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Chaos & Fluff

20, she/her, USA Hey, everyone! I don't have anyone to talk to in real life about my hyperfixation, so now it's your problem! Asks and dms are open!

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Quick Sketch Of Disaster Twins (from Textual RP Where I And @alabyte Make Some Chaos). Some Modern Au

quick sketch of disaster twins (from textual RP where I and @alabyte make some chaos). some modern au and headcanons.


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Fuck U Filoni, My Canon Now 😤
Fuck U Filoni, My Canon Now 😤

fuck u Filoni, my canon now 😤

Everybody is happy, Hardcase lives and becomes besties with Wrecker <3 😌

It’s that time of the year again, my Star Wars hyperfixation is back in full force! Most likely will continue to draw more of them boys, I just love them very very much 💛✨

Thanks to @wrenkenstein for Tech’s helmet, it’s been such a big help!

Bad Batch Hugs

Fallen Trooper (Crosshair painting)


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Tech loves his personal space. Crosshair also loves Tech's personal space.

Tech Loves His Personal Space. Crosshair Also Loves Tech's Personal Space.

I genuinely think that we are all chronically short of clones sleeping in puppy piles (even if there are only two of them)

WIP uncolored version under the cut because I like it for some reason:

Tech Loves His Personal Space. Crosshair Also Loves Tech's Personal Space.

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I Am Taking Your Star Wars And Making It Happy Because It's Too Sad.

I am taking your star wars and making it happy because it's too sad.

☆ brain thoughts:

》 Din was taken in and trained by Jango & Jaster instead of the Children of the Watch

》 everyone is ALIVE everyone is HAPPY and the only bad joojoo that happens is typical war stuff minus the empire, fuck you palpatine ya ain't hurting my babies

》 because this is my au and it's my rules, I say the Jedi Order have some sort of rule that only Jedi Masters can have "attachments" which Obi-Wan said fuck yeah and married the heck outta Jango. Later on with the usual Council being shit to Anakin and refusing to make him a Master, I say he ends up leaving the order and lives a life with Padme and his now mixed Mandalorian family because that boy has been through shit.

》 my favorite trope for Jangobi getting together is either of them having to return their kid back to the other because they're troublemaker gremlins and they bond over their babies, stop a war, save their clone army kids from evil old man chip and then boom they perform riduurok.

》 this is basically my excuse to draw baby Din and baby Boba together and growing up and being trained plus Boba pinning over his cute friend. They earn their armor and run off to be bounty hunters together

》 Korda Six still happened but Jaster survived because I say so and instead of trying to reclaim the title of Mand'alor he goes fuck this shit, come here son we're living the life of beroya and off they go

And that's pretty much it, my brain has been scream at me to continue this doodle I did a while ago so here it is. I have no idea what I'm doing with this my brain just wants me to draw some bobadin and jangobi doodles.

Also have a bonus baby Fennec :)

I Am Taking Your Star Wars And Making It Happy Because It's Too Sad.

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Hey, everyone! I know it's been a hot minute, but I have an idea for a fic that I'm probably never going to right, but I thought you guys might like to hear about it anyway!

The thing is, I love crossovers. Even if there are just crossover elements, I'm happy. So, here's what I've come up with:

Star Wars: The Clone Wars w/ Spider-Man Elements!

An independent Kaminoan scientist is doing independent experiments on spiders. One day, two of their spider experiments escape.

The corridor that lab is in is a good shortcut to some of the training centers, and CT-5555, aka Fives, and CT-1409, aka Echo, happen to be using it as the spiders are out.

They both get bitten, but they don't think anything of it. They go to training as normal.

Come nightfall, Hevy, Cutup, and Droidbate are in a panic because something is wrong. Both Fives and Echo have fevers, not so severe that they need the medbay, but still worrying.

Come morning, they have ✨ spider powers✨

Here's what I imagine their powers will be, and possible weaknesses they have.

Echo

Organic webbing, like Toby Maguire.

