I Want To Be So Fucking Thin That I Don’t Even Look Real

I wish fictional characters were real

I feel so horrible throwing out food that was made/bought for me

I don’t want to fucking eat it but I feel like such a bad person for doing it

like oh my god just started sobbing and smashed a sandwich my mom made me

I feel like I’m going crazy

like what do you mean I’m LOOKING FORWARD to laying in bed watching like 2013 animatics, crying while cutting myself?? Oh with the possibility of literally feeling nothing but my head getting dizzy from starvation

Manifesting -5kg for everyone who reblogs

Never thought there’d be a day in cussing at my phone because it’s showing me skinny fuckin girls eating all these desserts and talking about how good they are

FUCK YOU LET ME FAST IN PIECE WITHOUT A REMINDER OF WHAT I CANT HAVE

I feel fucking disgusting of my god

I broke a fast for a stupid fucking 85cal cookie and even though I threw it up I feel horrible

my friend was trying to get me to eat sense I haven’t eaten sense Monday and even then it was 311cal for the whole day

I fucking hate eating oh my god I miss feeling dizzy, I miss this morning when I almost passed out because of how I felt

Does anyone else ever feel like their self harm isn’t valid?

Like the cuts aren’t deep enough or the burns not bad enough to be actually taken seriously?

I love gripping my wrist tightly where I recently cut

makes my heart stop for a sec cause the pain^^

I’m so fucking excited to go to the gym tomorrow

I NEED to lose weight this summer

I’m so stupid

At night I’ve eaten and purged to feel

I just want to feel

cutting dinner make me feel because the deeper I cut the number I feel

but when I starve

I feel

I feel the rumble

I feel the dizzy

I feel all the crazy in the good way

I can’t wait to starve tomorrow

and this weekend

I love starving