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A4a reminder

An E.D. (any disorder, for the matter), doesn't have one fixed shape or form. Not everyone struggling with it is extremely thin with their ribs visible. Check up on your friends and if you're the one struggling, you're still valid, just as you are.

I wanna feel the bones in my body

Now remember, sugar is your worst enemy

The fact that I spent my teens eating instead of starving is killing me

Tips for fasting

Liquids will be a life saver. Water, coffee, energy drinks, sugar free sodas will help you feel like you're consuming something and give you maybe a few calories that your body can work with and still function.

Sleep. What usually helps me with my fasts is to start my fast after dinner. I usually eat between 6 and 8 PM, so I then feel full and have less the need to snack on things. I go to bed at around midnight and wake up the next day at like 9, so I'm already a solid 12 to 13 hours in. I'm not rlly a breakfast person and only start to get hungry at around noon, and by then I get to 14 to 17 hours.

Keep yourself busy. I noticed it was easier for me to get to my 24h fast in a day where I had 2 classes of 3 hours. By the time I got back to my dorm and my bf and I decided to get dinner, it was close to the time we had dinner the day before.

Remember why you're doing it.

I've been eating more lately, I'm tweaking out so bad. I've been fasting for about... 10 hours now? I'm gonna get to 12, eat something so I don't feel like shite when I have my afternoon class and I'll do a 24 hour fast. I'm sick of my body.

Things I'm looking forward to

Thin arms

Thin thighs

Smaller hips where you can feel my bones better instead of fat

Smaller belly

Slimmer face

Looking more elegant

Looking good in jeans

DPDR core

Feeling like you're stuck in your body/brain

Feeling like this is some sort of dream you can't wake up from

Everything is overstimulating

Agoraphobia

Trouble sleeping

Not being able to function because you're so distracted by the feeling that nothing exists

"Am I really me? Is this body me?"

Overly anxious

Panic attacks

People thinking it's a funny quirky thing, not knowing it consumes every bit of you

using your phone or laptop as a distraction from existing

Feeling numb

Struggling with eye contact

Being restless in crowded places