Venom shock, like Miles Morales in Spider-Verse

Stickiness, obviously

Super strength

Spider sense

Enhanced senses

Fangs like Miguel O'Hara, but smaller

Purring

Enhanced metabolism

Healing

Lack of thermoregulation

Sudden aversion to mint and vinegar

Fives

Also organic webbing

Super strength

Stickiness

Spider sense

Enhanced senses

Venomous fangs that retract (I read about that in an MCU fanfic that I can't remember the name of)

Invisibility, also like Miles Morales

Purring

Enhanced metabolism

Healing

Lack of thermoregulation

Sudden aversion to mint and vinegar

I would also like to note that when they are feeling overwhelmed, cornered, or protective, they are liable to go a little feral.

Anyway, they figure out their powers with the help of their batch, and keep everything completely secret from everyone else. So, at the time of their Citadel exam, they're a lot closer.

Except 99, of course. He helped raise everyone. And Clone Force 99, eventually. Fives and Echo, and the rest of the Dominoes, love those kids. Fives and Echo help them feel not alone.

However, both Fives and Echo are overstimulated, because Bric is an asshole, so they aren't at the top of their game. Hevy decides they should take a calculated risk, and they throw the exam

(in my opinion, this just speaks for their faith in Shaak Ti)

Anyway, they pass the exam the second time around and get sent to Rishi. The twins still keep their powers a secret, but they still train with their powers.

When the invasion of commando droids comes knocking, Echo and Fives' spider senses clue them in, so everyone survives! Yay!

The twins do go feral, and they go a little crazy with the webs, but the first wave is pretty much obliterated by the time Cody and Rex show up. It is stressful to clean up all the webs. Luckily, the rest of the Dominoes distract Cody, Rex, and all the others on Rishi

Anyway, everyone survives so all of Domino squad joins the 501st

Eventually, the Dominoes trust the legion enough to tell them about the spider situation, and everyone loves it!

At one point, Hevy pulls Rex aside and is like, Fives and Echo see boundaries differently, so they were afraid to cross yours by asking, so I'm gonna ask for them. Wanna join us for a nest pile at some point? Because that is a thing they do at least once a week.

(also, that lil interaction is my way of saying I headcanon Fives and Echo as neurodivergent)

Also, once the Bad Batch gets out into the field, the Dominoes absolutely follow their missions, cause they're so proud.

Echo and Fives have told Rex all about them, so the 501st gets to work with them a lot sooner.

As Jesse is leading the Batch to the barracks they'll be sharing with the Dominoes, they hear the Dominoes talking about how proud they are of the Bad Batch and that they really hope the Batch wants to do nest piles like when they were cadets but if not they'll respect their boundaries, blah blah blah

Hearts melt, and a nest pile happens, of course!

And of course thanks to the spider senses Echo doesn't get captured, Umbara doesn't go to shit, the chip situation happens differently, and Order 66 doesn't happen!

Thanks for reading! If anyone ends up making something out of this, let me know! I'd love to see it!


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I have a migraine coming on so I present to you:

How the clones react when they have a headache:

Rex: takes so many pain pills. Refuses to let this stop him. Drinks water constantly. And yet. This man refuses to try a snack to fix his headache. Cody has had Fives and Echo hold him down so he can make Rex eat a granola bar. (The granola bar helps Rex refuses to admit it.)

Cody: refuses to admit anything is wrong. Total hypocrite. Will bully everyone else into pain relievers, snacks, and water but will never take his own advice. Quite like his above mentioned brother he will never admit to something working and has to be tricked into doing something to relieve the pain.

Fox: chews on espresso beans to make his headache a caffeinated headache. Also is just in a constant state of discomfort from not sleeping enough. His headache would go away should he drink water or nap but the man would rather down another energy drink and move on.

Wolffe: will be grumpy about it until he can nap. Is really good about finding some sort of relief and is quiet about his pain. (Likes when someone will rub his head though that helps he won’t ask for it though.)

Fives: biiiiiiig mad. Super baby about it. Immediately wants an aleve and a snack but somehow thinks drinking something with sugar will help??? Instead of water??? And he’s somehow correct every time??? Lays his head in Echo’s lap and requests a head massage and promptly falls asleep.

Echo: I think he’s good about managing pain because he doesn’t want it to impact his ability to do things. He carries snacks and water and will take a reliever if pushed (although he says he doesn’t want to take it because he doesn’t want to ‘waste’ supplies on himself. Take the damn pill Echo you’ll feel better.) Refuses to be alone when he’s in pain and would always prefer someone to just sit nearby if he’s going to nap. As long as it’s dark and calm he’s pretty quiet about it. Tries to hide it 9 times out of 10 but he’s got nosey friends and they somehow always know and bully him into taking care of himself.

