Ugh Wylan Van Eck's Tale Of Self-discovery And Growth, Of Fighting Your Parent Inside Your Head, Of Being

ugh wylan van eck's tale of self-discovery and growth, of fighting your parent inside your head, of being forced into a certain kind of life by things you can't control, of having religion used against you and finding the strength to mock it, of finding something to motivate you, of realizing that you're more than what you've been told, of finding someone to tell you to stop being ashamed, of finding that you aren't ashamed or afraid anymore, of being told that you're impossibly weak and realizing that really you aren't weak at all. man.

free-thoughts on mr kaz brekker and mr anthony lockwood

i’ve seen a lot of people compare kaz brekker and anthony lockwood / say that they would be friends. i’d like to present a lil counter argument

i mean they’re definitely similarly-coded characters, that’s for sure- they carry similar trauma in similar ways, the lil emo boy aesthetic, “i don’t talk about feelings alfred. ive never had one, ive never seen one” type vibe.

but to me, the fundamental difference between them is that in response to all of his trauma, kaz hardened up and closed himself off. he became what he needed to be to survive- the bastard of the barrel. but on the other hand, lockwood stayed a crack open. despite all he did to try and close himself off, he stayed positive and kind- he managed to keep his spark. maybe this is just due to their environments- maybe if lockwood had been in ketterdam, he would’ve hardened completely too- but i still think it’s an important difference between them.

in the hypothetical that these two divas meet, i see lockwood annoying the hell out of kaz- kind of like jesper does, but i think they’re way too similar for kaz to tolerate it in the same way he does w jes. lockwood is too much like jordie, but also too much like kaz himself.

knowing lockwood went through similar experiences (in regards to loss and having to make it alone, while still being surrounded by ghosts) but came out kindhearted would probably drive kaz a little crazy. and alternatively knowing that he easily could have turned out as vengeful, cold, and angry as kaz- maybe that he even had been at some point- would lowkey scare the shit out of lockwood.

i’m not saying they’d hate each other, but i doubt they’d really be friends either. maybe if they sat down, got really drunk, and had a whole trauma-bond/intensive therapy session… but i mean we all know how likely those two are to talk about their feelings lmao

but on the other hand, lockwood and jesper? now that’s two idiot bffs. they’d hit it off immediately- imagine the banter. plus both of them constantly gambling with their lives to avoid their issues, then playing it off like it’s nothing. mr “you’re our greatest asset” and mr “maybe i liked your stupid face”. they would be Unstoppable. chaos would reign. wylan and lucy would form a support group (inej would join).

this got longer than i meant oops. idk they rotate in my brain constantly and i have Been Thinking. i miss my crows and my favorite agency