I Think Love Is When I Put Myself To Bed Even When Im Tired, And I Carry Myself Up The Stairs Even Though

the only way to get what you want is to be brave enough to move towards it. if there is a willingness to be momentarily uncomfortable in order to live the life that calls from your heart then fear loses much of its claim over you and your decisions

False Memories: Trauma and Liberation by AURORA LEVINS MORALES

[image ID: When individuals take on such projects of recovery we often find it far more challenging than we may have expected. Herman writes, "Denial makes them feel crazy, but facing the full reality seems beyond what any human can bear." The heart of the challenge is to assimilate the terrible, the unbearable, transforming in into something that can be integrated; something that can nourish us and leave us with a vision of the world, of ourselves, of humanity, that is bigger than the horror.

What is so dreadful is that to transform the traumatic we must re-enter it fully, and allow the full weight of grief to pass through our hearts. It is not possible to digest atrocity without tasting it first, without assessing on our tongues the full bitterness of it. Ours is a society that does not do grief well or easily, and what is required to face trauma is the ability to mourn, fully and deeply, all that has been taken from us. But mourning is painful and we resist giving way to it, distract ourselves with put-on toughness out of pride.]

from Medicine Stories: History, Culture and the Politics of Integrity

“No more apologies for a bleeding heart when the opposite is no heart at all. Danger of losing our humanity must be met with more humanity.”

— The Source of Self-Regard: The War on Error by Toni Morrison

Realistic Self-Talk

This too shall pass & my life will be better.

I am a worthy and good person. 

I am doing the best I can, given my history and level of current awareness.

Like everyone else, I am a fallible person and at times will make mistakes and am committed to learning from them.

What is, is.

Look at how much I have accomplished, and I am still progressing.

There are no failures, only different degrees of success.

Be honest and true to myself.

It is OK to let myself be distressed for awhile.

I am not helpless. I can and will take the steps needed to get through during crisis. 

I will remain engaged and involved instead of isolating and withdrawing during this situation.

This is an opportunity, instead of a threat. I will use this experience to learn something new, to change my direction, and/or to try a new approach. 

Other people are responsible for their reactions to me. 

I can stand anything for a while because I am resilient. 

In the long run, who will remember or care? 

I see all things through the eyes of compassion.

I honestly have no aspirations anymore other than i want to be able to do my silly little hobbies, treat myself every now and then and love my friends and my cats

A very good chapter of a book is Chapter 7: Envy as a disturbed search for self from Susan Schwartz' Imposter Syndrome and The ‘As-If’ Personality in Analytical Psychology