Hunter: oof. Poor guy gets migraines. Can never hide it. His eyes hurt so bad. His brain feels like it’s banging against his skull. Has to take some sort of medication immediately otherwise he gets sick. He’d prefer some solitude to be in pain alone but sometimes someone will take his bandana off and play with his hair to help.

Wrecker: Hates headaches but gets them concentrated right behind his eyes. Is not quiet about the pain and will request literally anything to make it go away. Tech is excellent at playing doctor here and knows exactly the combination of things to make it go away and keep Wrecker comfortable.

Tech: if it’s bad enough he will take a sedative and pass out for twelve hours and wake up fine. Does not fuck around and will not remain uncomfortable. He gets the slightest inclination of a headache and he’s eating a mini candy bar and a piece of cheese and also drinking eight ounces of water in five minutes before trying a pill that he knows will target the root cause of the problem. Scary efficient and competent.

Crosshair: oh boy. Will make it everyone else’s problem. He hates headaches. He’ll curl into a ball in whatever dark corner he can find and snap at anyone who tries to talk to him. Best bet is to silently bring offerings of food and water and leave him be until he feels more comfortable. He will never admit it but sometimes really quiet talking or even singing can help him at least feel better.


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Thire: ...Thorn...What are you doing waving your blaster carbine around outside of Fox's office? Thorn: He's sleeping inside. Stone: ...What are you two doing pointing your blasters at everyone? Thire: We're guarding Fox's office door. Thorn: He's sleeping inside. Hound: Huh? Why are you three guarding Fox's office door? Thorn: He's sleeping inside. He's been sleeping for a whole three hours now. Cody: What's going on?...What are the four of you doing threatening everyone who gets close to Fox's office? Is the chancellor in there or something? Thire: No. No one is permitted to enter Marshal Commander Fox's office. Do not call out to him; we will silence you. Obi-Wan: May I ask why? Thorn: He's sleeping. Cody: Force. Ok. Uh...Let me find Rex. We'll help you. Obi-Wan, chuckling: You lot take your sleep seriously, don't you? Cody: He sleeps once a week. Obi-Wan: ...I'll fetch Anakin and Ahsoka.


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Cody: Let's change the subject. Fox can't participate in the conversation because he doesn't have a Jedi. Fox: What do you mean? I have a Jedi. Rex: My Jedi isn't yours just because he spends too much time around the Senate. Fox: I'm not talking about your crazy Jedi. Wolffe: So you're serious? You have a Jedi? Bly: Since when does the Coruscant Guard have a Jedi? Fox: Since I arrested him. Cody: Wait...Fox, no. Rex: Huh? Fox: He hasn't left since. Wolffe: You arrested a Jedi? Wouldn't that be a Sith? Fox: No, he's a Jedi. He's an idiot Jedi, but he's a Jedi. Bly: So, wait, let me get this straight...You arrested a Jedi, that Jedi won't leave you alone now...so you're keeping him like a stray tooka? Fox: Yes. Cody: Fox, please. Rex: Who is this Jedi? Fox: Quinlan Vos. Cody: I'm leaving Coruscant.


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How did Rex get his name?

5 year old CT-7567, running excitedly towards Cody the moment he sees him entering the CC cadet barracks: Cody! Cody! Fox gave me a name!!! Cody, surprised since Fox had initially opposed taking in '67: Really? That's great vod'ika! CT-7567, practically bouncing on the tips of his toes: Yeah! He said it means 'King' in a really old language used by ancient Jetii! He said it fit me because of two reason! Cody, curious: Those being? CT-7567, pausing to think: Well… He only said the one, not the second... But he said I had the makings of a great leader! Cody, a little suspicious: That's awfully kind of Fox. What did he name you then? CT-7567: My name is Rex! Cody, well aware that 'Rex' is a popular name for pet massiffs and dogs: Cody, looking towards Fox who has a shit eating grin: Cody, unwilling to shatter Rex's innocence well before time: … That's a great name Rex… Wear it with pride vod'ika… Rex, grinning from ear to ear: I will! -runs off happily to go tell his batchers- Cody, watching his little brother go: … Cody, looking back at Fox once Rex is gone: You motherfucker... Fox, cackling: I wasn't lying. He's got the makings of a great leader… Fox: It just so happens that he's also a little bitch that bites. Cody: Start running.


