@velvetmysoul

what a gift it is to come back to yourself

Joanne

September will be filled with happiness.

September will be filled with blessings.

September will be filled with positivity.

September will be filled with progress.

September will be filled with kindness.

September will be filled with opportunity.

September will be filled with love.

18 May 2022- Another Life Update (This time a happy one)

Well, I did it ya’ll. I have, officially, graduated.

These past couple of years have been rough, but I’m really proud of myself. Grad school is already hard on its own. Grad school with a pandemic AND a bunch of negative things happening in your personal life? Don’t get me started...

Anyway, I’m (cautiously) looking forward to what my future holds. So far, I’ve been able to cross off a few things from the vision board I made on New Year’s Eve. I’m determined to cross off more soon.

Also, with school out of the way, I think this is the perfect time to get back on track with my health and fitness goals. I haven’t stepped foot inside a gym in MONTHS. I’m actually looking forward to restarting tomorrow.

I know I’ve done this several times already. I used to feel embarrassed every time I would post about having another setback on here. But, you know what? I’ll restart 100 times if that’s what it takes to get to where I want. 

So, here we go again :)

{Today I am choosing myself.}

it is! x

23 April 2023- Reset

So, I know it’s been a while...

I’m sorry for not being consistent with posting on here. It’s been a really rough few months. 

There are multiple sources of the stress I’ve been experiencing, both in my personal life and at work. 

I’ve been really depressed and lonely and have been dealing with a lot of anxiety.

I haven’t been to the gym in several months, so I haven’t even had much to report here anyway...

I’ve been feeling horrible about myself and I feel like my life has been very stagnant. It also doesn’t help that my birthday was just a few days ago. I feel like this has added to the existential dread I’ve been experiencing this weekend...

I know I need to start taking care of myself again. It’s just really hard sometimes.

But, I intend to start doing that. I’m going to treat this coming week as a reset. 

Starting tomorrow, I’m going to restart my health and fitness goals. I’m going to start going to the gym again and incorporate more nutrient-dense foods into my diet. I’m going to start focusing on myself and my needs more. I’m going to revisit the vision board I made for this year and remind myself about the intentions I, originally, had for 2023 (before stuff started going to shit). I’m going to start journaling again. I’m going to become re-attuned to my spirituality and more proactive with my spiritual practices (e.g., manifesting, cleansing, meditating, etc.). I’m going to start trusting myself again and working on improving my intuition. I’m going to be more consistent with self-care. I’m going to continue to go to therapy and heal. 

I’ll do whatever it takes to start feeling better again.

12 November 2022- I’m Back :)

Hey! It’s definitely been a while...

I’ve still been liking and reblogging some posts here and there...but not very frequently. It’s been a while since I’ve made a post of my own.

Honesty, I’ve been trying to limit how much I use social media. A few months ago, I deactivated my Instagram again (it has stayed deactivated since then). Last month, I, finally, deactivated my Facebook. If there was a way I could, temporarily, deactivate Snapchat, I would... 

I don’t want to blame my insecurities only on social media, but social media has definitely not helped. I end up in this cycle of always deactivating, then reactivating and hurting my own feelings, which leads to a mental breakdown and me deactivating again. I’m sick of it.

Anyway, I’ve decided to just stay off Instagram and Facebook indefinitely. I’m not going to enter that deactivate then reactivate cycle anymore. It’s not healthy. 

Tumblr is nice though...at least my mutuals are :)

I’m really thankful that I have not seen anything problematic on my dashboard (I’m assuming it will stay that way). 

I really like the energy you all have. There have been a few times, during these past few weeks, that I have scrolled on the Tumblr app as an escape.

I don’t want to just scroll anymore, though. I want to participate again. So...this is me, officially, coming back to Tumblr again. 

I want to get back on track (I wonder how many times I’ve said some variation of that statement here lol) with my goals. 

I was also thinking of expanding what I post here. For example I have been, recently, rediscovering my love for reading. I think it would be fun to share some of the books I’ve been reading and plan to read...or maybe I could even make another blog...

Either way, my point is, I’m going to be more active on here again. 

Tonight (or tomorrow morning) I’m going to take some time to really write out what it is I want to accomplish for the rest of this year. I’m also going to start thinking about how I want my 2023 to look. Before I know it, 2022 is going to be over and I’m going to have to make a new vision board...

Looking forward to being back :)