Ships Without Lanterns Are Lost To The Sea
ships without lanterns are lost to the sea
Dean’s been awake for a while when Sam’s labored breathing and thrashing limbs finally pull him from the nightmare they both know he’s having. For a moment, all he can hear is Sam’s pointed gasping directed at the ceiling. In this dark, anything could be there and they wouldn’t be able to tell. Dean likes it that way. He thinks Sam does too.
“Do you think she loved me?” Sam asks breathlessly.
Dean thinks of that week away from Stanford, with Sam in the passenger’s seat again, murmuring mindlessly along to Aerosmith. How he woke earlier than Dean and turned on all the lights while padding around the room, going through a half-awake routine of brushing his teeth and pulling clothes on. The way his eyes shone and the corners of his lips pulled up when he folded open his wallet to tip the diner waitress. That easy smile that Dean’s memory had almost forgotten, like a polaroid dulled and tattered at the edges, now back in vivid technicolor.
“Yeah,” he whispers back, voice hoarse from the tightness in his chest. It sounds rough in the quiet of morning, like someone's been rubbing sandpaper against his lungs. Like the words have been cutting up his throat where Dean's been holding them hostage.
“How can you be so sure?” Sam’s voice comes back from across the divide, so empty and unknowing. As if he can’t fathom how someone could possibly love him, just little ol’ Sammy. Dean wants to reach across the space between them, thrust his thumb onto the pulse there, hold Sam’s hand until he just sees, but even he can’t span four years of running in opposite directions. The gap between their beds has never seemed wider, not even when Dean used to still order two queens knowing that the other would never be used.
In the safety of the darkness he wants to say some sentimental shit like ‘ you have mom’s eyes’ or ‘ kinda hard not to with that laugh.’ He bites his tongue until the pain is a sharp reminder in the dull, soundless room. He's been quiet too long. The blood is bitter behind his lips. It reminds him that Sam’s would taste exactly the same.
“You’re you,” is what he says instead, and immediately regrets it, knows he said too much. The words were sharp in this paper-thin silence, slicing it open until all Dean can taste is blood, blood, blood. Sam stays quiet on the other bed, on the other side of the world from him. Dean can still hear his breathing, and knows he’s not asleep.
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could someone please tell me where this came from because kjakdjklfajd WinCEsT
wincest
w i n c e s t
sam?
dean?
is
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the impala
and season one
~wincest~
Host: when you’re doin’ a show like DOOL, daily show, there’re bound to be mishaps, y’know, things happen, people crack up, whatever it might be?
Nostalgia
i miss writing poetry.
i haven’t done it in a while.
i fear that I have forgot how.
i can still pick up pens, put lines together in cacophonous rage, and hate every moment.
the words no longer come to me in dreams,
or spill from my lips like a cracked music box.
i fear that i have become like a bird, accustomed to the silence of a cage, and lost the memory of song.
i can no longer write of fear in any form the assuages it. it swallows me whole, and i think
‘no art is free of suffering‘
Spiralling
sometimes I wonder
if I am falling
or flying
into love....
BULLET JOURNALING
Watch the original video here ( x ) Before I saw this video, I always kept a book for my homework. I use grid paper and it’s perfect for BJ… Heh. After watching this, it helped me to start developing a system I’m currently satisfied with.
To-do apps don’t work with me. It always just sits on my screen with a notification and swiping something doesn’t feel as satisfying as crossing it out victoriously with a pen. ^_^
LEGENDS ( you can also do it like this ) Helps you quickly figure out what certain tasks are at a glance. The colours are for my spiraldexes which I will not be discussing unless you guys request it. c:
Pages This is basically what my pages look like. I write the numbers at the lower corners.I also added sticky notes for extra stuff like memorizing my moral definitions. :p
Calendar ( x ) If you watch the video, you’re supposed to list out the dates but I prefer both, so I draw a calendar and paste it in my book and list out all the really appointments/stuff I have to do in my drawn calendar and some not-important-but-still-worth-noting notes in my list-calendar.
Index Just write down the pages as shown in the video. Pretty simple.
Other things you can include: I also stick some motivational images on the last page and stuff like that. Spiraldexes can be fun but they tend to be a little time consuming to draw or at least, I can seem to use them effectively. :c
Have pages especially for grocery lists/ grades/ etc.
Page full of favourite recipes
Stick an envelope at the back cover and fill it with motivational inspiration!
Stick printables ( x ) ( x ) ( x ) ( x )
Start a goal/wishlist!
Good luck! :*
ROBOTS OR DINOSAURS?
DEF DINOSAURS LIKE LOOK AT HOW CUTE THOSE THINGS ARE AKDJADKJF
if your blog doesn’t have room for baby Jensen holding a puppy you’re doing it wrong.
I’ve gotten a lot of questions about what settings I use, how I color, and how I draw dicks. I may address the third question some other time, lol. But for the others, I made up this quick tutorial.
I AM SORRY FOR MY HANDWRITING. The only thing I don’t like about Paint Tool Sai is that it doesn’t...
hello hello so i’ve gathered a couple of links and websites that are incredibly helpful and just pretty frickin’ awesome, i’ve included books, movies, recipes, workouts, fashion, makeup, school etc. all the links work and are free. i hope this helps! :) (im making a second post soon) - inspired by this lovely post -
entertainment:
movies masterpost
movies for when you’re having a bad day
witch movies masterpost
movies/books masterpost
2013 movies masterpost
my mad fat diary season one and two
movies about love, partying etc.
watch free movies/tv online
masterpost of loads of cool games
list of studio ghibli movies
1000+ movies
fitness:
begginers workout
wide range of different workouts
song length workouts
home boot camp workouts
home workout
"no excuses" workout
fitness tips
food:
brownie in a mug
cookie in a mug
25 hot chocolate recipes
make a yummy smoothie
french bread pizza
homemade fruit roll ups
homemade candy
macaroni and cheese
masterpost of healthy snacks
healthy smoothies
healthy recipes
frozen strawberry yogurt
makeup:
winged eyeliner tutorial
makeup tips
makeup masterpost
hairstyles
eyeliner trick
40 makeup tips
smokey eye tutorial
messy bun tutorial
school/studying:
best learning website ever
math problem solver
back to school masterpost
how to write an essay
receive a kitten every time you answer an answer correctly
how to survive finals
studying websites
manage your study time
how to study properly
more:
coffee shop sounds
kawaii emoji’s
make a fake tweet
sound of rain
ultimate writers resource list
read books online for free
how to make tumblr themes
give food to the hungry
give food to shelter animals
always remember these
kill your anxiety
advice for trans
when to pee during a movie
enjoy!
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