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I love the idea of Din and Boba being soft for each other, Grogu, and no one else. This illustrates that perfectly!

🔫 Bitch I Don’t Miss And I Aim For The Chest 🔫

🔫 bitch i don’t miss and i aim for the chest 🔫


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I know it ain't father's day but this is so cute and I don't want it to get lost in my likes folder

happy Father’s Day to din djarin

Happy Father’s Day To Din Djarin
Happy Father’s Day To Din Djarin

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AU in which the chancellor dies in a freak (probably Zillo-beast related) accident. Everyone is attending his funeral and really, the Jedi are trying really hard to mourn but it’s incredibly difficult to when the entirety of the coruscant guard is apparently throwing a mental and spiritual party so loud in the Force Dathomir can feel it.

AU In Which The Chancellor Dies In A Freak (probably Zillo-beast Related) Accident. Everyone Is Attending

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Hey, everyone! I know it's been a hot minute, but I have an idea for a fic that I'm probably never going to right, but I thought you guys might like to hear about it anyway!

The thing is, I love crossovers. Even if there are just crossover elements, I'm happy. So, here's what I've come up with:

Star Wars: The Clone Wars w/ Spider-Man Elements!

An independent Kaminoan scientist is doing independent experiments on spiders. One day, two of their spider experiments escape.

The corridor that lab is in is a good shortcut to some of the training centers, and CT-5555, aka Fives, and CT-1409, aka Echo, happen to be using it as the spiders are out.

They both get bitten, but they don't think anything of it. They go to training as normal.

Come nightfall, Hevy, Cutup, and Droidbate are in a panic because something is wrong. Both Fives and Echo have fevers, not so severe that they need the medbay, but still worrying.

Come morning, they have ✨ spider powers✨

Here's what I imagine their powers will be, and possible weaknesses they have.

Echo

Organic webbing, like Toby Maguire.

Venom shock, like Miles Morales in Spider-Verse

Stickiness, obviously

Super strength

Spider sense

Enhanced senses

Fangs like Miguel O'Hara, but smaller

Purring

Enhanced metabolism

Healing

Lack of thermoregulation

Sudden aversion to mint and vinegar

Fives

Also organic webbing

Super strength

Stickiness

Spider sense

Enhanced senses

Venomous fangs that retract (I read about that in an MCU fanfic that I can't remember the name of)

Invisibility, also like Miles Morales

Purring

Enhanced metabolism

Healing

Lack of thermoregulation

Sudden aversion to mint and vinegar

I would also like to note that when they are feeling overwhelmed, cornered, or protective, they are liable to go a little feral.

Anyway, they figure out their powers with the help of their batch, and keep everything completely secret from everyone else. So, at the time of their Citadel exam, they're a lot closer.

Except 99, of course. He helped raise everyone. And Clone Force 99, eventually. Fives and Echo, and the rest of the Dominoes, love those kids. Fives and Echo help them feel not alone.

However, both Fives and Echo are overstimulated, because Bric is an asshole, so they aren't at the top of their game. Hevy decides they should take a calculated risk, and they throw the exam

(in my opinion, this just speaks for their faith in Shaak Ti)

Anyway, they pass the exam the second time around and get sent to Rishi. The twins still keep their powers a secret, but they still train with their powers.

When the invasion of commando droids comes knocking, Echo and Fives' spider senses clue them in, so everyone survives! Yay!

The twins do go feral, and they go a little crazy with the webs, but the first wave is pretty much obliterated by the time Cody and Rex show up. It is stressful to clean up all the webs. Luckily, the rest of the Dominoes distract Cody, Rex, and all the others on Rishi

Anyway, everyone survives so all of Domino squad joins the 501st

Eventually, the Dominoes trust the legion enough to tell them about the spider situation, and everyone loves it!

At one point, Hevy pulls Rex aside and is like, Fives and Echo see boundaries differently, so they were afraid to cross yours by asking, so I'm gonna ask for them. Wanna join us for a nest pile at some point? Because that is a thing they do at least once a week.

