poovey's party fight story and camilla's country house accident were windows to what really went on between charles, henry, and camilla.

i love these hints and foreshadowing because camilla was almost always made pure by richard's narration, but who again was in the center of both occurrences? that's right. our girl milly.

it's kinda funny to me how many people are so focused on henry being so 'logical' & 'rational' when the man is superstitious af. like he tried to do ornithomancy (the greek divination practice when you read omens through birds' behaviour), & at a certain point, he & richard see a pregnant dog & henry says that's a very bad omen, referencing horace's odes (“let the wicked be led by omens of screeching from owls, by pregnant dogs, or a grey-she wolf, hurrying down from lanuvian meadows, or a fox with young.”), & i found it quite interesting too, as that puts part of the dark in dark academia, u know what i mean?

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Judy Poovey — Fancast + Moodboard

Rachel Sennott as Judy Poovey

“I found her lying in her bed, watching a Mel Gibson movie on a VCR she’d borrowed from the video department. She was managing somehow to polish her fingernails, smoke a cigarette, and drink a Diet Coke all at the same time.”

So I just recently finished The Secret History by Donna Tartt and let me just say, Judy Poovey is my baby!!! Anyway, just was thinking about actors I would want to play her, and I just thought, ‘Oh my god, Rachel Sennott!’ you cannot tell me that she wouldn’t be a perfect Judy I mean come on!!!

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Richard "Took a year of pre-med and still couldn't correctly identify his symptoms of pneumonia and hypothermia" Papen

view from a california beach town

The aesthetics of my insomnia:

crying over TikToks because you love women (/pos)

googling fake Shakespeare quotes (it turned out to be a quote from Tumblr)

writing down an idea for a drawing that you dreamed of in your half-sleep

learn by heart a poem by Lermontov or Pushkin

changing three pillows (one of the pillows is a sweater with a scarf), eventually just falling asleep on a mattress

doing 20 push-ups at five in the morning, because it's better than scratching your skin and quieter than hitting a pillow

looking up the translation of a word (from the language you're learning) that came to mind and you're not 100% sure what it means