(also, that lil interaction is my way of saying I headcanon Fives and Echo as neurodivergent)

Also, once the Bad Batch gets out into the field, the Dominoes absolutely follow their missions, cause they're so proud.

Echo and Fives have told Rex all about them, so the 501st gets to work with them a lot sooner.

As Jesse is leading the Batch to the barracks they'll be sharing with the Dominoes, they hear the Dominoes talking about how proud they are of the Bad Batch and that they really hope the Batch wants to do nest piles like when they were cadets but if not they'll respect their boundaries, blah blah blah

Hearts melt, and a nest pile happens, of course!

And of course thanks to the spider senses Echo doesn't get captured, Umbara doesn't go to shit, the chip situation happens differently, and Order 66 doesn't happen!

Thanks for reading! If anyone ends up making something out of this, let me know! I'd love to see it!


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Hey, can someone help me find a long fic of Anakin and Padme being a power couple? Because I just know they had so much potential to be one, and George Lucas ROBBED us of that. So... Help a girl out please? I will send virtual hugs in return for longfic recommendations 🙏


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I'm reblogging this cause I've looked at the ones in the comments and I need more

Fives fix-it fic recs

Does anyone have any good Fives fix-it fic recs?

Because I need to forget everything I just watched.

He's totally fine and still alive and everything is ok and the chips are discovered and order 66 doesn't happen and everyone lives and nobody dies and all the clones get to live happy free lives and *sobs*


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This is why I love the clone wars fandom. Not only because the show is a masterpiece, but because it is believable that Hardcase would do this. After all, it is canon that the 501st is filled with chaotic dumbasses.

Hardcase Found Some Cones In Storage, And Now He's A Cone Trooper!

Hardcase found some cones in storage, and now he's a cone trooper!

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Hardcase Found Some Cones In Storage, And Now He's A Cone Trooper!

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So folks, I'm on season 6 episode 9 of the clone wars... Like, damn. I've had a hard time with Mace Windy at times, but why didn't anyone tell me that he adopted Jar Jar? It's so wholesome, it has added 6 months into my life span. Seriously, after the unfortunate fate of Fives, which I'm in denial about, I needed some wholesome star wars content. They delivered for sure!


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I'm trying to find a fic on ao3, and I can't remember the name of it for the life of me. It's part of a series, where basically Anakin gets transported into Darth Vader's suit right before the death star fires on alderan, and Padme gets transported, too, she wakes up in her grave. Please help me!


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I don't want this to get lost in the abyss that is my likes folder, so here you go.

Since this is apparently getting more traction than I had anticipated…

Hi! I’m Day, I’m here for writing because that what I’m mostly good at? Thus far punkflower seems to be my most well-liked thing that I’ve been writing so far so that’s what I’ll focus on with this blog for now. This is technically a sideblog, but I want you guys to know that even if I can’t reply to comments you leave me, I love and cherish them regardless!

I don’t have much written yet for this blog, but you guys all are so encouraging it’s likely I’ll end up writing more. Please bear with me as I add more!

(Also, if people are interested, I was thinking of doing a tag list for fics, like maybe a permanent one of like 20-25 or so? Let me know, I guess!)

Written thus far!!

Punkflower:

Awkward First Impressions (Hobie’s Introduction from Hobie’s POV)

A/B/O Spiderverse with No Current Name (oh god it’s getting so long now…):

Part 1/Part 2/Part 3/Part 4/Part 5/Part 6/Part 7/Part 8/Part 9/Part 10/Part 11

A Whole New World AU (Aladdin-Style):

Part 1/Part 2/Part 3/Part 4/Part 5/Part 6/Part 7/Part 8

Is the Millennium Falcon a circular ship or a cylindrical ship? Please discuss and reblog.


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I saw the B in Spanish dialogue and I had to draw it

I Saw The B In Spanish Dialogue And I Had To Draw It
I Saw The B In Spanish Dialogue And I Had To Draw It
I Saw The B In Spanish Dialogue And I Had To Draw It

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AAAAAAA!!!!!!!

fucking PERFECT OH MY GOD?? You are a dazzling person, truly, holy shit. the CHARACTER ACTING IN THIS IS TOO GOOD.


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We all know about the DDOS attacks on AO3 as it is still down. So it is very important we talk about the KOSA(Kids Online Safety Act) that is going to hit the floor soon. Because if that act goes through this could very much be the new reality of not only AO3 but online fandom spaces within the next year. The point of this act is to limit queer media and to eliminate online queer spaces.

Let me stress, the politicians are lying to you. Democrats and Republicans are lobbying for this. It is not pro trans rights and it is not pro lgbtq rights. This is very reminiscent of the Restrict Act! Politicians can SUE websites for having QEEER CONTENT. This act will not protect kids, it will further separate and marginalize the queer community!

If this bill goes through AO3, Wattpad, TikTok, Tumblr, and Twitter will be limited and fanfiction websites could be wiped out all together. If you are apart of fandom spaces pay attention and ACT! Call and email your senators! AND SIGN THE BELOW PETITIONS!

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Linktree. Make your link do more.

Reblog this! Send the links to people who aren’t on Tumblr! If you care about fandom, fandom spaces, your ships, your blorbos, fanfiction writers’ works, freedom to create, etc. Spread this!

Wake up besties the dinluke faves collaborated !!!!

To which @swedenis-h​ had this super sweet comic idea and I wanted to do it justice :D 

Comic sketches (courtesy of the lovely @swedenis-h​) 

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Oneshot (courtesy of me lol) 

Dusk on Tatooine had always been filled with heady purple and the last licks of sweat the day tried to cling to, the day like an overenthusiastic mastiff trying to be led away.

Two dots of red on the horizon, a flickering fire- Tatooine shed its warmth like washing slobber from skin. The day’s heat lingered, and lingered… and vapourised without warning.

A flicker of silver, a spark of gold.

The smell of hot circuitry, huddling closer to the fire. Luke tried to stay still as Din removed the wiring tool from the open wiring panel of his robot hand.

“It’s beautiful work.” Din complimented gently, lowly, his gloved fingertips tracing the palm lines of Luke’s prosthetic hand. Almost as if he was tracing the lines of a map, learning the routes by heart. Luke imagined it would feel really nice, if there hadn’t been a dull edge of metallicism to every sensation from that hand.

“It doesn’t…” Luke fights a frustrated noise, feelings stuck in his throat like backed up Tatooine traffic. His throat tightened.

A breath.

“It’s not.” Luke admits finally, gaze shifting to meet Din’s. A warriors fire sparking in his eyes for the tiniest moment as he resigned himself to unravelling this particular insecurity for Din the way he had cracked the circuitry of his robotic hand wide open.

Young, immature. The harbingers that were supposed to breed wisdom and maturity… may have only just hurt the people he loved.

How could it not have? With Han’s sight affected for the rest of his life and Leia having nightmares about watching the empire take Han away…

Forces, he’d been so stupid. Too wrapped up in the thrill of getting to finally use Force for good to realize the time had been wrong.

Would the situation had resolved itself without his intervention? Had Luke lost his hand for nothing?

“This is going to sound weird…” Luke trailed with a reluctant smile, struggling with the words- embarrassment reigning them in until they crowded in his mouth. Hesitancy to lay bare; a fog he couldn’t shake. “But…”

He grimaced.

“It’s not your hand?” Din asked, ripping the words right out of his mouth. Luke blinked back at him, surprised.

Luke gulped thickly, but the tight knot of emotion wouldn’t unravel.

“Yeah.” Luke murmured reflexively, casting his gaze down- back to his hands. They were both held aloft in front of him, palms up. In theory there wasn’t much visible difference between them, but…

“Mine had calluses,” Luke began, his voice cracking at the admission as his eyes darted to where the calluses used to be. “from my work at the farm.”

An image of his hand before the injury conjured itself in his vision, like an overlay, as he studied the robotic one. Sticky blackness climbed his insides, his skin crawled.

A ghost he was haunted by day and night.

Din paused in his ministrations, and the silence yawned and waned in the space between them.

Luke was drawn back in.

“It had scars from working on ships,” Luke explained, his left, real, hand reaching out to point to the vulnerable stretch of skin around his wrist and the skin on the other side of his hand. It was pale in a way that was uncharacteristic of Luke’s tanned skin tone. The skin looked less durable than the rest of him on the robot hand, a constant chink in his armour.

A breath. Luke could see the ghost clear as day, like a sort of glitchy holo projection.

“It also matched my left hand.” Luke’s voice was small as he stared at the robot hand, the gaping hole where the circuitry he had been showing Din spilled out. The visible circuitry when he fixed it made it both more and less easy to see the hand as his, paradoxically.

Luke had almost lost more than his hand.

The price of his hand was nothing compared to the company of his friends. His loved ones.

He knew that.

He knew that.

But why was there such a bitterness there? A guilt and shame- the robot hand meant more than just a second chance at mobility; it meant an unspoken forgiveness from his loved ones.

And Forces, that was hard to digest.

Leia, Han and Chewie had almost died that day. It would have been his fault that their stars had blinked out, and Luke would probably never forgive himself for it.

He’d just dove in unthinkingly, all of his mind on the need to save them that he hadn’t thought it through-

The robot hand was just one big scar he’d never be rid of. One big forgiveness he wasn’t sure he deserved.

Why was blind, reckless, heroism worth any forgiveness?

Luke would always be haunted by his old hand- the one that had just always been a part of him- it followed him when tinkering and sparring, the loss a thing of endlessness.

A gloved hand grabbed out for the wrist of Luke’s real hand, cutting Luke’s absent movement short. He’d been unknowingly tracing the places his right hand used to have character and definition. Startled, Luke’s thoughts fell away.

“I-I… I sound insane.” Luke back-pedalled, feeling self-conscious and awash with a hot and sticky shame at the vulnerable oddity about it. Fuck, he’d opened up too much there-

A tug.

“These are my real hands,” Din’s warm voice followed, and Luke looked up at him with a moment of flustered confusion.

Din looked down at his own gloved hands, studying them anew. “The ones you see now.”

“I know their weight. Their durability.” Din flexed his hands like he was about to pick up a rifle.

“The ones underneath the gloves, I haven’t seen as mine for a long time now.” Din admitted softly, looking at his hands now like they were foreign to him. “They were soft, and reaching for something that doesn’t exist anymore.”

Oh.

And then-

Oh.

Din had lost his parents, but he was talking about the new relationship with his hands that his gloves gave him after the loss of his home. The gloves being used both to bring about vulnerability for others while protecting the vulnerability of Din’s open and wanting palms from his youth.

The side of himself that never had the opportunity to mature slowly. The side that grew up too fast but there would always be a sliver of, crying out for home.

Luke blinked, looking back up at Din.

“They were hidden away with a pain I never want to feel again.” Din’s voice wavered, and Luke unconsciously reached out, cradling one between his cupped palms, resting it on his knee.

“Yes, these hands have seen my mistakes, but they’ve seen my successes, too.” Din reached out with his other hand, trailing it along the territory of the faux skin of Luke’s robot hand with a reverence that made Luke’s face hot with something. Something between tears, appreciation and gratefulness.

Perhaps all three.

“The hands I know now were a gift.” Din concluded, looking Luke right in the eye. Luke could puzzle out his message now.

“A second chance.” Luke finished for Din, and he nodded affirmatively.

Not a mark of forgiveness. A possibility to start again.

“They may not have the scars to prove it, but they are mine. Just as much as the hands under the gloves.” Din softened, gloved fingertips lingering around the fleshy part of Luke’s robot wrist, near the open wire access panel.

Luke felt himself flush, flattered by the way Din so deftly applied such a simple yet all-encompassing type of logic to find a solution.

There was earnestness to it, fresh and raw. A hopefulness.

“Hm.” Luke hummed back, letting Din’s truth wash over him and settle, clinking, next to the old one.

Perhaps Luke had been thinking about the robot hand all wrong.

He took in Din with their hands still intertwined in the space between their knees, a pang of warmth filling him.

Look not to the past, but to the future.

Luke smiled. How Jedi of him.

Din’s helmet looked back down at their joined hands, and then back up at Luke.

All of a sudden, Luke was very aware they were still holding hands.

Luke blinked, blushing a deep red, letting go at the same time Din did and pulling his hands in to his chest like they had been burned.

“Thanks for the hand-” “Yeah! Uh-”


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